urbanation

one of my fav songs of all time

if there’s one thing you should know it’s that i’d rather play the fool i’m good at showing that i care was never one to play it cool you could've told me all your secrets i would’ve told you all mine back but you left me in the dark and let it all just fade to black are you gonna let it die? you’re not even gonna try cause you’d rather let it die you’re not even gonna try i tried to wish it all away i even tried to cry it out i worked until the break of day drove with the music way too loud sometimes i think i hurt your feelings and other times i think you're fine i wonder if things would be different if you had just considered mine are you gonna let it die? you’re not even gonna try cause you’d rather let it die you’re not even gonna try // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/ www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca www.urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

cover art: DORA JUNG, Kallionlohkare (Rock Boulder), Finland, 1970. Damask weave on wool and silk. / Bukowskis

i could never call myself your winning luck your gem beneath the junk a smile your little spell is not enough to keep me hanging on your shelf there's nothing more i'd regret than wasting all my time instead waiting for the perfect one to give me everything i want you can give it all to her somebody that needs it more i'll love myself better than you can but you have my mind always spinning i won't settle for a late night excuse for you to come darken my door and every night i rest easily knowing that babe you're what i want not what i need there's nothing more i'd regret than wasting all my time instead waiting for the perfect one to give me everything i want you can give it all to her somebody that needs it more i'll love myself better than you can but you have my mind always spinning // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/ www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca https://urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

this is what being happy sounds like in my head ~ i'm just going to put this out now since i don't think it'll fit in any album i plan on making... also stay tuned for my album "transparency" // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

https://soundcloud.com/biancamp3/new-order-bizarre-love-triangle recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

don't waste your time i'll keep mine i blame myself for even trying did you come my way just to give yourself a stage? all the love you feigned just to feel a change in pace kiss and run make a mess for me to save have your fun light a fire then walk away kiss and run i'm out of your mind you're on mine i replay that day, i want to rewind but you came my way cause you craved a game to play showed me you could stay while you knew you'd fade away kiss and run make a mess for me to save have your fun light a fire then walk away kiss and run // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/ www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

wish you knew that you'd make it out of this all the good times that you feel you should miss stop believing that you're not deserving of them don't you cry cause you're not the mess you see in the mirror like a sad shell of who you wish you were i know you feel like you’ve lost yourself but you’re fine cause the earth will continue to spin and the birds will continue to sing when the sun comes up, you'll do the same cause you’re fine when you’re sad and all alone in your bed and you can’t shake off those thoughts in your head just remember you've always been bigger than this you'll be fine when you’re down and drowning in your shame and bad habits seem to keep calling your name just remember you're not the one to blame it's alright cause the earth will continue to spin and the birds will continue to sing when the sun comes up, you'll do the same cause you’re fine ​ // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

face wants - a concept i learned about in class that led to a lot of self reflection and synths // impostor syndrome strikes again looks like everybody wants to be your friend but when the curtains close do you even know where you will go? feeling so alone secretly sleepwalk in the light you found shelter in the shadow of your mind shapeshift to fit inside a framework that you like feeling lost inside what do you want me to be i think i might lose myself if you don't choose yeah i've been waiting for you a beacon in the night some semblance of a sign i'd give it all sometimes to know what's waiting for you self-made distraction traps you in how do you know that you are meant to be just this? you seek a sense of validation from a screen do they know you're who you want yourself to be? do you know you're who you want yourself to be? what do you want me to be i think i might lose myself if you don't choose yeah i've been waiting for you a beacon in the night some semblance of a sign i'd give it all sometimes to know what's waiting for you - "face wants" is an ode to myself about a concept i learned about in class. if i remember correctly, there are two types of face and one of them is called positive face, which refers to our desire for praise and approval from others. face wants is the idea that we want other people to fulfill our face so we can feel validated, and we do many things to protect or save face, or how we appear to others. when i was making “face wants” i thought a lot about how social media is an outlet where we can inflate our self-image and portray the person that we want to be. it can be very confusing to figure out who you are, especially when you’re young and bombarded with messages we find on the internet about who we should like, where we should be, what we should look like and what we should be doing. it made me reflect about my relationship with social media and how sometimes i find myself "shapeshifting to fit inside a framework" that i like, which is, a lot of the time, not the greatest thing for one’s mental health. using instagram as a mirror or a tool for approval can be damaging and is something i’m still working on. since a lot of my music is kind of slow and mellow, i thought it would be an interesting juxtaposition to pair a modern-day concept like social media with an energetic ‘80s new wave vibe, a genre i hold dear to my heart because of my parents and their love for it. // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo http://instagram.com/bianca.jpeg/ http://www.youtube.com/user/ocampobianca http://urbanationmusic.bandcamp.com/

blame me out of spite blame it on the way i overlooked all the signs that told me it was wrong like they never bothered me at all you will be alright just another loss you can't revive quick to disappear out of my life i know that i have waited too long to confess that i don't want to see you anymore no it isn't you im looking for and i can't put this feeling to rest but you don't have to say anything at all i'll be on my way

i shake my head just to get you out of it it's not free real estate so get out of my head one second you're dying to be next to me and then the next you're leaving me lonely on read i used to think that i would always like you but feelings are fleeting and i wanna be alone i'm tired of everything you're doing to me im done with everything you said i'm not your friend i'm not your friend i built myself up to the point i can't risk someone like you to make it all fall down again i'm laughing cause i let you put me through this not even worth it what's the point of playing pretend i used to think that i would always like you but feelings are fleeting and i wanna be alone i'm tired of everything you're doing to me im done with everything you said i'm not your friend i'm not your friend no we're not friends it's a dead end i'm not your friend

track 4/4 on "easy" EP - OUT JANUARY 2019 i waited all day for you to call me you keep me around just cause yeah you know that i'm weak my mistake it's all my fault i lost my balance took a fall and what it is to you what it is to you is never gonna be what it is to me all i wanna be all i wanna be is anything but easy no i'm not as smart as i'd like me to be let you get away with hurting me on repeat but you don't know me at all bet you're not listening to this song cause what it is to you what it is to you is never gonna be what it is to me all i wanna be all i wanna be is anything but easy // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

such a pretty song. *please vote for me to play NOISEPOP 2019 <3* http://bit.ly/2Rfg6Zu cover recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpm-v7bUVNI give me something a little loving to pull me through the day give me something my head is rushing i want to feel okay but i feel nothing theres no discussion about something we can't save but all of the snow turns to water all of my tears they will dry someday give me something we're on thin ice and the pressure's had its way give me something though you gave up i wish you were here to stay but all of the snow turns to water and all of my tears they will dry someday ​ // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo cover art photo taken by christian uribe

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5zxNC7-Jys roomie wasn't here tonight so i got to record :) original song by https://soundcloud.com/beabadoobee

you're more than what you put yourself through i wish i could help it i know you're hoping it would change all this insanity you love i'm tired of mediating you've got so many years to come because you're always trying to save face you could do better but you still stay you said i'd understand someday it was my 20th birthday i'm happy i'm not settled down it's too late for some people i'd rather wait for it to come my way i don't seek anything at all not when i see you like this i've got so many years to come because you're always trying to save face you could do better but you still stay you said i'd understand someday it was my 20th birthday written + recorded by bianca ocampo produced by bianca ocampo

a song that never gets old cover recorded + produced by bianca ocampo original song by https://soundcloud.com/yeah-yeah-yeahs-official

stripped version: https://soundcloud.com/biancamp3/shouldnt-you-be-doing-something-too-stripped-91218-441-pm tell me things are gonna be ok one more time always feel like i’m going the wrong way just cause you push it out of your head doesn't mean it’s not there tell me not to worry one more time mom’s asking what i’m gonna do my sister’s telling me i’m screwed shouldn’t you be doing something too? shouldn’t you be doing something? sometimes i think i’m better in my head anamorphic daydreaming instead about living in a pretty place darling not a pretty price to pay baby get your act together it's a cold cruel world out there! mom’s asking what i’m gonna do my sister’s telling me im screwed shouldnt you be doing something too? shouldnt you be doing something? written + recorded by bianca ocampo produced by bianca ocampo and josh frazier (https://soundcloud.com/boyjosha)

thank you to lawrence (https://soundcloud.com/el_ohel) for letting me sing this poem over his delicious song: https://soundcloud.com/el_ohel/mute -- dizzy feelings when i fall i never thought i'd ever feel this way at all soft and fleeting but still it's cold and home isnt as home as i recall and some of them seem to want to stay linger too close to wish away for you they may fade while you sleep they always follow me... written, vocals recorded + produced by bianca ocampo guitar by lawrence amos

cover recorded + produced by bianca ocampo *original song* by https://soundcloud.com/innrwve https://soundcloud.com/innrwve/balto?in=innrwve/sets/underwater-pipe-dreams video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0URtNhgP96s <3

caught the post-concert love bug ...... lame... -- i've never wanted more than to be the one you adore everyone acts so different but they're all the same sweat dripping on your white shirt calluses on your fingers and when you look my way that's when i wake i'm alone i'll never know you outside your shows but maybe if i wait you'll see my face things could change sweat dripping on your white shirt calluses on your fingers and when you start to play the night away you sing my name // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo i tried reuploading better quality but one of the audio files is now corrupted and some others are missing so this is the best you'll get srry ): rip

aw man....... 1:25:18, 4.17 AM video: https://youtu.be/3En7YpyAm6g recorded + produced by bianca ocampo *original song* by https://soundcloud.com/themarias https://soundcloud.com/themarias/i-dont-know-you-1

1:16:18, 2.23 AM cover art is a photograph by mehdi lacoste for roberta einer

i was sick when i woke up the morning after new years (if u couldnt already tell by my voice) n it made me simpy so i wrote this. what a way to start 2018 if you need a friend: instagram.com/bianca.jpeg video: https://youtu.be/Uh0vccKt7pA -- i woke up today i thought i felt okay so i asked myself the question i ask every damn day and i don't know why but the answer's still the same same conversations same complications every day every day it's been a long year but i'm still trying to leave it behind once heartfelt occasions leave little abrasions on my mind and i don't know why i insist on keeping them safe these yellowed images empty promises burned in my brain burned in my brain // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

when you look in my eyes, it breaks all my bones video: https://youtu.be/0kBtvg5gdg0 all sounds made by me *original song* by https://soundcloud.com/banes-world https://soundcloud.com/banes-world/drowsy-demo

for me?

i accidentally deleted all of my ultrabeat samples so i ended up using a restoration hardware box and some mini maracas i found under my bed for the beat im deaaad does anyone want to send me a drumkit folder or buy me a drumset pls need to talk? instagram.com/bianca.jpeg - do what u say u will i should really take my own advice like i bit a bitter pill shouldve learned made the same mistake twice had a feeling i was a fool now i know its true!! the kind of bitterness i just can't shake someone help me get rid of this aftertaste forget the love i used to give and send condolences to all my pride the truth is hard to swallow its alright just another thorn in my side had a feeling it wasnt u now i know its true NOTHING MATTERS ANYWAY (TBH) someone help me get rid of this aftertaste -- video: https://youtu.be/x1EY6KlOkJ0 // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

something small i made just for fun!! by ur indie queen of only nineteen ;) ____ sing the same song to myself hues of blue suit me so well so far removed from old routine once familiar now unseen never not looking for signs always writing just to pass the time in need of a sweet distraction a chemical reaction but all ive got to work with is the thought: is it even worth it? // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

i left my mic at home so i recorded this w my earphones mic and honestly i do not hear much of a difference so i m selling my mic who wants it

one of the boys is a classic album do not @ me.

i know my guitar is always out of tune

https://soundcloud.com/urbanation/old-flame-kimbra-rough-draft ^^ my second cover ever and also y is that one from middle school so much better than this one

wayne newton - danke schoen by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

ive been meaning to have a talk with time and tell him what he's doing to me isnt right >:-( i only listen to advice i wanna hear and when i pass your street its almost like im near you and ive been meaning to have a talk with time and tell him what he's doing to me isnt right with me right with me but things were meant to change we've gone our separate ways and its ok! so stuck inside my head that im outside myself ive been doing wonderful oh baby can't you tell? try to remember you're trying to forget sometimes it haunts me yet theres nothing i regret but things were meant to change weve gone our seperate ways and its ok... https://soundcloud.com/biancamp3/someone-please-buy-me-an-amp-that-works-9917-1228-am // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

jorja smith - teenage fantasy by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

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i recorded this in the middle of the night with an earphone mic on the porch of my grandparent's house. it was on the third floor so you had this really pretty view of manila and i wish you couldve seen it with me video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iiJwuCkDKzg // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

a cover of a cover

easy (like sunday morning) by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

might as well turn my soundcloud into a nbhd cover account lmao my middle school phase is comin back!!

i'd like to thank my mom for her guitar, my uncle for logic pro, my dad for my keyboard, and yfbmh video: https://youtu.be/3UjT-3qN3-4 // written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo

radiohead - high and dry (draft) 7:5:17, 1.46 AM by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

cage the elephant - how are you true by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

all sounds made by yours truly

rihanna - higher by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

james bay - let it go by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

fantasy by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

christmas time is here by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

let it snow by brunette champion [fka urbanation]

have yourself a merry little christmas by brunette champion [fka urbanation]