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Brian passed

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Class breaking soul ties

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Sleep paralysis

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Beginning of the end

5

Super long lol

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Work meeting

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Prayer walk

8

Class, fear, witchcraft

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Church, skid row

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FEAR

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Class

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Walking to church

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Witchcraft

14

Doctor visit

15

School

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Spiritual warfare class

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God is so good! Cast out demons lol

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Awesome day! Skid Row, saw Junior, Angel, Milo, Moonshine and lots of other people

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Identity, loving ourselves

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True surrender

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Reflection

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Spiritual warfare class

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Skid row yesterday and life group tomorrow

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Yesterday work

25

Prayer walk, dog sitting

26

Spirit of offense?

27

Warfare

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Skid Row

29

Celebrate Recovery

30

Happy Memorial Day! Training on how to minister to people who have suffered trauma/PTSD

31

Identity, surrender

32

Walking to church

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Leg is healed 🙏🏼

34

Todd White, Dan Mohler

35

Emergency Room

36

Flat earth lol

37

Taking territory

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Happy Mother’s Day oops

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Methadone clinic divine appointment

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Dying to self

41

On my way

42

Downtown Adventure

43

Friend in the hospital

44

Skid Row…

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Second thoughts?

46

Covert narcissism

47

Farmers market, grocery outlet, post office lol

48

Not in limbo anymore

49

Church, day off…

50

Mac Arthur Park outreach

51

All over the place lol

52

Wow! Firemen lol

53

Skid Row

54

Conspiracy

55

Junior went into DCD

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Dentist again…

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DCD

58

Junior…

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God is so good, I’m reflecting

60

Woohoo! 🙌🏼 God is awesome 👏🏼

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On my way to church

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Weekend rain…

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Woohoo! 🙌🏼

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Gave a book and prayed for a Muslim man!

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Amazing weekend!

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Church night

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Great day

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Weekend skid row

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Methadone clinic

70

Delafé Testimonies

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Mac Arthur Park

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Junior

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Preparation

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Oh man

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Wow! So grateful

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March 9

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Breaking the Chains: A Heroin Addict’s Journey to Freedom

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Awesome book signing

79

Tomorrow is the big day!

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Head cold, but…

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John Ramirez

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2nd heaven

83

Refiners fire 🔥

84

Waaaa 😭 lol

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Ugh 😩 attack

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Methadone clinic

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Praise God

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Thank God

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Thank You God

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Forgiveness

91

Ugh. Oh Lord help me…

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Thank God it’s Friday!!!

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Serious non stop warfare…

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Wow…

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Man. What a day!!!

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Do I still believe?

97

Yesterday skid row…

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Praise God!

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Busy weekend

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Memories

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Spiritual warfare

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Starting the New Year

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Happy New Year!

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I belong to You Lord!

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Praise God

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God is always good.

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Junior’s back on the street

108

Merry Christmas!🎁

109

Another podcast

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Woohoo 🙌🏼

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Another day

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Awesome blessings!

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Reflecting

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Adopt a Block

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Dreamland!!! ❤️

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Awesome outreach last night!!!

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Hallelujah! God is so good! Moving forward, book is just about ready to be printed!!!

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God is faithful!

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Busy week, broke my front tooth

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December 8th?

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On my way to church

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Talked to Junior

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Skid row and weekend catch up

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December 2nd

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December 1st Obgyn appt

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November 30th 2023

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More vision…

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I didn’t get the memo lol

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Awesome day

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Happy Thanksgiving!

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Fear of God

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Homosexuality …

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THANK GOD…

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Happy Tuesday

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Took a day off

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Holiday

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Homeless camp

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Walking

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Skid row yesterday

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Oh Lord

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Walking home

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Skid row

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God is so good!

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Demons vs

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Domino Revival

146

Yesterday’s podcast

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Forgot to post this last week

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A lot is happening, I’m so grateful!

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Exciting and busy day

150

Excited 😊

151

What a day lol

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Almost finished!

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Getting ready for a new season

154

New day!

155

Lost my credit card

156

Church was AWESOME 👏🏼

157

Prayer walk, skid row

158

Amazing day!

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AMAZING DAY!!!

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Skid row yesterday

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Healing ❤️‍🩹 the wounded soul

162

What a week!!!

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New day

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September 7th, 2023

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Amazing night!!!

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What would YOU do?

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Skid Row yesterday

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HONESTY AND INTEGRITY

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Yessss! Excited 😆

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Awesome day

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Patricia King yesterday

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Short blab about Junior and Amazon lol

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Volunteered

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Graduation

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Skid Row

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Good day

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Continued from yesterday

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So grateful for time alone

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Busy weekend

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Struggling with sin

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Junior’s doing amazing

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Great day - I filled out an application to volunteer at the Dream Center

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Junior’s new place

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No more skid row for Junior!

185

Skid Row

186

Junior’s doing well

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Book edit’s about Junior

188

California will be saved concert

189

Dream Center backpack giveaway

190

Junior is still on the street 🥺😢

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Junior called me

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Junior is MIA

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I turned in my manuscript!!!

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Busy week -

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Sound of Freedom

196

Healing process

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Walking from the park

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Deliverance ministry

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God is awesome

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Skid row

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Consider it pure joy my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds …

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Demons or alters?

203

Me and Junior’s spiritual journey

204

Checking in

205

Good report!!!

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Sick and tired

207

Breakthrough after drama

208

Marriage counseling

209

Junior and I

210

Skid Row and Junior and I

211

Pet peeves

212

God is awesome

213

San Diego

214

Learning how to talk things out

215

Norwalk Courthouse

216

Relaxing and talking

217

Junior left DCD

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After church

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Skid row, The Game

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Skid row

221

Writing class coming along and random thoughts about giving

222

The battle is real

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On 🔥 FIRE!!!

224

Skid row

225

On my way to DC

226

Bino is alive lol and he went with me to the Dream Center

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I have 90 days!

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Prayers for a friend and my book

229

Walking to the tailor and downtown

230

Walking to farmers market

231

Jerame Nelson will be in Burbank

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I fall SO short ! 😔😒

233

Stressed a bit

234

Excited

235

I feel amazing!

236

I’m HEALED!!!

237

Trust and believe

238

Feels like I’m coming apart

239

Without faith …

240

‘Reality’ or denial?

241

I was wondering …

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Crazy dream

243

Sunday walk pondering

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Sheesh brain overload

245

Hepatologist

246

So … oncology visit

247

Praise report answered prayer

248

Faith

249

My thoughts on …

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Am I too hard?

251

Junior didn’t call his brother

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Junior threatened to leave

253

Amazing book class …

254

Reflecting

255

Happy Valentine’s Day

256

Writing homework and ideas

257

Opinions needed

258

ER … but I’m fine

259

Skid row Wednesday

260

So much going on right now …

261

For real Junior doing a podcast with me from Dec. 27,2022

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Pride 😒 is an ugly thing

263

Spiritual warfare

264

Skid row

265

Praise God great news!!’

266

Mac Arthur Park outreach

267

Saw Junior at the DC, deep in thought

268

January 13th 2022

269

Unpublished January 7th 2022 before episode: Boundaries 😁🙏🏼✝️

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A little conspiracy stuff lol

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Message to me from Junior lol

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Skid row, adopt a block and church

273

Methadone clinic and Dream Center

274

January 24

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Great weekend

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Dale is alive!!!

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Missing my best friend 🥺😢😭😭😭

278

Junior and I can’t talk for a year? 🤷🏻‍♀️

279

🙏🏼🥺😢

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On my way to church

281

Walking to store

282

Missing Junior 😭😭😭

283

Methadone clinic

284

Saw Junior at church last night

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Junior on this episode for more than a few minutes December 27, 2022

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First day on my own again lol

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Junior made it to DCD!!!

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Doing an interview

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20 more days!

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On the way to Skid Row

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Sorry it’s been so long!!!

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Junior had an episode and left the house without saying anything

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November 3rd

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I thought I posted this

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I thought I posted this November 4th

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Santa Monica

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New format

298

Methadone clinic

299

Long time

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Busy week! Walking to church

301

The Battle

302

Little episode

303

What a weekend!

304

Sept. 25th-29th

305

Skid row

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Junior got kicked out

307

Crazy deliverance

308

Sept. 17-18, 2022 skid row

309

Wow one of my friends overdosed

310

Heaviness

311

Rough at first

312

Nice try Satan

313

Skid row

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Junior and correction

315

Junior being a brat

316

Another overdose

317

Kim! Message

318

LA smells like 💩

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Junior and I on a pass

320

On my way …

321

Skid row

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Junior and his tattoos

323

Short quick one

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Met an amazing young lady on skid row. This is from Saturday

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Oops

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Stumbling

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Weekend

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August 20, 2022

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Wow!

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Dying to self ugh

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Awesome day! Skid row

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Submitting to leadership

333

God is awesome

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Random and Junior

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Rebuke

336

Good but stressful weekend

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Busy day

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Irritation

339

Wow wow wow

340

Skid row

341

Junior! 😁

342

Omg!!!

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Good stuff

344

Two friends from methadone clinic went to church last night

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Preaching!

346

Skid row and methadone clinic!

347

Another episode

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Catching up

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Happy Sunday

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Maybe I need to see the doctor

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Drained

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Awesome 👏🏼

353

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!! 🇺🇸✝️🇺🇸🙏🏼🇺🇸

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May have to end this podcast

355

Junior called me to vent …

356

Junior is doing AMAZING 🥲

357

Staying at my mom’s

358

Help with anger

359

Been very busy!!!

360

Junior’s anger … Jesus is amazing 🥲

361

Whew …

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End times …

363

Reflecting …

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🥺🥲 I’m so grateful

365

All or nothing?

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Happy Father’s Day! 💪🏼✝️🙏🏼😁

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Weeping may endure for a night …

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Looking at Junior

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Drug Dream 😑😒

370

Bad dream

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Just got off the phone with Junior!

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Walking around the city …

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Junior got kicked out of DCD

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Yay! 🙌🏼😁

375

Church last night briefly saw Junior from a distance lol

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Servants heart ♥️

377

Crime getting worse

378

Relief 😮‍💨

379

Junior made it to DCD - but not without opposition 😒

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Day 2 kicking

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Junior kicking HARD

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This is a great day!

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Junior and I

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Whom the Son sets FREE …

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Getting ready for Junior to go to DCD Tuesday

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Junior going to start kicking …

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Psalm 91 Junior, me and my health

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In bed again (CFS? Lupus? flare up) 😩😣😔

389

Real quick comment from last podcast

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Met Junior by police station

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THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE WHO HAVE SERVED IN THE MILITARY!!! Happy Memorial Day - God bless you!!! 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

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Met Junior by the Methadone clinic

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Skid row with Junior 😁💕

394

Sharing the gospel with Ron

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Ron

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Speaking life

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Forgiveness 💕❤️

398

Ok here’s a situation with a female

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Fear, anger, pride

400

Walking to the store … Police 👮‍♀️

401

Out and about

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I love my man 😘💕♥️

403

Astral projection/travel part 2

404

Astral projection/travel part 1

405

Witchcraft

406

What’s wrong with me?

407

Junior on the bus

408

One last thing …

409

Continued …

410

Everything I love about Junior ♥️

411

God is so good!!! 😍

412

Junior’s back 🥰♥️💕

413

Crazy 😬

414

Meeting Ron

415

God is so FAITHFUL!!!

416

Dying a slow death

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It’s a new day!

418

Sad 😞

419

Fear of abandonment

420

Self pity

421

Dying to self 😩

422

Ouch

423

Just call me ‘LOG EYE’ Matthew 7:1-5

424

Feeling so much better today!

425

Realizing my wrongs

426

I repent!

427

I’m a jerk!!!

428

Skid row experiences with Anthony

429

Long day …

430

Praise God!

431

Well …

432

So …

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Podcast for Junior.

434

Thoughts …

435

Yay! My friend Anthony …

436

Thank you Lord.

437

I’m so sorry

438

Closure. And prayers.

439

This is getting old

440

Bino overdosed …

441

Junior HIV

442

Israel

443

Smoking Junior and me

444

Forgiveness

445

David?

446

Skid row car on fire 🔥

447

David, Heather at church today!

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Busy weekend

449

David!!! Praise God!!! 🙏🏼✝️🤗

450

Game playing …?

451

Downtown

452

More self analysis

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More searching

454

Struggling and learning more about myself

455

It’s over.

456

What to do …

457

I don’t even know

458

Narcissistic

459

Oh Lord 🥺

460

Kinda discombobulated

461

Mac Arthur Park

462

All hell broke loose

463

Witchcraft

464

Bad news HIV

465

Awesome night

466

Disassociation Identity Disorder

467

This is the day

468

Awesome day!!!

469

Message to Kim

470

March 29, 2022

471

Random homeless person

472

It is God’s GOODNESS

473

Man …

474

Bad choice.

475

Days of our lives

476

Few minutes

477

Drama last night

478

Honesty in recovery (and in life in general!)

479

Excited

480

Sharing insecurities

481

FIVE DEATHS IN A WEEK

482

I’m sick of seeing or hearing about people DYING FROM FENTANYL

483

I’m back! Lol

484

Boundaries

485

It’s not over til it’s over

486

Praising God in spite of Junior

487

MPD/DID

488

Starting a New Chapter

489

I guess we’re really done now?

490

Ugh 😑

491

Oh Lord … 🥺🥺🥺

492

Wow 🤩 what an awesome day

493

LOL Junior

494

Well that was short lived lol

495

Flesh vs spirit

496

Speaking the truth

497

It’s over for now. 🥺😩😒😔

498

Correction

499

Saturday skid row

500

Used to being disappointed

501

Breaking up?

502

Skid row, me, Junior and rejection

503

Spirit of rejection

504

Dreams …

505

Continued

506

Oh Lord. Junior.

507

Awesome day!!! 😁✝️🙏🏼♥️♥️♥️

508

What???

509

Quick side note

510

I screwed up

511

Taking a break …

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🤬🥺🥴😩😒

513

God is still GOOD

514

Oh Lord, here we go again …

515

Praise God

516

God is so …

517

Woohoo 🙌🏼 🥳

518

Kicking

519

Yay! DCD second time

520

It’s almost over …

521

Uphill battle

522

Faith

523

Help me Lord … insecurity and stress

524

I’m done.

525

Ugh 😩

526

Detox …

527

Bus ministry

528

Wow.

529

Sharing at church

530

Skid row

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DID Another day

532

And the beat goes on

533

Boundaries ☺️

534

What’s going on

535

Short update

536

Stepping outside of God’s will …

537

Hanging in there

538

Spiritual warfare and Junior in a program

539

Podcast from Dec. 25 is under ‘Junior Continued’

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Junior continued

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Skid row, church, discipleship

542

Jail court jail hospital

543

Jumping off apartment building

544

Complete dysfunction

545

Hollywood

546

Gay and lesbian center

547

Shame … witchcraft … fentanyl

548

Skid row and PCP

549

Why I don’t (or won’t) ‘Hang out’ with …

550

Another thought

551

Saturday skid, Sunday church adventure

552

After shooting up regularly

553

It’s been a rough week lol

554

Methadone clinic

555

Met a guy on the way to the BAART (Methadone) Clinic

556

Continued from last episode

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Skid row, abscesses and church

558

Jail

559

First time in jail for drug possession

560

Past life prostitution

561

Quick thought

562

Saturday skid row outreach

563

Thoughts about my son

564

When an abusive boyfriend put me in the hospital

565

Boosting, hustling first section and second half hospital

566

Next time fixing

567

Shooting up for the first time

568

Question …

569

P calling me telling me he shot dope

570

Watching someone shoot up first time

571

Thoughts before bed

572

Smoking vs shooting dope

573

Just wanted to say thanks 😊

574

Meeting a heroin addict/hooker who later became a friend (second half)

575

Trying to fall asleep

576

Comments on last episode that I re-published (is that a word?) lol

577

Rambling and venting: I unpublished this episode but now I’m publishing it again lol.

578

Strung out for the first time

579

Outreach

580

Meeting P

581

Leaving husband, son …

582

Correction regarding cancer diagnosis

583

My day …

584

Stirred up the addiction monster …

585

Part 2 opiates continued

586

Opiates continue …

587

Opiate addiction …

588

Sex trafficking ring?

589

First time I was offered money for sex

590

Wanting to get an abortion

591

Pregnancy, marriage …

592

Going to a 12 step meeting

593

After getting shot …

594

Skid Row is NOT a good place to be

595

Needle Exchange

596

‘Jump Out’ (police) on skid row

597

After skid row

598

Saturday skid row

599

Getting shot with a .38 and given Demerol 😳

600

First time I ever tried heroin

601

Life of a recovering heroin addict

602

A little commentary

603

Losing my virginity raped

604

Catholic school and cocaine

605

First time to ever see porn…

606

Short introduction

607

Trailer