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My Inner Torch — 295 episodes

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300th Podcast! My Journey with the Flame

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Refusing the TRUTH!

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Life After the Cluster B

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Stop Feeding the Cluster B!

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AFTER you stop trying!

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When you finally stop trying!

7

Why are chosen by the Cluster B?

8

You can't FORCE love!

9

The Illusion of Progress with the Cluster B

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Why the Cluster B does NOT like you!

11

The Careful Art of Cluster B Manipulation

12

Holding yourself Hostage....

13

Hidden Scars of Cluster B Abuse

14

Understanding CPTSD and Hidden Wounds with the Cluster B

15

Cluster B Reality Check

16

Living in the Cluster B MOMENT

17

WHY do WE love?

18

Seeking Revenge!

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Am "I" to blame?

20

Grieving the Mask of the Cluster B

21

CPTSD...are you suffering from it?

22

Pathological Love: When Love Still Hurts!

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REVEALED! What's really behind Cluster B LOVE?

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You CAN'T change a Cluster B's Spots

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Pathological Love with a Cluster B

26

When LOVE isn't ENOUGH!

27

Emotional Sandcastles-Revisited NEW for 2025

28

How does a Cluster B LOVE you?

29

Dissecting OUR love for the Cluster B

30

A Cluster B Holiday Survival Guide

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BONUS PODCAST-The Clownfish Survivor and the Cluster B Anemone

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The Misunderstandings of Cluster B LOVE!

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Living Under The Cluster B "Spell"

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The TERMINAL Cluster B

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WHY the Cluster B will not love!

36

It's OK to love your Cluster B!

37

More reasons why a Cluster B cannot love you...

38

Staying/Healing!

39

Why the Cluster B CANNOT Love US!

40

Are you GUILTY of Reactive Abuse?

41

The Cluster B Ponzi Scheme

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Why do WE love our Cluster B?

43

Did THEY ever love us?

44

Letting Go.....

45

Forgive Yourself!

46

Sleeping with the enemy.

47

The Great Pretender

48

Saving Yourself!

49

Recognizing The False Self

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The Cluster B Manifesto

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Do THEY Care?

52

Hidden Abuse of the Cluster B

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The Cluster B Con Game

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NEW PODCAST: "I'm not OK!"

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"You can't fix what you didn't break"-A revisit from January 2022

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It's Okay to Hurt!

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The Emotional Con Game-A 2022 Podcast

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Look Back Listen-January '24 "Living in the Shadow of a Disordered Mind"

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Intimacy Interrupted

60

My Secret Fantasy

61

Leaving?

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Cognitive Dissonance and your Cluster B. A tragic mix.

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Look Back Listen: What to Expect from your Cluster B Part 2

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What to Expect from your Cluster B Part 1

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The Cluster B Titantic

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Stop feeding the monster!

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How much?$?$?$?

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Your Cluster B Valentine

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The Cluster B Con

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Your Cluster B Loves you...or do they?

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What to expect from your Cluster B....

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Finding Peace

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It's NOT Possible!

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New Year...New Hope!

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13 Challenges of a Cluster B

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Holiday Challenges-A Cluster B Checklist.

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Welcome to the Danger Zone!

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A Survivor's Harsh Reality Check

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Finding YOUR right...

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Look Back Listen: January '24 "Living in the Shadow of a Disordered Mind."

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Cluster B = Love?

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The Cluster B 3 Ring Circus

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YOU deserve credit!

84

You have a choice!

85

The Way It Should Be?

86

The Bitter Pill...

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Is this NORMAL....??

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Four years along....where I am now?

89

Looking beyond the pain.

90

Getting past LOVE.....

91

Toxic Markers

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State of Delusion

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Trauma!

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Understanding the WHY

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The Long Goodbye with a Cluster B

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The Emotional Hamster Wheel

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200th Podcast: Owning their PAIN.

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A Future Without....

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What is NORMAL?

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How do you feel?

101

What are you sorry about?

102

Survivor or Victim of a Cluster B relationship? Blurred Lines.

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What do you think of YOU?

104

Not Unhearing "The Said"

105

You will NEVER trust!

106

Cold Hard Truths

107

Look Back Listen 2020: Emotional Intelligence

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Why we REMAIN.....

109

"Shock and Sell" Have you fallen prey to this?

110

End of the Line? Where to now?

111

Look Back Listen to 2020 "Emotional Sandcastles"

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Coat of many colors.

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A look back on Chutes and Ladders.

114

Unmasking Narcissism: Exploring Types and Behaviors

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What does it say about us?

116

The Kangaroo Court of the Cluster B

117

Distorted Realities of the Cluster B

118

Emotional Tidal Pools of the Cluster B

119

How Many Times?

120

It's Not Okay!

121

Green Flags...and why we are emotionally color blind to them.

122

Theatre of the Cluster B

123

Can you identify covert put downs from your Cluster B?

124

The Gig Is Up!

125

Strong words from Anthony Hopkins about your Cluster B

126

Living in the shadow of a disordered mind.

127

The pain behind the mirror.

128

Do we expect too much from our Cluster B?

129

Spotting a covert narcissist.

130

Can you walk away a winner?

131

Happy Holidays with your Cluster B?

132

Free lunch with a Cluster B? I don't think so!

133

Living in a fog of denial

134

It's okay to hurt!

135

Take it or leave it?!

136

Taking inventory with your Cluster B

137

Confessions of a Cluster B

138

The Hurt Locker

139

Do you feel safe?

140

How long do you do?

141

Identifying Hidden Abuse

142

It's the little things!

143

Do you bite the hook of "baiting" from your Cluster B?

144

State of Denial....

145

Cluster B's Warning Label

146

My theory on vulnerability and the Cluster B

147

Never Losing Hope

148

Living in a world of hurt.

149

Are you being honest?

150

Is Self Love possible with a Cluster B?

151

The Cluster B Gauntlet

152

I'm Sorry....

153

Why???

154

What it is...and what it isn't....

155

What to expect from your Cluster B Part 2

156

What to expect from your Cluster B Part 1

157

Bonds and Chains with a Cluster B

158

Bad Relationship Magnet?

159

What's love got to do with it?

160

Love Addicted?

161

Are you being abused in your Cluster B relationship?

162

They are who they are....not who you thought they are.

163

The Unsinkable Cluster B

164

WHY?

165

Terms and Conditions of the Cluster B

166

Is your relationship Terminal?

167

Recasting your Cluster B

168

Are you seeking validation?

169

Finding my inner voice....

170

I owe you an apology!

171

The Cluster B Discard Pile

172

Emotional Intelligence of the Cluster B revisited.

173

Knights of the Cluster B Table

174

Put up or Shut Up!

175

The Cluster B Trojan Horse

176

The Gravitational Pull of a Cluster B

177

A question with a question.....??????

178

They Won't Become What They Aren't....

179

Writing the final chapters with your Cluster B.

180

Is your Cluster B good enough for you?

181

Being "Bullet Proof" to your cluster B

182

Don't go to war with your cluster B!

183

Confessions of a Cluster B

184

Minefields and Thought Grenades!

185

Black Swans on a pond

186

Living under the thumb of a Cluster B

187

What they do is not for you!

188

Bullet Proof!

189

Love Addicted

190

Thoughtless!

191

Wash...Rinse...Repeat...

192

Where I was, where I am now....

193

Keys to the Castle

194

The invisible man...

195

100th Podcast of My Inner Torch!

196

Paralytic Relationships with a Cluster B

197

Deal Breakers...what are they in a Cluster B relationship?

198

The Emotional Con Game

199

No Fault Cluster B

200

Moments

201

Cluster B Miranda Rights

202

Breaking the Spell!

203

Gunpowder Language

204

Living in La La Land

205

Thermo Nuclear Relationships

206

The Walking Dead

207

Are you always wrong when you are right?

208

Death Grip!

209

What do you do?

210

It's the little things you do...

211

Labels....labels...labels....

212

Why do we hurt?

213

Why don't you give up on your Cluster B already?

214

Identity Theft

215

Reframing

216

Pointed Question

217

Silent Scream

218

Addicted and looking for a high?

219

The Narcissist's Prayer Redefined and applicable to all Cluster B's

220

Red Flags in the wind

221

Ready to move?

222

Blank Space...Is Taylor Swift singing about a BPD relationship?

223

Trigger Happy Borderlines!

224

What are YOU waiting for?

225

Are you "waiting to die?"

226

Witness to a split.

227

Are you a Gazelle?

228

You can't fix what you didn't break!

229

From the outside looking in.

230

Peeling back the layers of a BPD or NPD onion.

231

Sandbagging? Have you been sandbagged by your Cluster B?

232

Those who stay and those who go...

233

I see a mirage!

234

Do you belong?

235

Just the facts Ma'am...

236

It's not you...it's the situation!

237

Soul Suckers....

238

Shoulda....Woulda...Coulda...

239

Seven Stages of coping with Cluster B

240

Excuses...Excuses...Excuses...

241

Bait and Switch!

242

Back to the Future!

243

Are you ready to "Cry Uncle"?

244

Crazymaking!

245

Are you starving?

246

Old Movies and Memories

247

The seven degrees of Kevin Bacon?

248

No Deposit....No Return...

249

Looking for that RESET button?

250

An Empty Hole

251

You are a Saint!

252

My Emotional Sandcastle Experience Related

253

Breadcrumbing...it is a thing.

254

Why do WE bother....?

255

New beginnings!

256

I have a major announcement!

257

How long can a Borderline "Mirror" you?

258

How do you love a person with BPD?

259

Building a Better Mousetrap with your borderline?

260

Trauma Bond: An important checklist.

261

Reality Check....can we do it?

262

Relational BPD...how do you deal with it?

263

Gaslighting and BPD...an explosive mix!

264

Is the grass greener on another pasture?

265

What to expect with from your borderline on a daily basis.

266

"Hoovering"...what is it...and will it happen to you?

267

Moment of Reckoning

268

Marriage and BPD-A volatile mix.

269

Cluster B Personality Disorders...Where does BPD fit in?

270

Testing....Testing...1-2-3....

271

Let's Talk about ME!

272

Do you have a "Trauma Bond" with your borderline?

273

F.O.G....what does it mean? Are you in one?

274

Man in the mirror

275

Are you a Lion Tamer?

276

Push...Pull....repeat!

277

Splitting...how does it feel and why the borderline does it.

278

Those who say....and those who do!

279

Are you a Terminator?

280

Grey Rock...what it is and does it work with a borderline?

281

Emotional Intelligence Revisited

282

Keep the Dragon at bay!

283

Do they EVER remember?

284

The Elephant in the Room

285

To Thine Own Self Be True

286

Emotional Self Worth

287

Normal Expectations

288

A Four Letter Word....

289

A Thousand Words.....

290

Chutes and Ladders!

291

Emotional Weathervane

292

Gun Toting Lunatics!

293

Emotional Intelligence

294

Emotional Sandcastles

295

Inaugural Podcast