焦虑的戒断

我是Bolazynes, 7,599,596,453人中的一员。焦虑本身如期而至，录完节目后，完全不想听自己的声音，拖了几天才找到理想的BGM. 结果便是，从上个月拖到了这个月才更。仔细回想了下，同事告诉我这一现实，从某种意义上说算是防御性悲观。当我们提前知道了最糟糕的结果，那现实再怎么发展，都能接受吧。因为我俩的工作坦言说，近期都不太顺。关于电话焦虑，@Very British Problem 有个很有意思的推, I phoned you yesterday - I knew, I saw as it happened.黑狗则是抑郁的比喻，据传源于丘吉尔。“I don’t like standing near the edge of a platform when an express train is passing through. I like to stand right back and if possible get a pillar between me and the train. I don’t like to stand by the side of a ship and look down into the water. A second’s action would end everything. A few drops of desperation.” – Winston Churchill (1874-1965)白天参加老朋友婚礼了，当伴郎，煎熬的是，本应该要和很多陌生人快速熟络起来，但这次——依然没有做到。但换个角度，用工科生的浪漫来说：越是优柔寡断，你创造的平行世界就越多。封面：摄于2015年8月3日，当时还只是纯粹觉得马脸头套莫名喜感，戴上了让舍友拍了个照。一年半后，我再调这张照片时，偏好了暗色。那段时间尤其不顺，而马男也伴随了自己很久。尽管 Bojack 很丧，但正是马所擅长的奔跑，亦是生命最原始的体现。说到这里，回去看了下以前的文字，也是顺着到了那夜 Sarah Lynn 和 Bojack 在洛杉矶天文台看的星空。"In the great grand scheme of things, we're just tiny specks that will one day be forgotten. So, it doesn't matter what we did in the past, or how we'll be remembered. The only thing that matters is right now, this moment, this one spectacular moment we are sharing together. Right, Sarah Lynn? Sarah Lynn? Sarah Lynn?"这也就是后摇该登场的时候吧。截止这里的文字，地球上已有7,599,599,732.