Becoming Full of Yourself

What happens when you stop filling yourself with the world’s noise and start listening to your own design?In this episode, I sit down with Kehla G, a Human Design and Gene Keys business mentor who went from competitive rugby athlete to online coach, navigating the Saturn return shift from body to mind with radical self-awareness.In this episode we explore:* Kehla’s journey from elite athlete to Human Design mentor and the Saturn return pivot from a body-focused career as a PE teacher to where she is now* How spirituality and embodiment practices are closer than we think; and why grounding into your body is essential for avoiding spiritual bypassing and being “away with the fairies”* The power of open throat energy: saying what everyone’s thinking, and how AI can help you externalise your process and find your own voice* Why being “full of yourself” means subtracting the world’s conditioning instead of adding more strategies* The nuances of sacral response: moving beyond “f**k yes or f**k no” to micro-yeses that build trust* Expression beyond words: pre-cognition, reading the room, and how childhood survival skills shape our gifts* Creating spaciousness by deleting social media, sitting with loneliness, and discovering what you’re actually full of when you’re being yourselfThis conversation is for you if:* You’re an entrepreneur who feels like you’re on the edge or ahead of your time* You have an “interesting relationship” with your body and are seeking grounding practices* You’re bored of being full of everyone else’s strategies and want to orient yourself in your own design* You struggle with open centres (especially throat, head, or G centre) and need to understand how to work with the conditioning* You’re navigating the tension between doing less and feeling isolated, or between specificity and allowing surprise* You want to understand how Human Design and Gene Keys can create sustainable business infrastructure, not just better messaging.Meet Kehla G:Kehla G is a human design, gene keys, and AI business mentor based in Victoria, BC, Canada. A 6/2 sacral generator, Kehla supports entrepreneurs in building sustainable businesses by treating them like ecosystems—helping clients orient themselves through their unique design rather than chasing the next strategy.A former elite rugby athlete (2003-2018) and personal trainer turned online coach, Kehla experienced a Saturn return pivot from body to mind that shaped her approach to integrating embodiment with business. She’s the host of Built for the Edge, a top 2% podcast with over 500 episodes exploring entrepreneurship, spirituality, and human design.Known for her engineering mind, radical transparency, and being “full of piss and vinegar,” Kehla helps people become full of themselves instead of full of the world.Connect with Kehla:* Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kehlaG* Substack: Kehla G* Podcast: Built for the Edge* Free Gift: Your Business Re-Oriented (5-episode series on decision making, pressure & strategy through the human design and gene keys lens)Timestamps:1:09 - Introduction and Kehla’s background4:05 - Why embodiment matters for spiritual entrepreneurs5:37 - From rugby athlete to personal trainer to mindset coach6:22 - The Saturn return shift: body to mind9:22 - Revealing what’s underneath: becoming full of yourself vs. full of the world10:26 - “I am full of piss and vinegar”11:28 - The wound of not belonging anywhere (open G Centre)12:35 - How podcasting changed everything for the open throat14:26 - Using AI to externalise thinking and mirror your own voice20:48 - Creating spaciousness: deleting Instagram and sitting with withdrawal22:42 - Feeling isolated when you stop distracting yourself25:26 - Dopamine hits are screwing your sacral response26:16 - Beyond “f**k yes or f**k no”—cultivating trust through micro-responses28:33 - Specificity vs. surprise: contradictions that make you alluring31:11 - Expression moves energy—why being polarising is helpful32:01 - Pre-cognition: seeing the shape before the language33:28 - Being hearing impaired and learning to read the room to survive36:43 - Parenting Manifestors: teaching kids to express anger and find peace40:16 - Kehla’s gift: Your Business Re-Oriented41:17 - Final wisdom: be kind to yourself, hindsight is 2020“Everything in my world is about helping people to become full of themselves because otherwise we are full of the world. Otherwise we’re full of conditioning, otherwise we’re full of the radio and TikTok and Instagram. I am curious what you are full of when you’re being yourself.” — Ebonie AllardFor the full interview and subscriber chat, come join us on Substack. https://eboniealchemy.substack.com/s/becoming-full-of-yourself-podcastNext Steps:Get your chart and foundational reports from Ebonie: www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartGet your Kismet Codes Oracle Deck: https://shop.ebonieallard.com/collections/the-kismet-code-cards (if you are outside of the UK, these are available, please message ebonie to arrange a custom orderWork with Ebonie: https://www.ebonieallard.com/trueself-trifecta This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

[Just a heads-up, the video for this episode was corrupt, but I was able to edit together something that I was happy with from back up audio files.]Episode 19: The Astrologer Who Turned Down Double Her Salary to Trust HerselfWhat does it actually mean to trust yourself?Not conceptually, but as a lived, embodied practice?In this episode, we dive into the messy, beautiful process of reclaiming your authority: the moment you realise you’ve been outsourcing your decisions, the terror of saying no when everything in your conditioning screams yes, and what happens when you finally stop performing and start listening to your body. We explore the Leo-Aquarius axis, the myth of the isolated family unit, why we’re all drowning trying to save each other, and how your core wound might just be your greatest gift.In this episode we explore:• The Leo-Aquarius axis and what it means for the collective as we move into the Aquarian age• Why “belonging” doesn’t mean conforming; it means being yourself within community• The myth of the nuclear family and why we’re all “drowning trying to save each other”• How motherhood became Jessie’s gateway to trusting her intuition unconditionally• Gate 29 and the journey from saying yes to everything to honouring when cycles are complete• The difference between the gift of commitment and the shadow of half-heartedness (and knowing when it’s time to let go)• Why your core wound is your greatest giftThis conversation is for you if:- You’re navigating your Saturn return or a major life transition- You struggle with saying no (or saying yes to the wrong things)- You’re questioning the traditional paths you were told to follow- You want to understand the Leo-Aquarius energy shaping our collective future- You’re a parent trying to find your village in a world of isolated family units- You’re learning to trust your body and intuition over external authority- You are a Sag rising, or have strong Sag, Leo, or Aquarius placements, are a 6/2 or 5/2 Profile.- You have ever struggled with commitment / or bi passing emotionsMeet Jessie Eccles:Jessie Eccles is an astrologer, Human Design reader, and teacher who helps people understand their personal timing, patterns, and decision-making so they can live and work in a way that actually fits their life.After leaving a corporate career during early motherhood, she built an business centered around self-trust, cyclical living, and redefining success outside of productivity culture. Her work blends practical guidance with psychological and symbolic insight, helping clients move from external validation toward internal authority.She teaches astrology and Human Design, offers personal readings, and mentors women, especially mothers, in building lives and businesses aligned with their values, energy, and real capacity.Connect with Jessie:Website: https://jessie-eccles.mykajabi.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/jessieecclesFor more thoughts from this episode and our subscriber chat, come over to 'Kismet + Compass' on SubstackTimestamps:3:50 – The Leo-Aquarius axis in family dynamics7:20 – What “belonging” really means in the Aquarian age19:30 – Ebonie’s midlife unraveling and radical honesty about what she wants24:30 – Facing your greatest fears and living through them28:00 – Jessie on the moment she couldn’t override her intuition32:30 – The 6/2 Profile journey: staying in the body when things get tough38:00 – Embodying Gate 29: commitment, half-heartedness, and knowing when cycles end45:00 – Leaving corporate life and the moment no amount of money could keep her49:00 – Becoming full of yourself means saying no more than you ever imaginedNext steps:Get your chart and foundational reading reports: https://www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartWork with Ebonie: https://www.ebonieallard.com/trueself-trifecta This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What happens when a splenic Manifestor, conversion copywriter meets a manifesting generator soul contract guide? Magic, initiations, and some seriously potent truth bombs about persuasion, authenticity, and why your AI-generated content may very probably be the modern equivalent of the Emperor’s New Clothes.In this episode we explore:* How to use Human Design as a persuasion map (not just an awareness tool)* The difference between “bro marketer” pressure tactics and feminine equivalent (love-bombing) and why both miss the mark* Why the fact that 71% of people have open head centres is so important and a simple shift in your messaging that speaks directly to this.* The not so often talked about shadow side of AI-generated content. When to use it (and when to absolutely not)* How to identify the patterns, beliefs, and immaturities keeping your audience stuck* What part of your chart helps you understand your audience’s desires and gaps* Why now is the time to call out charlatans and take off the rose-colored glassesThis conversation is for you if:* You’re tired of following marketing formulas that feel misaligned* You want to understand how to meet your audience where they actually are* You’re curious about using astrology and Human Design for business strategy* You’ve been waiting for someone to invite you to the “big girl table”* You want to create content that converts without compromising your integrityMeet Tanya MarieHi, I am Tanya Marie. I am a Human Design Business Strategist and Conversion Copywriter, and I help you turn your words into wealth with Content by Design. I love helping online business owners show up and influence online based on their birth codes, neuro psychology, and by using the astrological transits, which I call Sky Strategy, to make powerful moves in their business and attract the right soul clients to open their wallets for them.Connect with Tanya:The masterclass we mention that you don’t want to miss: https://tanya-marie.mykajabi.com/seducebydesignIf you miss the class, and she hasn’t put a replay up yet…Join her free Facebook Group https://www.facebook.com/groups/thehouseofhumandesignwhere she goes live with messaging angles based on the transits and you can get a free report on how to market sell and scale by design.Her Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thehouseofhumandesignSubstack: The House of Human DesignTimestamps* 2:40 – Manifestor energy: responding juice and the electric on/off switch* 4:29 – Saturn and Uranus: the headmaster meets the eccentric uncle* 7:43 – Ebonie’s Neptune-Saturn-Venus T-Square and claiming your range* 10:35 – Pluto in Scorpio in the 11th: creating cult-like fan bases (ethically)* 12:06 – Why dark arts people can’t even find Tanya’s transmission* 13:00 – Feeling is believing: sensing intent and frequency behind words* 15:08 – Spotting misalignment in content: when polarising doesn’t match your energy* 17:58 – The Emperor’s New Clothes story explained* 18:58 – AI as the modern Emperor’s New Clothes* 20:01 – When AI works and when it absolutely doesn’t* 22:00 – The washing machine analogy: some things are too precious for AI* 23:58 – Persuasion levers: meeting people by their gaps, not your authority* 26:00 – 71% have open heads: they’re craving answers* 27:48 – Open root centres and countdown timers: the pressure that makes you buy* 29:13 – Urgency without timers: the cost of staying the same* 32:26 – Bro marketers vs. love bombers: two sides of misaligned selling* 35:00 – Calling out patterns, beliefs, and immaturities* 39:00 – The 26 gate, Neptune, and calling out charlatans* 41:00 – Pride, humility, and being willing to be wrong to be happy* 46:25 – Why everyone is fascinating when you look at their design“People don’t know how to conversate because they don’t understand the persuasion levers... It’s not always about you. Your authority is out there, but it’s about knowing your audience on a deeper level. People’s desires are their openness.”— Tanya Marie====Next Steps:Get your chart and foundational reports from Ebonie: www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartGet your Kismet Codes Oracle Deck: https://shop.ebonieallard.com/collections/the-kismet-code-cards (if you are outside of the UK, these are available, please message ebonie to arrange a custom order)Please subscribe to get notified when a new episode is live and leave a review if you found value here. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What happens when a type-A perfectionist finally stops fighting her body and starts listening?In this episode, I sit down with Hope Pedraza; functional diagnostic nutrition practitioner and energetics guide… for a raw conversation about the disconnection so many high-achieving women feel from their own bodies.We explore how conservative upbringings, medical gaslighting, and the relentless pursuit of control can dim our inner spark, and what it actually takes to reignite it.Hope shares parts of her own journey from disordered eating and divorce to discovering her voice, her power, and her purpose at the intersection of science and spirituality.In this episode we explore:* The connection between body disconnection and collective numbness/apathy* Why “following the rules” doesn’t actually create safety* How divorce became the catalyst for Hope’s spiritual awakening* The difference between power over and power to* What it means to have a reflector mind and an unconscious body in Human Design* Why your throat chakra and self-expression are directly linked to inflammation* The Phoenix energy we’re all being called into as we approach 2027* How to rebuild trust with a body you’ve ignored for yearsThis conversation is for you if:* You’ve spent years controlling, criticising, or disconnecting from your body* You’ve experienced medical gaslighting and lost trust in yourself as a result* You know there’s a spark inside you that’s been dimmed and you’re ready to reclaim it* You’re curious about combining functional health with energetics and Human Design* You grew up being the “good girl” and are now finding your voice* You want to understand the difference between ownership and control* You’re ready to stop waiting until you “figure your body out” to start livingMeet Hope Pedraza:Hope Pedraza is a Functional Diagnostic Nutrition Practitioner, Human Design Guide, Clinical Hypnotherapist, and host of the Hopeful and Wholesome podcast. She helps high-performing, spiritually curious women optimize their energy, rebalance their nervous system, and reconnect with their body’s wisdom so they can scale their business and life without burnout. Her signature method blends functional labs, Human Design embodiment, and subconscious reprogramming to create sustainable radiance from the inside out.Connect with Hope:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thehopepedrazaWebsite: https://www.hopefulandwholesome.comPodcast: https://www.hopefulandwholesome.com/podcastsSubstack: Hope PedrazaTimestamps:* 2:37 – Ebonie shares her experience with disordered eating and body control* 3:52 – Did you ever have the spark, or was it always dimmed?* 4:18 – Medical gaslighting and women losing trust in their bodies* 7:00 – Hope’s journey: gut issues, perfectionism, and the catalyst of divorce* 10:30 – Becoming your own authority vs. outsourcing your power* 13:00 – The Reflector mind and feeling like “why is everyone else ahead of me?”* 17:30 – Designing your business and life around your Human Design environment* 19:30 – The 2027 shift and empowering the next generation* 21:45 – Collective apathy, numbness, and disconnection from self* 24:00 – Hope’s incarnation cross: abundance, intimacy, and pure power (Gates 55, 59, 34, 20)* 26:50 – Expression, the throat, and inflammation in the body* 27:22 – Growing up in conservative religion and finding your voice* 29:22 – The volcano metaphor and feeling safe to use your voice* 32:05 – Ownership vs. control and taking responsibility* 35:10 – The Phoenix rising: letting what needs to burn, burn* 37:31 – Hope’s advice**See substack for a visual of Ebonie and Hope's charts Get your chart"If you haven't spoken to your body for years, it's not gonna tell you its secrets. Give it time, give it reason to believe you. If your body says 'I'm tired, rest' and you go 'yeah, later' that's not building a relationship. That's breaking the trust."Ebonie AllardReflections:How did this episode land for you?What questions do you have?When was the last time your body told you something and you actually listened?What happened?What's one thing your body has been asking for that you keep putting off?Share in the comments or join the subscriber chat on Substack and let's hold each other accountable. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What if the most valuable asset you can cultivate isn't money, connections, or credentials…but creativity?In this enriching conversation, Ebonie sits down with Rachel Star, cosmic business coach and creator of Cosmic Queen, to explore why creativity is becoming the new currency as we enter a pivotal shift in human consciousness.From the significance of Pluto moving into Gate 41 for the first time in 248 years to the power of knowing your cosmic blueprint, this episode is a masterclass in understanding who you are so you can finally become who you're meant to be.In this episode we explore:* Why “just be yourself” is unhelpful advice; and what actually works* The 248-year Pluto cycle and what Gate 41 (the “Future Fueler”) means for 2026* How your Rising Sign reveals what you truly need to feel fulfilled* The Gene Keys activation sequence and why your “Earth” holds the key to your growth* Why homogenization is dying and individuality is the path forward* Lilith in Sagittarius: What wild, truth-seeking feminine energy means for the year ahead* The difference between nostalgia and genuine progressThis conversation is for you if:* You’ve achieved success but still feel unfulfilled or like something’s missing* You’re curious about human design, astrology, or Gene Keys but don’t know where to start* You feel called to take a leap but don’t know who you really are yet* You’re tired of one-size-fits-all advice and ready to honor your unique design* You sense big shifts happening in the world and want to understand how to navigate them* You’re ready to stop dimming your light and start cultivating your creative geniusMeet Rachel StarAfter a successful but unfulfilling career in tech, Rachel set off to uncover what makes people successful & satisfied. She discovered the systems of Astrology & Human Design, studied & applied them for years and exchanged her 9-5 for the entrepreneur’s adventure. Now she shares insight from the cosmic cutting edge. Rachel’s work is for ambitious people ready to use their unique genius to create wealth, positive impact & personal fulfilment.She helps entrepreneurs with personal branding, business and leadership..with being who they were born to be, as they reach for the stars.Connect with Rachel:Website: www.cosmicqueenhq.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/cosmicqueenhq/Substack: Rachel Star | Cosmic Queen 👑Timestamps:0:00 Welcome to Becoming Full of Yourself02:40 The 2/5 & 5/2 harmonic profiles explained04:30 How embodying your design magnetises your people07:45 Pluto in Gate 41 and the 248-year collective cycle09:10 The Aquarian paradox: community vs individuality10:55 Where has creativity gone? Cultural homogenisation12:00 Creativity as the new currency15:15 “Stay wild, stay true, be more you” origin story17:50 Finding yourself when you don’t know who you are25:25 The Gene Keys activation sequence and four anchors26:00 Why your Earth holds the nutrients for growth28:00 Breakthroughs, Phoenix moments, and rebirth33:20 Why AI can’t replace human connection and energy35:35 What Rachel is excited about for 202643:35 Lilith in Sagittarius: wild feminine truth46:57 Closing reflections and sign-off===“There are some really great things that are about to get cooked.” Ebonie Allard===EBONIE: What does being ‘full of yourself’ mean to you? What are you FULL of?RACHEL: I’m Full of ambition for what I know I’m capable of and full of love for myself, my quirks and my big heart that I’m willing to put out there while I go for itEBONIE: What do you see as the most important or valuable shift or change you’ve made for yourself in your adult life?RACHEL: Deciding to become a single parent. And deciding to leave the corporate world to build my own legacy .EBONIE: Complete this sentence: “At my essence I am full of .....”RACHEL: love and ideas 😉Let us know in the comments or chat:* Do you know your Rising Sign? Drop it in the comments - we’d love to know what drives your sense of fulfilment!* For the human design folks: What’s your profile? Have you found your “harmonic” people yet?* Where in your life have you been homogenising to fit in instead of honouring your individuality?* Ebonie said creativity is the new currency - what’s one creative risk you’ve been afraid to take?* Ebonie’s mantra is “Stay wild, stay true, be more you.” What would YOUR personal mantra be?* If 2026 is the year to take the leap, what’s the ONE leap you know you need to make?* What’s one thing from the past you’d love to bring back - without the baggage that came with it? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What if your limitations weren’t obstacles, but the very thing that unlocks your magic?In this solo episode, Ebonie dives deep into Gate 60 (Acceptance & Limitation), her conscious Earth placement and the final gate before Human Design New Year. As someone who’s been living this energy intensely for the past five years during its Pluto transit, she shares raw, personal insights about what it really means to mutate through pressure, create magic from nothing, and surrender to the wisdom of constraint.In this episode, you’ll discover:✨ Why creativity thrives inside limitation (and how to use structure as fuel, not restriction)⏰ The power of patience and what it means to truly accept where you are🐇 How to pull rabbits out of hats when life gives you “nothing” to work with🔮 What happens when Pluto spends 5 years transforming your evolution point🌱 The difference between surrender and resignation—and why one creates magic💎 How pressure creates diamonds (and what’s mutating in YOU right now)This episode is for you if:* You’re feeling stuck or limited and need a new perspective* You’re a creative who struggles with “too many options”* You’re navigating a challenging period and need to find the gift in it* You have Gate 60 in your chart (or want to work with this energy while the sun transits it)* You’re ready to stop fighting your constraints and start creating with themKey timestamps:* 5:44 - Pluto’s 5-year transit through Gate 60 & what it taught about pressure* 6:46 - Feeling the shift when Pluto moved into Gate 41 in December 2025* 7:35 - What Gate 60 means: mutation through limitation, pressure, and waiting* 9:12 - Noticing what happens when things aren’t moving* 12:13 - How you can work with Gate 60 energy (whether you have it or not)* 19:24 - The astrology & Gene Keys of Gate 60: shadow, gift, and siddhi* 20:42 - Gate 60 in action: pressure to transcend limitation* 22:57 - Light & shadow expressions of Gate 60* 24:24 - Raising the frequency: discovering your creative containers* 25:41 - Programming partners: Gate 56 & Gate 3 (the channel of mutation)Resources mentioned:* Ebonie’s Gate 60 card from her Kismet Codes deck* The Value Filter* Embody Your Design, Kismetflix,* Free Charts + Reading ReportsReady to work with Ebonie?* Free Fundamentals Reports: Human Design, Astrology, Gene Keys basics* Attributes Reports (£44): Deep dive into your unique designwww.ebonieallard.com/get-chartConnect with Ebonie:Website: www.ebonieallard.com Substack: Ebonie Allard Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eboniealchemyNext week: A special guest joins to talk about Gate 41 and jumping timelines as we enter Human Design New Year on January 21st!If this episode resonated, please subscribe, rate, review, and share with someone who needs to hear this message. Your support helps more people discover this work. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What if everything you were told to hide about yourself; your intensity, your depth, your “too much-ness” is actually your greatest gift?In this raw and resonant conversation, I sit down with my friend Dory Walker, a human alchemist with 30 years of experience in yoga, shamanic practices, and multidimensional healing. We dive deep into what it really means to become “full of yourself” not as vanity, but as a radical act of evolutionary healing.In this episode, we explore:• Why the “gaze” that fell upon us in adolescence made us perform instead of simply being • How to teach the next generation to stay full of themselves (without the wounds we carried)• The difference between self-concept and signature frequency—and why one matters more• Why being told you’re “intimidating” or “too much” is actually confirmation you’re on the right path• How to take ownership of everything in your field (even when it’s uncomfortable)• The art of holding your own gaze without apology• Why depth, not vanity, is the true measure of fullnessThis conversation is for you if:* You’ve ever been told to “tone it down” or that you’re “too intense”* You’re tired of performing a smaller version of yourself* You want to understand how to help young people stay connected to their wholeness* You’re ready to stop avoiding the void and start owning your full rangeGUEST BIO: Dory has been spiritual teacher for over 25 years. An alchemist of energetics and the human mind. She is a teacher, coach, mentor and mother. Leading trainings and retreats internationally, a nomad a heart she lives between India and Europe with her partner and 2 daughters.CONNECT WITH DORY:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamdorywalkerWebsite: https://www.dorywalker.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/iamdorywalkerTIMESTAMPS:00:00 - Introduction & Welcome00:35 - Meet Dory Walker: Human Alchemist04:20 - When the Gaze Fell: Navigating Adolescence08:20 - Empowerment & Reclamation13:20 - Growing Up Different in the 80s16:40 - The Paradigm Shift Happening Now20:00 - Teaching Self-Awareness to Our Kids25:00 - Personal Responsibility as Alchemy30:00 - Reclaiming Your Vastness35:00 - Identity vs. Signature Frequency38:20 - Final Wisdom & Where to Find Dory===Watching back to edit this episode I was struck by the intersection between personal responsibility and collective worthiness. We are on a threshold; one that could be devastating or remarkable. I love how this episode feels like a soul song of hope and meaning, an invitation to us all to shift to fullness as a radical act of magic and mastery!Being Full of Yourself is taking ownership for what’s in your field.EBONIE: What does being full of yourself mean to you?DORY: It means living unmasked from any survival strategies and in that way embodying freedom. being full of yourself to be being empty of past impressions, programs that have an individual looping in survival mechanisms. I am full of presence. I am full of space to listen to listen to lifeEBONIE: What do you see as the most important or valuable shift or change you've made for yourself in your adult life?DORY: It really is a deepening on a journey i have been on for the whole of my adult life. A commitment to truth a commitment o self unquiet to knowing thyself so I guess the commitment to he fascination to the cosmic order and the human condition.EBONIE: Complete this sentence: “At my essence I am full of .....”DORY: loveThis is a conversation that inspires hope, excitement even, in what might otherwise feel like a scary or fearful time to be alive. This is a perspective altering episode, subtle but profound, like all personal alchemy - I hope that you enjoy it.BIG love,stay wild, stay true, be more you!EbonieLINKSEbonie’s art is currently on sale: https://shop.ebonieallard.com/collections/ebonie-alchemy-limited-edition-art-printsRESOURCES MENTIONED:• Human Design & Gene KeysIf this episode resonated with you, please subscribe, share it with someone who needs permission to be full of themselves, and leave a review to help others find this work.For more resources on living a fully fulfilled life, visit: www.ebonieallard.comUntil next time: be bold, be brave, be full of yourself. 🔥 This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

As 2026 begins, I’m choosing not to build a long-term plan and in this episode, I explain why.This conversation is about something quieter and more powerful than goal-setting. In this episode of Becoming Full of Yourself, I share why I’m focusing on short-term orientation instead of future mapping and how this approach supports clarity, capacity, and self-trustListen on for:• How to work with your energy rather than overriding it• What will help you to let go of pressure disguised as ambition• The cost of future-fixation• Why short-term focus can be more stabilising than long-range vision• How to orient your year without burning yourself out• What it means to lead yourself honestlyIf you’re even subtly feeling pressure to have everything mapped out, this episode offers a different way.This is a grounded, reflective episode for anyone feeling the weight of it all as a new year begins.Check out the full post on Substack for visuals of what to focus on month by month. https://eboniealchemy.substack.com/Links to things I mention in this episode:We have our first community call of 2026 on the 6th of January at 4pm UK time. It’s free for you to attend.https://www.ebonieallard.com/monthly-community-callGet a unique, exclusive piece of art, or a love letter in the mail from me each month, for just $7https://www.stampfans.com/ebonieGet your Human Design, Astrology or Gene Keys / Frequency Chart and Reports from me for free:https://ebonieallard.com/get-chartThe True Self Trifectahttps://www.ebonieallard.com/trueself-trifecta This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

There comes a moment when you realise that the way you’ve been living no longer fits. Not wrong, but no longer true.In this episode of Becoming Full of Yourself, I’m joined by Hannah Wilson for a grounded, intimate conversation about integrity, self-trust, and the quiet courage it takes to live in alignment with yourself. Even when it costs you approval, certainty, or belonging.Hannah Wilson is a Business Mystic working with entrepreneurs at the intersection of energetics and mission-led strategy. Through her work with Quantum Wealth Codes, she is helping usher in a new era: mystics, leaders, and visionaries no longer working from sacrifice, but from overflow. Returning power and wealth to the hands of the women who are shaping the world with it.Connect with Hannah on Instagram: www.instagram.com/thehannahwilsonshowThis isn’t a conversation about reinventing yourself. It’s about remembering who you are underneath the adaptations, the roles, and the unspoken rules you learned to survive.We explore:* The subtle ways we betray ourselves to stay connected, safe, or liked* Why integrity often requires disappointing others* The difference between confidence and self-trust* How to listen to your inner authority when it speaks quietly* What it means to live in a way you can actually respectThis episode is for culture makers, creatives, leaders, and sensitives who are done performing versions of themselves that no longer feel honest.If you’re standing at threshold, and lets be honest who isn't right now? If you're feeling the pull toward something truer, simpler, and more you… this conversation is for you!✨ Subscribe if you’re ready to live with more integrity, emotional clarity, and self-permission.Get your Human Design Chart from Ebonie at https://ebonieallard.com/get-chartFind out more about The True Self Trifecta: https://www.ebonieallard.com/trueself-trifecta This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

In a world obsessed with visibility, many of us are sharing more of ourselves than ever; yet still feel unheard, undervalued, and disconnected from our truth.In this episode of Becoming Full of Yourself, I’m joined by Amy Irons, a visibility coach whose work cuts through performative confidence and gets to the real work underneath: self-trust, integrity, and embodied worth.This is a grounded, honest conversation about what confidence actually is.SEEN ISN'T ENOUGHWe explore the subtle but crucial difference between being visible for validation and being heard because your voice is rooted in something real.In this episode, we talk about:* Why confidence is not charisma, performance, or PR* The difference between visibility and being truly heard* How integrity is built through invisible, internal change* Why mastery requires time, ownership, and humility* The cost of performative success in business and life* Curiosity as a more powerful force than certainty* What it means to trust yourself in uncertainty and chaosThis conversation is for culture makers, creatives, leaders, and sensitive thinkers who are tired of chasing optics and ready to build something honest, sustainable, and true.If you’ve ever felt the pressure to look confident while feeling disconnected inside, this episode will bring clarity, relief, and a powerful reframe.Amy Irons is a certified life coach, EFT practitioner, and founder of Ameli Coaching, where she helps female entrepreneurs step out of the shadows and into their authentic frequency in life and business. She teaches women how to create impact beyond algorithms and vanity metrics by building authority, connection, and freedom through their true voice.As the host of the Beyond Enough podcast, launched in 2025, Amy celebrates authentic female voices and shares the stories of women who are rewriting the rules of success in their business. With years of experience in the online business space, she has built a thriving community of women who are done with cookie-cutter strategies and are ready to lead with integrity, power, and authenticity.Based in Scotland and a mother of three, Amy knows first-hand the challenges of leaving behind the 9–5 grind. She transitioned from careers in law and HR to create a business that serves her family and empowers women globally to build lives and businesses on their own terms. Amy’s mission is clear: your voice is your most powerful asset, and when you stop diluting it, you start truly living.“Confidence isn’t performance. It’s self-trust when no one is watching.”✨ Subscribe if you’re ready to stop performing and start embodying your truth.Connect With Amy:[email protected]/amelicoaching/www.amelicoaching.co.uk This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

What if the most powerful force shaping your life isn’t your past, your beliefs, your circumstances, or your conditioning but the way you conceptualise yourself?In this episode of Becoming Full of Yourself we explore what happens when you decide to define yourself on your own terms. Not by your childhood conditioning. Not by the expectations of others. Not by the roles you’ve played or the identities you’ve inherited. But by the truth that rises from your own lived experience.This is a conversation about self concept, sovereignty, and the inner shift from who the world told you to be to who you actually are.Joining me is Michelle Dale, a veteran in the online space, and someone who I have known for most of the 20 years since we both started our online businesses.Founder of Virtual Miss Friday, Creator of 1nSourcing™ & Architect of Virtual CoWorking SpaceMichelle specialises in showing virtual assistants and other online service professionals how to create functional and efficient online businesses, attract and secure high end clients and lead with sustainable profit-driven packages that can be scaled to 6+ figures through strategic experience-based training, results-driven coaching and diverse hands-on services.Together, we explore:* What shapes your self concept and how it can become either a prison or a portal* Why women who appear strong, capable and high-functioning often feel insecure on the inside* The emotional and energetic cost of being the “good girl” or the “reliable one”* How redefining yourself changes what you tolerate, create, and allow* Why belonging begins with the relationship you have with yourself* The difference between performing confidence and embodying it* The subtle shifts that help you feel more like you, and less like a role you’re playingThis episode is a masterclass in self identity for culture makers: the creators, leaders, facilitators, strategists, and sensitives who feel ready to stop self-abandoning and start living from a place of grounded, embodied truth.If you’ve been feeling slightly off course, unsure who you are becoming, or longing to feel more like your real self, this conversation will meet you exactly where you are.✨ Subscribe if you’re ready to live more fully, love more honestly, and lead from your wholeness.Michelle Dale is a Virtual Assistant thought leader, entrepreneur, and pioneer in location-independent living. She is the founder of Virtual Miss Friday, an online business consultancy and academy with built-in virtual assistant services, and the creator of 1nSourcing™, a service that supports six and seven-figure business owners with high-level operational and strategic support.At 23, Michelle left the UK to pursue a life of true freedom. Since then, she has built a thriving online service and digital product business while travelling full-time, living abroad, and raising three children with her husband. She now mentors men and women around the world to cultivate their own professional independence, personal fulfilment, and digital freedom.Connect with Michelle:https://www.facebook.com/VMFLtd/https://www.facebook.com/groups/241025172576709/https://www.instagram.com/vmfltdhttps://www.linkedin.com/in/virtualmissfriday/https://www.youtube.com/user/VirtualAssistantLive This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

A deep dive into vocation as devotion. An invitation to understand the energetic design beneath your work, creativity, and leadership so you can craft a life that is truly yours.Becoming Full of YourselfEpisode 9. Vocation. Devotion. The Design of a Life that is Truly YoursWhat does it mean to live a life that is not only aligned but devoted. In this solo episode I explore vocation as something deeper than work or purpose. It is the frequency that hums beneath everything you do. It is the thread that runs through your Human Design, your Gene Keys, your astrological blueprint, your somatic patterning, your shadows, and your lived experience.I take you behind the scenes of my own vocation and how it has shaped the choices I make, the offerings I create, and the way I show up as a guide, facilitator, artist, and culture maker. You will hear how devotion has become the anchor for my business, my creativity, and my leadership, and why understanding your unconscious design can shift you out of resistance, half heartedness, and projection and into maturity, potency, and self trust.We explore:• What vocation really is beyond career• Why devotion is an energetically resourcing stance• How your unconscious Mars and other generational planets influence your drive• Shadow states and how they distort your direction• The Kismet Codes as a navigational system for sovereignty and self mastery• The difference between fate and destiny as lived practice• Why embodying your design is essential if you want sustainable success• How to recognise when you are creating from conditioning rather than truth• What it takes to build offerings that are both aligned and alive• My own process of reworking offers, including Kismetflix, the Sovereign Community, and the evolution of my teachingsThis episode is for midlife creatives, leaders, and culture makers who sense there is something deeper calling them forward. It will support you to reconnect with your sacred spark, honour your design, and move towards the life that feels like yours. A life that is crafted rather than inherited. A life lived in devotion.If you are ready to understand your own vocational frequency more intimately, explore your Human Design in practice, or work with the Kismet Codes, you will find links to current offerings and resources below.The Ultimate Soul Contract Cheat Codes Bundleebonieallard.com/get-chartThe Kismet Code CardsWhat is your Vocation? How do you see it playing out in your life?Work with me:* The Value Filter* Kismetflix* Embody Your Design This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

Being Full of Ego (and Loving It): Manifestor Power & PermissionIn this episode, I’m joined by Adrienne Roach — a 1/3 Ego Manifestor and the visionary behind ManiSisters Global. Adrienne and I discuss the challenges of being unapologetic, how misunderstood the ego centre can be, the joys of being an ego-centered woman, and the privilege that comes with it.✨ Subscribe if you're ready to live more fully, love more deeply, and lead from your wholeness.We explore what it really means to be ‘full of ego’ as someone with a defined Ego centre / an ego Manifestor. The misunderstandings around the Ego Centre, self-authority, power, and fulfilment.Adrienne shares her personal experience of navigating life as an Ego Manifestor, the role of self-trust in Manifestor strategy, and how she’s building transformative spaces specifically designed for Manifestor women to reconnect to their innate leadership.Together, we bust myths around ego, discuss the importance of creating permission within yourself, and explore the nuances of some of our 'tricker' parts.If you’re a Manifestor, work with one, or are simply curious about the healthy expression of ego, this conversation is for you. If you have gate 45 defined, or 21, are a 5 Line, or a 1/3 - you'll get a lot from this episode.We talk about:→ The real meaning of being ‘full of ego’→ Adrienne’s journey as a 1/3 Ego Manifestor→ Self-trust and the power of the Will Centre→ How Manifestors can build regenerative rather than extractive power structures→ Why many Manifestors feel misunderstood or ‘too much’→ The energetic signature of the Manifestor & how to work with it===Connect with Adrienne Roach:Find out more about ManiSisters Global: Master Peace - Free Course for Manifestors: https://manisisters.comFollow Adrienne on Instagram: IG: @manisisters_tvConnect with me, Ebonie Allard:Website: https://ebonieallard.com/get-chartInstagram: @eboniealchemy for daily updates @ebonieallard to shop The kismet Code Cards, Limited Edition Prints and MerchIf you enjoyed this episode, please leave a review, subscribe, and share it with your Manifestor friends.#ManifestorHumanDesign #EgoManifestor #HumanDesignManifestor #ManiSisters #BecomingFullOfYourselfPodcast #genekeys #humandesign #humandesignjourney #humandesignmanifestor This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

If you’ve ever felt stuck, blocked, or like you’re in your own way 👉🏼 this episode flips the script and shows you why that’s exactly where your power is.In this episode of the Becoming Full of Yourself Podcast, I am doing something that feels very scary and is totally off the cuff (even more so than usual) I am sharing my process from frustration to embodiment.Listen in to watch me explore in real time the liberating truth that our obstacles aren't just detours — they ARE the path.Join me as I unpack how resistance, frustration, and shadowy parts of ourself are actually portals to freedom, fulfilment, and sovereignty.You’ll discover how to alchemise your challenges into catalysts for personal growth, with practical examples and reflections drawn from real life.If you're ready to shift your perspective, stop fighting yourself, and integrate your shadows, this conversation is for you.🎧 Listen to:• Learn how your most persistent blocks are actually signals, not stop signs.• Get practical guidance for moving through resistance without bypassing.• Have aha's and insights on your own sovereignty, shadow integration, and true self-mastery.• See what it looks like to navigate frustration and fatigue without self-abandonment.• Leave with the inspiration to reclaim your personal power and rewrite your narrative.👉 Subscribe for more conversations that awaken your agency and guide you home to yourself.===Get your free charts and reports at www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartGet your Soul Contract Alignment Audit at www.ebonieallard.com/audit#ebonieallard #humandesignjourney #shadowwork #genekeys #embodimentonline #spiritualjourney This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

Stop using spiritual tools to beat yourself up and start using them to set yourself free.In this solo episode of Becoming Full of Yourself, I speak directly to the culture makers: the artists, strategists, producers, facilitators, and heart-led leaders who know they’re here to build something meaningful; but feel slightly off course.I get real about the way spiritual tools like Human Design, Gene Keys, and astrology are often misused to limit rather than liberate. I share what your Karma, Dharma and Shadows really are, and are not. And, why they matter!Listen to hear:• What a soul contract actually is — and what it's not• How karma, dharma, and destiny relate to your real-life creative expression• Why so many culture makers end up burnt out or spiritually bored• What your incarnation intentions are, and how they shape your lived experience• Why shadow work is essential if you want to access your light and geniusAnd most importantly: how to stop outsourcing your authority and begin truly being the change you want to see.This is a call to reconnect with your body, your rhythm, your wild and true nature✨ Subscribe if you're ready to live more fully, love more deeply, and lead from your wholeness.Find out more at www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartGet your Soul Contract Audit: https://www.ebonieallard.com/audit This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

How to trust yourself, find your purpose, and stop feeling like something's missing — even if you've done all the inner work.You’ve done the work. You’ve read the books, journaled through the wounds, followed your curiosity through nervous system maps, moon rituals, and burnout cycles… and still, you’re wondering:Why don’t I fully trust myself yet?What is my actual purpose?And what am I missing?In this soulful solo, Ebonie Allard tells you How to Be Full of Yourself (Without Being a Dick)She answers the top three questions she’s been asked in nearly three decades as a Soul Contract Guide and Fulfilment Coach. Weaving together Human Design, Gene Keys, Shadow Work®, and deep lived experience, this is not a ‘how-to’ for someone else's path—but a reclamation of your own.🎧 Listen / Watch if…• You’re quietly scared that you’ll never feel sure about yourself, no matter how much you learn or achieve• You’re creative, sensitive, and smart—but secretly exhausted by the boom-and-bust loop of doing too much and never feeling like it’s enough• You know you’re here to lead or love in a way that changes culture… but you’ve been hiding in plain sight, unsure how to start🎁 Links & Resources→ Get your free Human Design chart: https://www.ebonieallard.com/get-chart→ Explore the Value Filter: https://www.ebonieallard.com/the-value-filter→ Join EMBODY YOUR DESIGN: https://www.ebonieallard.com/embody-your-design→ Follow Ebonie on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eboniealchemy💬 Drop a comment below: What resonated most from this episode? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

The Power of Healthy Relationships in Embracing Identity, Gender, Values, and as a Path to Wholeness.In this deeply personal episode, Reena and I delve into individuation and the importance and impact of understanding our authentic selves amidst a culture that often imposes restrictive narratives. We chat candidly about shifts in personal identity, societal expectations, and share how navigating pain with embodied self awareness, can illuminate and foster empowerment and fulfilment.Listen if you're interested in our take on the complexities of gender, femininity and masculinity and how their synthesis leads to a more integrated existence, where both energies coexist harmoniouslyIn this episode you'll enjoy us talking about:• Recognising each other from internet images of us in our undies.• Sober raving, the healing power of dancing in community• The antidote to cancel culture• The healing power of heartbreak, and how to break free of the past• The shifting landscape of gender and the power of disagreement within community, to aid respect and for fostering a deeper connection with oneself and others.Cultural misappropriation and reclamation as a tool for healing mother / father wounds and the integration of a more mature self identityReena shares some of her journey from the corporate world to her current role as a movement medicine facilitator and how community has played a part in her healing. We cover neurodivergence, nuance in shared values and gender dynamics.This is for you if you're seeking to navigate the complexities of modern life with authenticity and grace.====Meet Reena Chadee:Reena is the Founder of ⁠Calm Curator⁠, movement medicine facilitator inspired by her Mauritian heritage, and marketing specialist for impact-driven organisations. Having built a successful career in advertising and marketing for some of the world’s biggest NGOs, she found herself in an unhealthy cycle of 15-hour workdays, excessive drinking, and questioning her life. At her lowest, she was introduced to the incredible healing practices of dance, yoga and meditation, which helped her find true balance between all parts of who she is.Today, Reena’s aim is to create a bridge for new people to try new practices and find their own balance—creating a life that gives and re-gives, equally and rhythmically.🔺 Connect with Reena🔺Personal IG: Reena_ReenaBusiness IG: Calm.CuratorWebsite: Calmcurator.com===Link to other things we discuss:🌐 Reena and Sorins website: https://scisavage.com/Sorin's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/scisavage/===📍🥷🏼 Next Steps:Ebonie Allard is a fulfilment coach and soul contract guide.She helps culture-makers decode the details of their soul contracts, integrate the shadows in their blind spots, and reignite their sacred spark so that they are fulfilled, satisfied and living to their full potential.She helps you to feel unapologetically fabulous about being full of yourself and reminds you how to have fun; before it’s too late!📑 Get your free Human Design, Astrology, Gene Keys, or Numerology chart and report: https://www.ebonieallard.com/get-chart(Become fully fulfilled & find about more about working with Ebonie) This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

Becoming Full of Yourself Episode 3 How Embodiment, Tantra & the Gene Keys Lead to True AlivenessIn this powerful and heart-opening episode, I sit down with Bella Krystal, a multidimensional teacher and co-founder of *Unlock Your Design*. Bella weaves embodiment, tantra, shamanism, and soul-based systems like Human Design and the Gene Keys into a grounded, luminous path of self-awareness and creative sovereignty.Together, we explore:• How shadow work can unlock your soul’s genius• Why embodiment is essential for true spiritual fulfilment• The importance of trusting your unique designAnd how to feel more alive, intimate, and divinely connectedBella’s journey spans seven countries, six languages, and a bridge between ancient wisdom and modern systems. With an MBA from UCLA and years in the business world, she now guides others to live in coherence with their genetic and soul blueprint.This episode is an invitation to open your heart, deepen your trust, and remember who you truly are.Meet Bella Krystal:Bella weaves many paths into one, threading embodiment practices, tantra and shamanism into everything she does. Her background is in entrepreneurship and business with an MBA from Anderson School of Management, UCLA. She has lived in seven countries and speaks six languages, which makes her a powerful bridge between cultures and people.Two of her work tools are Gene Keys & Human Design, astrology based systems that reveal the gifts and challenges encoded in our DNA and empower us to transmute shadow patterns into gold. Understanding our unique design, we start living to the fullest - aligned and coherent with our soul and genetic blueprint - serving the whole through our creative expression.Bella is the co-founder of Unlock Your Design, an online academy where Human Design, Gene Keys, and Astrology are taught as tools for self-awareness and empowerment. The mission of the academy is to guide and inspire people to embody their truth and sovereignty.**Connect with Bella Krystal**🔑 Unlock Your Design: https://www.unlockyourdesign.com/64-doors📘 Facebook Profile: https://www.facebook.com/izabellayoga🌐 Facebook Groups:• Gene Keys & Human Design: http://bit.ly/GKHDGROUP• The Living Matrix: http://bit.ly/LIVINGMATRIX📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bella_krystal_universe▶️ YouTube:  @UnlockYourDesign   @GENEKEYSHUMANDESIGN ===Get your free Human Design, Astrology, Gene Keys, or Numerology chart and report: https://www.ebonieallard.com/get-chart(Become fully fulfilled & find about more about working with Ebonie)Get your Kismet Code Cards: https://shop.ebonieallard.com/products/the-kismet-codes-cards-oracle-deckThe Initiation 👉🏼 https://www.ebonieallard.com/the-initiation This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

Embodiment, Energy & Becoming Who You Really Are In this powerful and heart-opening episode I am joined by empowerment coach Sesh Naidoo; a woman whose presence is as activating as her story.We dive into the messy, magical, and deeply human journey of embodiment; exploring the role the physical body has played in our growth, our self-worth, and reclaiming our power.Sesh shares her journey from South Africa to the UK, from science teacher to spiritual coach, from hiding to healing. Her approach blends somatic embodiment practices, energy work in the quantum field, and high-level coaching that reconnects people to the identity of their Higher Self.Listen for:• How embodiment helps access the next level of growth and success• What it takes to rewrite the stories we’ve been told about our bodies and our worth• How to become a permission slip for others by daring to be full of yourself• Why resilience, cultural roots, and spiritual devotion are key to unlocking true fulfilment• The intersection of energy, identity, and the body as a sacred site of transformationThis episode is for anyone who has ever felt at war with their body, or unsure how to fully show up in their bigness. It’s an activation, and a remembrance of the power that lives within you - on every level.Connect with Sesh on Facebook and Instagram@coach_sesh===Get Your free chart and reports at https://www.ebonieallard.com/get-chartJoin Ebonie for The Initiation: https://www.ebonieallard.com/the-initiation This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe

Welcome to Full of Yourself; the podcast for love-led leaders and culture-makers who are done with playing small.In this premiere episode, host Ebonie Allard sets the tone for what it really means to live a life that’s full of yourself — in the best possible way. If you’re exhausted from trying to prove your worth, striving for perfection, or shape-shifting to fit in, this is your invitation to come home to yourself.You’ll hear the origin story behind the podcast, what to expect from future episodes, and why embracing your too-muchness is the key to fulfilment. With her signature blend of humour, honesty, and soul-deep wisdom, Ebonie shares the real reason behind the name, the mission of this space, and the magic of reclaiming your wholeness.Whether you're curious, cautious, or already fully on board, this episode will leave you seen, stirred, and ready for more.Make sure you subscribe to get your weekly dose! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit eboniealchemy.substack.com/subscribe