darious

Thoughts before bed by darious.

Open <3 Surgery by darious.

run away by darious.

you never cease to amaze me your honest lies and your crazy alibis well, im just crazy, or am i your prize? or am i..baby? im no genius, but im not dumb i can feel you slipping away in the night and the sickest thing that's killing me most is you're not even man enough to let me know fuck your love, fuck your heart damn you to hell with your sins i dont wanna be a part of all your secret love affairs i'd rather die from your gun than live a lie - bulletproof - so fuck your love and your heart for not shooting me with the truth you say i should simply believe you but i won't - i don't deserve to be lied to and all your dungeon walls come tumbling down you broke the oath the unbreakable vow im no genius, but im not dumb i can feel you slipping away in the night and the sickest thing that's killing me most is you're not even man enough to let me know fuck your love, fuck your heart damn you to hell with your sins i dont wanna be a part of all your secret love affairs i'd rather die from your gun than live a lie - bulletproof - so fuck your love fuck your heart and fuck you... bang! bang! goes the gun im ashamed im the one no savior's gonna come to redeem you from your sins i gave you every chance to come clean to me i begged and i pleaded - if there's anything, i can handle it.. well, don't worry about this mess you've made because i let you take the reigns and control dont even waste your breath im deaf and im blind to it you tied my hands and signed your fate with my own blood and tears so fuck your love, fuck your heart damn you to hell with your sins i dont wanna be a part of all your secret love affairs i'd rather die from your gun than live a lie - bulletproof - so fuck your love fuck your heart damn you to hell with your sins...

you know - you know - do you know you still have my heart? even, even though adamancy is on your part... i knew you wanted release, even before you told me but i can't let you get away with murdering me no, i can't let you get away with murdering me because no one will ever love you like i do i did everything - everything i could! you were the world to me but your armageddon came too soon i gotta go, i gotta go i gotta leave but i dont know how to say no to you temptation knocking you're so damn irresistible you're my promised addiction but i can't let you go just give me one more hit and then i swear i'll be done who am i kidding? i have little control of this because no one will ever love you like i do i did everything - everything i could! you were the world to me but your armageddon came too soon i gotta go, i gotta go i gotta leave but i dont know how to say no to you so drag me down with you tie me up so i won't move i just, i just want your touch give me that high one more time don't make me give you up no one will ever love you like i do i did everything - everything i could! you were the world to me but your armageddon came too soon i gotta go, i gotta go i don't know how to let you go i can't let you go i won't let you go can't let you go, baby i can't let you go baby i can't let you go... no one will ever love you like i do i did everything, everything i could you were the world to me but your armageddon came to soon but the truth is... no matter how hard i try i can't get you, get you out of my mind you still - you still linger - and i can't - i won't - i ain't gonna let you go

Tempting fate by darious.

i swore i would never leave you today is the day i swore i would never forget your face it hurts my heart for me for me to make you leave the choices that you've made forces me further and further away... i hope in life you find love i hope it shakes you to the core but i wish it could've been me as i force my heart to look away i hope you miss me someday even though im not gonna wait i dont wanna cry i dont wanna hurt but i gotta go, gotta let you go mm mmm i break every promise i made im sorry i lied to you when i told you i would marry you someday but i cant see past my pain it hurts my heart for me for me to make you leave the choices that you've made forces me further and further away... i hope in life you find love i hope it shakes you to the core but i wish it could've been me as i force my heart to look away i hope you miss me someday even though im not gonna wait i dont wanna cry i dont wanna hurt but i gotta go, gotta let you go i hope in life you find love i hope it burns you to the core but i wish it could've been me as i force my heart to look away i hope you miss me someday even though im not gonna wait i dont wanna cry i dont wanna hurt but i gotta go, darlin i gotta go mmm mm i swore i would never leave you i swore i would never forget but i break every promise i made im sorry i lied when i told you i would marry you someday

after being single for a year and playing the victim, i finally decided to write something as close to happy as i could get it haha ;) pencil to paper, my thoughts seem to flee dont know what to write, there's nothing to sing about at least when it comes to love im no longer dreaming of you..you and me.. well, now i think it's time for me ohh ohh, darlin i think its time for me to be me again and not be afraid to live again for love and if thats not meant for us oh well! so what! ill have more chances to love! ;) pen to the page and i feel betrayed but enough about that this victim, ive played for too long at least when it comes to letting go of you im finally free well, now i think it's time for me darlin, i think it's time for me to be me again and not be afraid to live again for love and if that's not meant for us oh well! so what! i'll have more chances to love... no regrets every moment i cherish, cause i cant let my life pass me by like water under bridges if you say that it's all behind us i wont ever ask for closure again and now i think it's time to be me again and not be afraid to live again for love and if that's not meant for us oh well! so what! i'll have more chances to love now i think it's time to be me again and not be afraid to give all of my brokenness away and maybe after it's all said and done i'll smile just a little...

rollercoaster high by darious.

woke up, and i thought you were gone my alarm clock caught you walking out the door my reality crumbles to floor as i beg you mercy, i beg you for more cause i dont, i dont wanna watch my heart, heart walk out on me i dont wanna watch it no but if this is what you need then i wont intercede baby go chase your dreams but will you leave a shirt, or shoes - just a little something to remind me of you?! i'm giving you reasons to stay with me now pleading for clemency before the hour is over, but you wont, you wont justify your actions while i reluctantly give you my blessings cause i dont, i dont wanna watch my heart walk out on me now i dont i dont wanna watch you leave baby but if this is what you need then i guess i wont intercede baby go chase your dreams but will you leave a shirt, or shoes - just a little something to remind me of you?! you dont have to do this to me where you are i wanna be! let me love you, let me, please! darlin', just stay... damnit, just stay! if there's anything worth saving... don't go! if you must give up that easily then i beg, i beg you listen to me dont you dare think i dont i dont understand what you're going through place your hand in mine and just stay but if this is what you need then i wont intercede darlin', go chase your dreams but will you leave a shirt or shoes - just a little something to remind me of you! you dont have to do this to me! where you are i wanna be! let me love you, let me please! damnit just stay! dont leave me! stay! if there's anything worth saving...

i'll close my eyes in this room (shut the door, shut the door) and close the door to my heart (throw away the key) you said you would wait for me (wait! wait for me!) yes you did but how can i trust you now? i need my own space when i was wrong, you stood right! (you stood by my side) but now your errors - tonight they haunt you... cause i wont, i wont give you peace of mind for you to think you're still mine but you're only human i cant judge cause ive had my own share of fuck ups, but i turned it all around just for you to doubt my love how does it feel to be the one who loses everything? do you sleep at night, knowing i wont come back this time? seems like it's easy for you to throttle back, then try to fight for me so i surrender, i wont suffer through this war a thousand miles wont make you a locksmith even with a million keys, you'll never find the right fit i stood in the rain and let you take shelter (rain, rain, go away...) while you deliberately chose another let me leave and ill be free from pain it hurts so much, but my heart is getting over love... and i've lost my faith in you.. ohh ohh ohh, ohh ohh ohh how does it feel to be the one who loses how does it feel to feel the loss? but you chose it! how does it feel to walk blind into a wall of stone you were once my MIdas! but now the curse is on you.. so just stay away, stay away from me... stay away...please! stay, stay, stay, just stay with him and i know that baby ive done you wrong but i tried to change my ways but im tired of the pain you said! you said you would wait!