Dee, Let Me Clear My Throat

There are designated drivers that dedicate themselves to ensure that someone makes it home safely after a time of drinking. Someone to ensure that they are safe and they don't judge and belittle them. Someone that ensures that they get medical intervention in the possibility of alcohol poisoning or alcohol overdose. So, what happens in the same scenarios but instead of the choice of substance is not alcohol, but instead drugs? Not just "street drugs", but any and all drugs. Even from your local gas station, synthetic? In this episode, I talk about an organization that I came across that offers this type of lifesaving intervention for those that use drugs, regardless of kind. No, judgement, no legal reprimanding, just someone on the other end of a phone line ready to call 911 while you "use". The service isn't about enabling; it's about being the "designated driver". So, please join me in this Podcast as well as my others either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat. Time is the one thing in life you can't get back, knowing there is someone dedicating theirs to help you, can be lifesaving. I'm not promoting drug or alcohol use, but if you do, Contact: NEVER USE ALONE. 800.484.3731 or 877.696.1996.

In this episode, I go over the devastation and importance of domestic violence and suicide. I talk about some of my own personal experiences, as well as some resources, not only for the victim but for the abuser as well. Help is available and is possible. It does not just affect the victim and the abuser, but a whole family. If healing and intervention is not implicated, then the cycle continues on and on to future generations. I feel that this needs to be addressed in a greater importance than just throwing someone in jail or sending them to a couple of classes, especially when a victim feels that the only alternative is suicide, or an abuser decided to take both lives into their own hands with a murder/suicide. Giving them the power and control for eternity. 

This episode is a HUGE trigger for me. I talk about not only my own experiences but also the importance of domestic abuse and suicide. Abuse is NO joke! Suicide is NO joke! When you put the two together the result is beyond heartbreaking. The statistics of even one is too many. Please join me in this episode, as well as my others, either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat.  I have also started a TikTok. It is still fairly new, but I am excited to see what its future will hold.

Happy 2-year Podcast Anniversary to us! In tonight's episode, I expressed my excitement in celebrating 2 years of doing my Podcast.  I also got into my emotions and feelings. Talking about things in my life and where I am at today with myself. I started doing my Podcast to not only help myself in a form of self-healing, but to also share my life, stories, and resources to others in order to help provide them a positive moment of hope, courage, dignity, understanding, reflection, reassurance of someone relating to what they don't say, and an opportunity to want to take your next breath without it suffocating you. As I always say, the one thing in life that you can't get back, that is priceless, is your time. If you dedicate it by sharing it with me, then I know that you have taken your priceless time and shared it with me, and for that, I am honored. Thank you for being a part of this journey and I look forward to many more priceless moments and sharing them with you. Please join me in this Podcasts as well as my others either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. Although, still new, I just recently started a TikTok Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. 

Unlike the pictures in an activity book on how many different things you can pick out or notice, life is anything but an activity book. Instead, it seems that society seems to find ways to pick out and determine what is deemed to be an acceptable kind of different and a judgmental version based off of opinion, the latest trend, money, and so on. We are brought up from birth to not only be conditioned by this, but we unknowingly pass the same form from generation to generation. Please join me in this podcast as we touch base on some scenarios that have crossed my mind. You can also find this and my other podcasts on my Podbean Channel and/or my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

Feelings, emotions, thoughts, self-worth, the list goes on. This seems to be where I am tonight. In this podcast, I talk about a variety of emotions and even throw in a couple of corny jokes. Please join me in this Podcast, as well as my others either on Podbean or on my YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. I also just started a TikTok channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. 

In this Podcast, I am going to touch base on a very important topic. I will warn now that this may be a HUGE TRIGGER for some. Equal Rights are supposed to be the foundation as an American in the United States. In this episode, we will discuss how true and accurate this really is. Please join me in this podcast, either on my Podbean Channel or on my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat. 

When asked what your definition of a self-harmer is, what would be the first thing that comes to your mind? Would you think that they were someone that either cut, burnt, picked or would physically harm themselves? In this episode, we go over different thoughts and views of this subject. You might just find yourself a victim as an invisible self-harmer. Please join me in this Podcasts, as well as my others, either on my Pobean Channel or my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

There are many levels of emotions. However, the level of pain that engulfs a person can be deadly. In this episode, I go over my own personal experiences and triggers regarding my journey as a suicidal and self-harm victim survivor.  I also touch on some coping skills that have worked for me. Statistics are not accurate in my opinion regarding suicide, because one is too many! 988 is the suicide prevention helpline (in the United States, check your area resource if out of the US). They have skilled and non-judgmental professionals that can help you. Feel free to also join me in my other episodes on my Podbean channel as well as my YouTube channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat

There are different levels of pain. However, the intensity can feel the same. People are different, and the way they process, and cope are also different. There are no right or wrong ways of knowing how to prepare for a level that can turn deadly. Suicide is real, the victims are not actors, they are real live people that need survival in a world feeling no alternative. Most suicidal victims don't want to die, they just want the pain to stop. In this episode, I will go over a variety of feelings and emotions as well as some of my own stories. I will also touch base on how to help. We as a whole, need to give more compassion and understanding and be non-judgmental. There are statistics that try to define the numbers of victims in the world. I, however, believe that ONE IS TO MANY! Please join me in this podcast as well as my others on my Podbean channel, and/or my YouTube channel @ dee let me clear my throat. 988 is the suicide hotline. They have trained and caring people that are skilled to be there for you. 

As human beings we struggle with our self-worth and self-esteem as a reflection of our own self-identity. In this episode, I go over my own personal reflection as well as my perception made from what society says is acceptable. Manipulating mankind into believing and feeling that we are more worthy to be ourselves as long as we are not ourselves. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others here on Podbean as well as my YouTube Channel @deeletmeclearmythroat.

In this episode, I pretty much recap and vent on some of my previous podcasts and life experiences.  In a world full of dictators, don't be a dick. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others here on Podbean or on my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

In this episode, we will go over the last section of the Sobriety E-Book that I took from drugrehab.com. This is the last series of this e-book that I have divided up over into sections. This episode also includes several resources and contact information that will be helpful in finding the method that best suits your healing journey. Please join me in this episode, as well as my others here on Podbean or on my YouTube channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. 

In this episode, we will continue our discussion from the Sobriety E-Book I have taken from Drugrehab.com. This E-Book goes over the trial and tribulations of life and the reality of addiction as well as recovery, triggers, coping, maintenance and healing. Regardless, if you are suffering from any forms of addiction, whether it be any method of self-gratification or self-medication, this E-Book is for you. Please join me in this podcast, as well as my others on either my Podbean channel or my YouTube channel @Dee Let Me Clear My Throat.

This is the 6th episode in the series of the Sobriety E-Book., taken from DrugRehab.com. In this episode, I continue to touch base on the healing, coping and recovery of self-medication and survival in today's world as well as our own minds. Please join me in this episode, along with my others on my Padbean Channel and/or my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

In this episode, I will continue to talk about and go over the battle and healing of different coping mechanisms while battling any form of addiction. We live in a world now where everything is dictated and contaminated, Including our way of thinking. This in turn leads us to ways of trying to survive in a world that is set on hurting or killing us as a sport or hobby. So, what can you do? In this episode, we will continue to go over the Sobriety E-Book I have taken from drugrehab.com. Please join me in this podcast, as well as my others on Podbean, as well as my YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat.

In this episode, I will go over part 4 of the Sobriety E-Book from drugrehab.com. Addiction comes in many forms and regardless of the self-medication choice, the results can be similar to the next. Overcoming the emptiness and hollowness of the dark abyss inside can cost us a love that doesn't even exist from a drug that doesn't even care who you are. All it wants is your everything while leaving you feeling like nothing. We will touch base on this any many other factors in part 4 of several episodes of this Sobriety E-Book. Feel free to follow along, take notes and participate in the next moment of your own life, healing the sobriety version. Also, feel free to join me in my other podcasts on my Podbean channel as well as my YouTube channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

In this episode, I will be going over part 3 of the sobriety e-book from drugrehab.com. This of many episodes will cover the many factors of addictions, recovery, relapse and the battles of not only our minds, but the self-reflections we continue to face in a mirror that doesn't need to look at us so judgmental. Society paves the way to our inner self-esteem as continued construction hammers away at our soul. Sometimes you need to turn out the light in order to see. Don't let the light of judgement from society blind you from your own vision. Join me in this podcast as well as my others on Podbean and also on my YouTube channel @ Dee let me clear my throat.

In this episode, I will be going over and reading the next part of the Sobriety E-Book. You may want to grab a pen and paper to take notes and to answer some of the questions that were provided in certain areas and subjects in this section of this episode. You can also follow along on drugrehab.com or print out your own version as take advantage and go through the website and all it entails. I will be following this up with additional episodes until we have mastered this amazing and resourceful E-Book. If you have not already done so, please check out the episode where I go over part one as well as all my other Podcast episodes. Subscribe, like and share, to my Podbean Channel as well as my YouTube Channel @deeletmeclearmythroat,

In this episode, I have done things a bit different. This will be one of several episodes that will go over an E-Book/Workbook pertaining to addiction and sobriety. The information and E-Book were obtained from drugrehab.com. Please feel free to join me, bring a notebook and pen, as we take a journey together on one of the hardest roads you never thought you would travel. Together, we can make a difference in the battles faced in the world around us, as well as the one imprisoned in our own minds. There is hope, there is opportunity and there is a life worth living, sober. Join me in this podcast, as well as my others on Podbean, or my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat. Regardless, of what side of the road you are on, the journey you are on can literally be the difference between life and death.

Mental health and stability are just as vital as physical. In this episode I touch on the effects of society and the impact consequences stemmed from the actions of others. Often falling victim to our own minds and self-reflection that has been portrayed, dictated and embedded by the views of those we may not even know. This in return has paved the way for them to continuously be allowed and be acceptable and supported by the very government hired to protect us. Please join me in this podcast as well as others on my Podbean channel and YouTube channel @let me clear my throat.  

So, crazy is the new normal. Many suffer with mental challenges that in time can cause additional symptoms and obstacles that only those experiencing are able to see, hear or even guess if their surrounding are even real. Hallucinations are not a laughing matter to some. Especially, those that are already facing concerns with their mental state of mind. In this episode, I talk about hallucinations and the many, many causes and misconceptions they entail. Please also join me in my other Podcasts episodes as well, on Podbean as well as my YouTube channel @ dee let me clear my throat. Remember that just because it isn't real to you, doesn't mean it's not real to someone else. In some cases, it can be the illusion between life or death.

Many people suffer with many things in their lives. Some even silently. Unfortunately, there are many that find themselves self-medicating in ways that may not be looked at as a form of addiction. In this episode, I go over being addicted to depression and all the effects that it can play in your life. Please join me in this Podcast as well as my others as we discuss areas that are important and vital in survival, if even in our own minds. Like and subscribe to my channel on Podbean and also on YouTube @deeletmeclearmythroat.

When someone is raped, there is supposed to be a certain procedure followed by certain protocol. Resources are available, medical care is offered, professionals that are qualified to intervene, listen and offer help. In some situations, arrest and convictions are even made. Mostly though, hope and reassurance are embedded in their outlook and uncertainty. However, what happens with all of that when you are imprisoned in the same system meant to rehabilitate you, protect you, and help you become free in a world you have only witnessed from the courtyard of a prison facility. Now causing you to fall victim of a crime in the exact system and costing you a life sentence that will continue to violate you far beyond your release. In this episode, I touch base on prison rape and the impact it leaves on a victim at the mercy of a system that not only addresses them as a number but releases them back into society to now have a sentence of imprisonment in their head with no sense of identification and justice.

*HUGE TRIGGER WARNING!* In this episode I talk about male rape in the military. I also provide some tragic stories as well as, informative information and resources. My heart goes to all that live with the silent screams that trigger in their minds. Also, feel free to check out my other podcasts here on Podbean as well as, my YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat.

Over the years mankind has manipulated in order to suite their lifestyle. While some ways may be small and less of an impact of importance, others may cost the price of your soul. In this episode I will discuss many realities as well as questions I continue to ask GOD. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others here on Podbean as well as on my YouTube Channel @deeletmeclearmythroat.

There can come a time in your life that you find yourself looking at a face of someone you don't even know, a stranger if you will. All to discover that the face is actually your own. The person you see now is covered in tear stains and an overwhelming amount of altitude weighed down from the magnitude of hopelessness, solitude, worthlessness, abandonment, no reason to live anymore, the emotions go on and on. How did you get here? Will you even be able to answer that questionable feeling? Will anybody hear the screams that you never release? Will you be the one that recognizes your reflection as someone at your loved one's funeral, blaming yourself for not "seeing something" Or asking yourself "Why didn't they reach out or come to me? I would have helped them; I would have listened to them. Heartbreakingly, it is NOT so easy to see past certain levels that one has never experienced head on before or maybe hasn't been able to get passed their prejudgment on someone taking their own life. In this episode, i will discuss being on all ends of this. I will open up on my own personal stories, as well as those I have come into contact with or paths that have crossed mine. Suicide is NO joke! Please DO NOT JUDGE WHAT YOU CANNOT RELATE TO! Don't be THAT person. Join me in this podcast, as well as my others. I also have YouTube Channel @deeletmeclearmythroat. Please feel free to like and/or subscribe. 988 IS THE SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE. My heart goes out to anybody that feels no other options. Please DON'T GIVE UP!! I didn't want to die; I just wanted the pain to stop!

In a world full of mirrors be your own reflection. Society continues to find ways to make you feel less than what you are. Manipulating the way you look, feel, sound, act and even your beliefs and morals. In this episode I will touch base on how this has affected my life and how I am handling it. I will also discuss the importance of accepting that you are perfectly imperfect just the way you are. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others here on Podbean, and on my YouTube Channel, Dee, Let Me Clear My Throat. 

Dealing with abandonment can feel like an overwhelming way of life and emotions. With feelings stemming from a loved one, a friend and even your own self, how does one cope and work through their loss of security and sanity? In this episode, I will talk about abandonment issues. Types of abandonment, feelings behind the emptions of abandonment, anxiety, disorders and ways to cope so you can heal. Please join me in this podcast, as well as my others here on Podbean or feel free to check out my YouTube channel, @ dee let me clear my throat. 

There are times in our lives that we are faced with uncertain moments that can become uncontrollable and even in some cases deadly. According to statistics the estimated cases of Shaken Baby Syndrome are between 600 to 1400 cases a year. Within that number span the odds of one of them being your own child or someone in your care increases if you don't know the signs or have the ability to intervene yourself at the moment of truth. In this episode, I will talk about What Shaken Baby Syndrome is, prevalence and incidence, signs and symptoms, physical and medical examinations, prognosis, prevention, and even my own personal life experience that cost my grandson his life. This episode is very personal, and I hope to be able to shed some light and attention to this very important and life altering realization. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others. Also, feel free to check out my YouTube channel, like and subscribe. 

Being bullied as a child can take a toll on your mental and well-being while growing up. What happens though when that childhood bully grows up to be an adult? Or better yet, that bully is one of your own family members? In this episode, I will go over ways to deal with the family bully. I will discuss what a family bully is, effects of family bullying, boundaries, how to avoid getting emotional, knowing your self-worth, as well as some of my own experiences in my own family. Please join me in this podcast as well as my others. You can also check out my YouTube channel as well @letmeclearmythroat. 

There are certain times in our lives that we experience certain life changing events, such as a birth of a child. As a new parent emotions and hormones can run havoc on your mental well-being. If you are a significant other or someone other than the birth parent, noticing, responding and understanding the severity of Postpartum Depression and Psychosis can be the difference between life and death. In this episode I go over key factors, what to look for and even some possible resources. Feel free to check out my other Podcasts on here or on my YouTube channel.

Postpartum Depression is no joke and nothing that deserves to be judged or made fun of. It affects the well-being of not only the mother but the child as well. If left untreated, the symptoms can get worse and even deadly. There is no timeframe, no zip code, no nationality, no religion, no color and no discrimination in Postpartum Depression. In this episode I go over what to look for, how to counteract and also some of my own personal stories. If you are suffering in any way, please know that there are resources out there that can help. You are not alone in this battle you feel inside.

Finding a way to cope with the effects of depression can take a harder tole on some people more than others. Knowing how to counteract these moments can not only help overcome these effects but, can also be the level of strength needed to save your own life. While many may think that a person can just "get over it", the person living with the piercing sound of their own internal mental cries, wish that were the answer to their prayers. Instead, they may feel that they are not worth the prayer at all. Sadly, there are more and more people that suffer a level so dark that the light can sometimes feel like their only alternative.   

Everybody responds or reacts to situations and scenarios differently. Most of the time people find ways to cope and won't even think much about it. While others, it may become a huge part of them that can leave them feeling ways that are not always understood or even thought to be a real thing in life by others. Identifying and understanding in itself can be overwhelming. Resources and help are available. I am hoping that this podcast may also shed some light in the direction of those that need it and help them to cope with a disorder that one may not even knows exists.

Let's talk about us baby. Let's talk about you and me. Let's talk about all the good things we can be. Let's talk about us.   How to overcome relationship stress.....together

You can't put a time limit on the intense level and severity of loss and grief. You don't just "get over it". Especially, when the grief impacts your inner being to the point of no return. How do you cope? How do you function? How do you live when nothing makes sense anymore? When every breath suffocates you. In this Podcast I will talk about different levels of grief, different coping strategies and of course my own thoughts and personal experiences. You can also join me on my YouTube channel @deeletmeclearmythroat.

The President doesn't define "OUR FLAG", we do! The Government insults our country, our freedom and our fellow men, and woman of our military that stitched every single thread in that flag by the breath they gave to make it wave. People who take this for granted should find their way to the other side of our border to the countries that people are continuously trying to escape from to come here. You are not an American. You are a hypocrite, and a misrepresentation of what those stars and stripes stand for. so, sit down, shut up, or get the hell out. Or better yet, stand up, speak up, and show some respect at your place at the table in those country. I am not a proud American because of our Government. I am a proud American because of our men and woman who represent our military armed forces. There is a difference. Our President forgets. Our military wishes they could. To all that serve(d) thank you for your service. It is because of you that the world is a better place. GOD bless you!

This is part two of my previous podcast, Prosecuted Outside the System, Part One. Being a convicted felon can place necessities out of reach for some. Employment, housing, custody and/or visitations of their child/children and even certain constitutional rights are used as societies version of a life sentence to add roadblocks and continuous prosecution to a rehabilitated and time served human-being.

Are you being hired for who you are as a person and the good qualities you could offer? Are you hired to give an employer a tax break and extra money in their pockets? Or are you finding nothing but roadblocks in a world that continues to sentence you for a crime that you already served time for? How can the system "rehabilitate" and release you free with time served all to face a life sentence to society being convicted over and over again? This is part one of several topics I plan to talk about regarding this subject as well as other factors that I feel need to be addressed. Sometimes it's not always just the "convicted" that need the rehabilitation. I feel the system needs some of its very own "rehabilitation" as well.

New Life Starting a new life is not easy to do Especially when memories creep up on you Forcing a smile is now my face While internal scares won't erase My thoughts are my own when even they're not Made up of actions from other people I've got Pain is formed in a shape I don't know That haunts my life so I can't grow I want so much to think in a different way But my mind plays tricks with me and always wanting to play How do I get to a me that's not the same When everything else feels like a game My time is borrowed, and my world is blue Mayne tomorrow my life will find a different new

PTSD may seem like 4 small letters to some, but to those that suffer, those 4 little letters make the biggest impact. In this PodCast I touch base on the overview of PTSD, symptoms, intrusive memories, avoidance, negative thinking and mood, physical and emotional reactions, when to see a doctor or seek help, risk factors, coping strategies and stories of myself. PTSD is no joke and is nothing to be ashamed of or have to go through alone. Sometimes the biggest battles are in our very own minds. 

Finding a way to accept who you are can be a challenge. Recognizing and self-identifying yourself can cause you to feel out of place in life and "different" than those around you. Sometimes a feeling of "fitting in" or "belonging is one of your biggest obstacles in your emotional roller-coaster in life. I am very candid and realistic about myself and talk about my Bipolar Disorder in this episode as well as other parts of myself in my other episodes. please feel free to check them out as well. 

Having a "mental disorder" doesn't make you a freak. Sometimes recognizing who you are is the greatest challenge. OCD is misunderstood by many. It is not a matter of cleaning a lot. I have made this PodCast in hopes to not only give myself self-reassurance in my own mental identification, but also help others that may need it as well. This is part one of others that I am working on to post. I am very candid on my well-being and have come a long way in my journey that I have been traveling. However, I know that there are others that are in a place that they feel has no way out. I hope my PodCasts can find a way to help bring comfort and understanding for you in some way. If you are battling with depression or any overwhelming thoughts, please reach out to someone. 988 IS THE SUCIDE HOTLINE. They have trained and understanding professionals that can listen and give you the support you need. Please also check out my other PodCast as well. 

The Shadow Within Trying to stay positive can sometimes be hard to do. Especially when there are times life has given up on you. The light that was once shining is all but a blur in the dark. As it shadows around me and brands a heavy mark. Sometimes the abyss looks be in the eye, as it lures me to its depth. Sucking any hopes of tomorrow, or anything inside I have left. It is hard to find reasons to glow right again. It feels like a hopeless battle, that will someday my life with it end. It pierces me to the point I am but a memory of myself and a life I had before. How do I hold strong against its strength, when sometimes the light seems brighter on the other side of the door? Written By: Dee McVay

A Stranger's Eyes I looked through the eyes of a stranger at all the things I didn't want to see. Many bouts with darkness that always tried to run free. Depression found a home in the center of the pain, that took over the world pounding down like rain. The storm grew and knocked down a life that was only trying to live, but the thunder echoed louder, with all it had to give. Trying to seek shelter from home, left the journey feeling lost, abandoned and alone. Finding a way to keep warm from the cold elements of the abyss outside, only left room for any hope to reside. Wiping the sadness away from my eyes, uncovered the mask that was hiding in disguise. Blocking a true reality that was now plain to see. The stranger's eyes I found, actually belonged to me. Written by: Dee McVay

Hardest Day The first year will be the hardest I hear people say, There will be many moments without you in each passing day. Time continues, as picture reflections only memories can hold, Some of which will have stories, never again to be retold. Holidays will come and go, closing out the year. With a Christmas ending left, of no holiday cheer. Presents will be replaced, wrapped only in my eyes, Hidden by a smile now, displayed as a happy disguise. There will be only a chair pulled out for me, As yours reflects the emptiness of where you used to be. I don’t need Santa to come and put me on his list, Instead, I pray to GOD, to help get me through, each day you are missed.                                                                    --- Dee McVay 2023

Just needed to talk and put myself somewhere tonight. 

It's Me Again - No Script, Just Me. Well, and My Other Personalities I think the title can speak for itself. 

Here is the part two as promised! No script. No notes. Just me being me, open mic and talking. Please be sure to check out part one. As, well as my other 13 Podcast on here.  Have a blessed day!