Can’t Shut the Femme Up

Rachel and Faith end season two with a funny girls night, catching up on how they've been, letting their random thoughts unravel on the pod. They loosely talk about jealousy in a relationship, if it's okay having friends of the "opposite sex", insecurities with porn, embracing "free the nipple" and more.  They share the story of their first and only fight, leaving Faith forever shaped as a sibling. Both wondering if they'd ever be the same again. From sibling rivalries, physical sister fights, toothbrush revenge, to unforgivable betrayals, they talk recovering relationships with siblings after a bad fight. The ladies then remind their listeners how important it is to not give a sh*t what others think. Explaining how getting the courage to pursue their dream, making a podcast together, has helped them grow into their most confident, authentic selves. All thanks to the Femmes!  Faith and Rachel wrap up the episode with some good ol' prank calling for shits and giggles. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ They will be back in a month for Season 3! Thank you for tuning into another season of Can't Shut the Femme Up!

The ladies sit down with an anonymous guest who is ready to share the story of the time they almost were s*x trafficked to Epstein island. They uncover the dangers of sugar daddy culture, what the "daddy's" expect, transactional relationships, grooming and secret motives of these older rich men looking for a sugar baby. After getting offered a free trip to the Virgin Islands, the guest shares when things started to turn into a trip from our worst nightmare. When did they start to realize their sugar daddy had an ulterior motive? What did they see on Epstein Island? What did the island locals know about the world's largest sex trafficking business? Find out how they made it off the island, back to reality, forever changed, with a lingering fear that will never go away. Afterwards they discuss the disturbing details of Epstein, cannibals, the meat industry, Donald Trump, "prince" Andrew and our conspiracy theories!   ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ If you or a loved one recognize s*x trafficking, please call 888-373-7888. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Have you ever felt suicidal? Ever wonder what it's like in a mental hospital? Is it really like what you see in the movies? Well, join Faith for this solo story time about how she got to the point of permanently wanting to take her own life and admitting herself to the hospital for ptsd & suicidal ideation. She is talking real about mental health, inpatient treatment, suicidal ideation, what her experience being held in a mental hospital for 9 days was really like and the way she will forever be changed by this experience. Hear why Faith will always recommend this option when it comes to finding the help you need. She reads her personal journal entries from her time at the hospital, stepping into her thought process, revealing the way her mind went up and down during her time being treated for suicidal ideation, ptsd, bipolar, pmdd and more.  Please listen to this vulnerable episode for awareness with care. If you or a loved one are experiencing mental health issues please contact your local hospital or mental health hospital for inpatient treatment to save a life. 

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚SUPPORT NATIONAL IMMIGRATION LAW CENTER WITH CREATORS FOR PEACE! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Rachel and Faith catch up on how things have been since they’ve been MIA in this natural disaster winter storm. They discuss what it was like for both of their families during their storm experiences. They talk about Nashville's big power outage, puppy poop overload, what it was like getting the flu with no electricity and heat, schools closed and the damage that will leave them forever changed after this. They cheer for Faith’s two years of sobriety, reminiscing on her being the embarrassing drunk mess that got her into the most dangerous situations that only her guardian angels could lead her through. From inheriting alcoholism, sleeping orgasms and relapse dreams, to finally quitting, they talk about how things have changed since cutting alcohol out of her life! Then, the ladies get real and discuss the destruction of I.C.E in America, the murder of Alex Pretti and Renee Good, their love for immigrants, plus all the disturbing events we’re all witnessing online. They passionately express where they stand on the President’s administration, the Epstein files and more!!!! Please stay informed out there and never shut up! We love the Femmes! 

The ladies are back to talk more on all things postpartum! From making huge decisions on circumcision and vaccines to getting comfortable with your new body, breastfeeding, anxiety, depression, SEX, judgy parents, finding your identity again and more. They give their best advice on what they would want to hear freshly postpartum as new moms. They also share what it was like for them, the struggles they went through and how they will forever be changed after becoming a mother.It's a gentle reminder to all the mommas and parents out there that we are all in this together!˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

The ladies get raw, real and graphic about pregnancy, giving birth and the beginning of postpartum life. They explain the differences between where they were at in life when discovering that little pink plus sign. Discussion leads to the brutal first trimester never ending vomit and mood swings, being challenged with an eating disorder in your new pregnant body, medicinal marijuana, COVID pregnancy, prenatal depression, thoughts on abortion, avoiding the negativity of a “cheating” scandal and so much more. Rachel and Faith open up, literally, to share their honest birth stories for the Femmes. They are talking labor pains, epidurals, doulas, pooping during birth, episiotomies and all their vaginas went through to birth their beautiful boys. Running out of time, they lightly speak on postpartum, the way your brain changes after becoming a mom and how terrifying the anxiety + depression may be. Tune in next week for more on postpartum; anxiety, depression, recover, sex and more. We love you Femmes and mommas out there, remember to always ask for help. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

As they wrap up 2025, Rachel and Faith talk about the possibility of rewiring your brain to transform your life. Let’s learn to change our bad habits, how human brain behavior can get stuck in negative thought cycles and the difference between reality vs. fake scenarios the mind can create. As well as learning how exactly to live a longer and healthier life by taking control of your brain. This enlightens them for the New Year, 2026, a year they plan to take control of their mental health and psyche. Your brain is a super power, it can create your dream life, it can also destroy you. They remind themselves the power of manifestation and the way it works like actual magic.🪄🧠💫 After a lesson on mental clarity, they share their most unhinged New Years Eve stories that make them cringe to this day. On a monumental night for getting intoxicated, how much trouble could they have actually gotten in as teens? There’s no judgement here on Can’t Shut the Femme Up, we’d love to hear your wild stories! DM us your craziest New Years Eve memory. 😅 Femmes, stay safe this New Years Eve, drink responsibly and do not drive drunk!!💟 Thank you for a great first year of CSTFU podcast!!!!🎆🎇 Cheers to 2026!!!!🥂

The ladies have a very special guest this week for an important episode on domestic violence.  Daejanee, a best friend of Faiths, rewinds time 10 years ago to share the story of her survival after almost losing her life by the hands of her (at the time) boyfriend, the oppressor.  The women go over when and where the red flags started, how to spot out the warning signs of domestic violent relationships, and observe how abusers lure in their victims during vulnerable times of their lives. As well as the manipulation tactics that keep the victim trapped in the "toxic cycle of abuse." Faith shares what it was like being a witness to the abuse, what she could do to help her best friend in that horrible situation. She shares what to do if someone you love is being abused, what actions to take and how to be the best support for your loved one. Daejanee courageously shares the story of the night she was almost killed. She relives, for the listeners, what it was like to get so physically assaulted to the point where she almost lost her life and her eyesight. She describes how she finally got out of the cycle (that feels never ending) of abuse, when it was finally time to contact the police and why she waited so long to get the help she deserved to leave. She reflects on what life and love is like after surviving her attacks, what trauma she has carried and how to prevent post traumatic stress in her current relationship. Daejanee shares her powerful message to others out there that are experiencing this widespread worldwide occurrence of domestic abuse. For Daejanee’s info for support please reach out to us via instagram @cantshutthefemmeup or email us at [email protected]. We here at Can’t Shut the Femme up stand tall and speak loud against domestic violence. For more resources click the links below. https://www.thehotline.org/   https://www.un.org/en/coronavirus/what-is-domestic-abuse   https://www.justice.gov/ovw/domestic-violence https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/domestic-violence-and-abuse https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/domestic-violence

Have you ever considered that you have a drinking problem? Did you wake up with the worst hangxiety after Thanksgiving this year? Then this episode is for you!  While Rachel is out sick, Faith does a solo episode on how to quit drinking during the holidays. She gives you her very personal tips and tricks for kicking alcoholism in the ass during this season. Instead of waiting for the New Year, why not jump start your resolution to enjoy the holidays to its fullest most magical potential.  From using cannabis medicinally, to finding the right support groups, there are so many ways to finally release yourself from the grips of alcohol. For more support on alcoholism please contact your nearest provider to help start you on your sobriety journey!   https://www.aa.org/ Help is available Speak with someone today 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline Substance use support

The ladies are back for a tell all episode of how the family worked together to pull off the DIY wedding of Zac and Faith's dreams. They express the amount of love in the atmosphere that filled the air that night. They talk about how well the wedding turned out after months of home planning, thrifting 80% of everything, all areas completely DIY thanks to the hard work from each person pitching in together do create the perfect wedding. Faith talks how it felt to go alcohol free for her wedding and honeymoon, continuing her sober journey.  After wedding and honeymoon talk, they open up the conversation for the next segment of the podcast, “the feminist showdown.” Some of the most important episodes of the show are coming up this season. If you are a loved one want to come on the show to raise awareness, please email us at [email protected]. 

The ladies are wondering why the f*ck Netflix makes serial killers so hot? From Zac Efron to Evan Peters, why cast hollywoods hottest actors to portray such dark characters? What is the dark side of trusting based off good looks? They talk the marketing tactics, psychology of the audience  and broader societal context.  This is the last bit for spooky season here on CSTFU! Happy Halloween Femmes!  Following this episode will be a two week break for Faith + Zac’s wedding & honeymoon!! The ladies will be back November 10th  best wishes to the happy couple ⠀ ₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

Faith turns 30 this week! In honor of the 1995 ladies, they are going over the lessons they learned over the last decade. They talk magic mushrooms, dating & having sex in your twenties, drinking alcohol legally, STD's, family trauma, therapy, multiple loves and heartbreak. Faith explains why it's worth getting the concert tickets, quitting any job at any time, following your gut and living life to it's fullest potential. The ladies end the episode with a Harvest Moon- past, present and future Tarot Card reading. They also pick 3 Femmes to pull a card for as well!   

Faith and Rachel are getting spooky by telling their personal stories with paranormal activity. They talk about what the difference is between ghosts, spirits and demons, what it’s like to see each one and how to protect yourself from the evil.  The ladies explain the different ways of the afterlife’s miraculous communication with them. Discover that there’s a whole lot of unseen all around you by learning how to tap into that spiritually.  ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Join in on the ladies stoney montage of thoughts as they end the summer season of CSTFU. They regroup on how it’s felt to speak the whole month of September on suicide and are blown away by the immense amount of feedback, stories and support sent in! Thank you Femmes! Thoughts on gummies unravel about why social media sucks now, wedding planning, politics, Etsy witches, furry kinks, as well as their personal growth with the podcast. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Rachel and Faith are filled with excitement for fall, relating the seasons of earth to seasons of life and all they’ve observed about nature cycles out in Tennessee. Get ready for fall, filled with excitement right around the corner!  Enjoy the special sneak peek at the end 

Femmes, we are continuing our last episode with Christa Kelso, with part 2 of the powerful conversation of overcoming suicide. We hear the 51/50 stories of Christa and Faith. What is it like in a mental hospital? What are the highs and lows of admitting yourself into a mental health facility? We talk about medication, lifelines, doctors, social groups and brain chemistry. This is the final story of redemption for the CSTFU suicide awareness segment! If you or a loved one are struggling, this is your message to seek help. Please listen, share, reach out to us here at CSTFU and click the links we have provided.        ♡     https://afsp.org/ https://www.hftd.org/ https://988lifeline.org Text HOME to 741-741 for a free, confidential conversation with a trained counselor any time of day. Text or call 988 or use the chat function at 988lifeline.org. If this is a medical emergency or there is immediate danger of harm, call 911 and explain that you need support for a mental health crisis. SAMHSA’s National Helpline: Call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) for a referral for mental health treatment Trans Lifeline: Call 1-877-565-8860 The Trevor Project (LGBTQ) Helpline: Call 1-866-4UTREVOR (1-866-488-7386), chat online, or text START to 678-678 Veterans Crisis Line: Call 1-800-273-8255, chat online, or text 83825 National Domestic Violence Hotline: Call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233), chat online, or text START to 88788 National Runaway Safeline: Call 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat online Rape Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN): Call 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or chat online

The ladies are introducing a very special guest, Christa Kelso, to share her powerful redemption story with suicide. They are bringing God to the pod, for a powerful testimony of overcoming the darkness.  Christa starts back at the beginning where mental health was passed down through generations, overcoming death, devoting her life to Jesus and the moment her first depression hit. She teaches us about empathy, spiritual warfare, wise doctors advice, manic depression, healing, freedom, faith and demons. Christa then reads the Femmes the start of her book, which walks us through her footsteps of her survival story. This deeply raw journey of fighting mental illness, the darkness and walking through the power of God. Whether you believe or not, there is a higher power that you need to learn about and let love you.  Please listen with an open mind and heart.  If you or a loved one are struggling, this is your message to seek help. Please listen, share, reach out to us here at CSTFU and click the links we have provided.  ♡   https://afsp.org/ https://www.hftd.org/ https://988lifeline.org Text HOME to 741-741 for a free, confidential conversation with a trained counselor any time of day. Text or call 988 or use the chat function at 988lifeline.org. If this is a medical emergency or there is immediate danger of harm, call 911 and explain that you need support for a mental health crisis. SAMHSA’s National Helpline: Call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) for a referral for mental health treatment Trans Lifeline: Call 1-877-565-8860 The Trevor Project (LGBTQ) Helpline: Call 1-866-4UTREVOR (1-866-488-7386), chat online, or text START to 678-678 Veterans Crisis Line: Call 1-800-273-8255, chat online, or text 83825 National Runaway Safeline: Call 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat online

This is Faith’s story of losing her dad, Walter, to suicide in March 2023. It’s finally time to shed light on the darkest time of her entire life and she is ready to share it with the femmes. Rachel walks Faith through the relationship she had with her dad, how much he meant to her as a daughter, the incredible bond that was built between father and daughter and their similarities. They unfold when she started to become aware she was growing up with a parent battling mental illness and addiction. Faith recalls when she first started seeing signs of her dad’s illness and how she always lived in fear of losing her dad to suicide. She discusses what her fathers signs were, how she could’ve prevented his death and what the connection alcohol has to suicidal ideation. She explains how suicide loss took over her whole life, causing extreme breakage in the entire family. The anger that unraveled after losing her dad and how her own sister betrayed the entire family by doing something truly diabolical during the weakest time of their lives.  There are so many life lessons to be learned in this episode about getting through the grieving process, navigating families with mental illness, how to overcome the darkness, finding suicidal warning signs and much more. Please listen with care, share our stories and do what you can to learn more to advocate for mental health and suicide awareness. You are never alone. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Thank you.♡     https://988lifeline.org/help-yourself/loss-survivors/ 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline https://afsp.org/get-help/ https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts/ Al-Anon offers support and understanding to the family and friends of problem drinkers. Alcohol Change UK campaign for better alcohol policies and improved support for people whose lives are affected by alcohol problems. They offer help and support if you want to change your drinking habits. Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) runs free self-help groups for anyone who thinks they have a drink problem. Drinkaware provides advice, information and tools to help people make better choices about their drinking. Drinkline is a free, confidential helpline for anyone worried about their drinking or someone else’s. Call 0300 123 1100. If you are in Scotland you can also contact Drinkline Scotland on 0800 7314 314. Turning Point offers tailored support to people with drug or alcohol problems. This could be advice, medical treatment, peer support, social activities or help getting back into work, for example. We Are With You offers free, confidential support with alcohol, drugs or mental health. LGBTQIA+ support services: Alcohol Change UK has more resources for LGBTQIA+ people who drink in moderation or don’t drink.  

September is Suicide Awareness Month, which means it’s time for us to talk about it. ♡ This is the first episode of the September CSTFU suicide awareness segment.  Let’s get started with finding out where Faith and Rachel’s passion for suicide awareness advocacy stemmed from? The ladies choose to share their personal experience with suicidal ideation, self harm, attempts, mental disorders and loss. Faith tells the Femmes about her secret hockey player love affair at 17 that ended in her first real heartbreak. Which left her spiraling deep into alcohol addiction and suicidal ideation which ended in a car crash that saved her life. When you are young and feel that a breakup is the end of the world, it could end tragically. Rachel then shares her deeply personal story of losing the boy she loved to suicide, a loss that will forever haunt her. She explains how the agony of his suicide engulfed her life, leaving her at her most reckless state of life.  This is the powerful personal testimony of how God saved Rachel from taking her life. We urge you to join us to bring light to the darkness. ❦ https://afsp.org/ https://www.hftd.org/ Text HOME to 741-741 for a free, confidential conversation with a trained counselor any time of day. Text or call 988 or use the chat function at 988lifeline.org. If this is a medical emergency or there is immediate danger of harm, call 911 and explain that you need support for a mental health crisis. SAMHSA’s National Helpline: Call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) for a referral for mental health treatment Trans Lifeline: Call 1-877-565-8860 The Trevor Project (LGBTQ) Helpline: Call 1-866-4UTREVOR (1-866-488-7386), chat online, or text START to 678-678 Veterans Crisis Line: Call 1-800-273-8255, chat online, or text 83825 National Domestic Violence Hotline: Call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233), chat online, or text START to 88788 National Runaway Safeline: Call 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat online Rape Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN): Call 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or chat online ❦ Trigger warning that this episode contains the topic of suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, gun violence, addiction and evil energy.

Following last weeks episode “embracing rage” we have a SPINOFF episode “why I left the church” with a very special guest, Zac Rodarmel. In previous episodes, Rachel has shared part of her story with church hurt, but now we have her older brother here sharing his perspective on an immense church fallout 6 years ago. Faith is interviewing her fiancé about Zac’s life of following his calling to serve God in leading the church, then the unexpected experience of a very public divorce (2019) which led to the community he built to turn on him. They talk about getting married at a young age for God, the expectations placed on a leader in the church, religious rules, inauthentic friendships, “christian” judgement, secret affairs, studying theology, living in “sin”, WWJD and finding your soulmate after a heartbreaking divorce.  You won’t want to miss this deeply expressed episode of CTSFU about love, loss, betrayal, religion, family, community and finding your own personal relationship with God.  Listen to ZAC SLAPS EP "Oh Baby" on iTunes, Spotify and SoundCloud ♡ https://open.spotify.com/artist/3TWOCnV40C1VMTeuecmTy6?si=ShIe4qq4TiWZhbCkHKB3aA https://soundcloud.com/zacslaps/sets/oh-baby-ep?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing https://music.apple.com/us/album/oh-baby-ep/1489373055 

Femmes, your hosts are bringing the topic “anger” onto the podcast and what brings up their personal rage. They are discussing the tip of the iceberg with anger, where it stems from and how deep it truly goes within ourselves. Why do we feel as humans that anger is something to be ashamed of? Faith and Rachel are embracing anger here on Can’t Shut the Femme up and want to bring light to the other side of the pain to find the inner issue to resolve the rage. Taylor Swift lore enters to convo, reading the lyrics to “who’s afraid of little old me”- a song the hit Rachel at the core, bringing back the heavy pain the church life caused her resulting in moving away to Tennessee and starting a new life. Before getting deep into a personal heartbreak of anger + reading the ladies angsty journal entries, this episode is cut short due to technical difficulties. You’re going to want stay tuned for this part 2 of "embracing rage" with a surprise guest up next on Can’t Shut the Femme Up. ♡  

You’ll start the episode by audio transporting to Nashville,Tennessee to hear the ASMR sounds of the countryside summer. After entering the room, the ladies share the full story of how it was decided to pick up their whole lives and moved across the United States on a whim. How manifesting is real sh*t and spontaneously leaving your hometown and moving to a new place really works out in the long run. Faith and Rachel explain the seasons of Tennessee, how to get through the humid summers and tips for the transition moving from Southern California to the south. As well as what it was like to buy a property with 14 chickens and a rooster, growing kids in the country, navigating the bugs, wildlife and the big, yet small, city. Which opens up the story time of their wildest night in Nashville, the CALL HER DADDY Unwell 2023 tour! They reminisce the hilarious memories of meeting DADDY GANG, sneaking to the front row, getting the nickname “COW JACKET GIRL”, getting yelled at by Chelsea Handler and much more. Following the show, the girls figure out how to sneak into the private after party where they got to party with Alex Cooper and the UNWELL team. CALL HER DADDY STORY TIME @ 35:05 minutes This lightly opens up the discussion of drinking culture, grieving a suicide, substance abuse while grieving and how dangerous alcohol consumption can be for you at the lowest points of life. Thank you for tuning into a 5th week of CSTFU! <3 Please drink responsibly.  

Tune in this week for a hilarious episode of CSTFU where the ladies answer your personal, deep, wild questions sent in from the Femmes!  Faith and Rachel get into conversation about purity culture, one night stands, sugar daddies, growing up young, alcoholism, porn, ghosts, mystery meat and Nashville. Along with story time about memories that have permanently shaped them in childhood. From questions like “can you prank call your asshole ex’s?” to “what is your purpose in life?” This question and answer episode is one you don’t want to miss! Thank you to all the Femmes that submitted their questions to Can’t Shut the Femme Up<3 

On this more serious episode of CSTFU, Rachel and Faith sit down and figure out what exactly started their body dysmorphia. They share their very personal eating disorder journeys; how they developed, why it was so common, the raw experiences of the illness. Why comparison is so dangerous while you are developing into your own unique body, especially growing up in Southern California, where a huge epidemic of body dysmorphia is created socially. The ladies talk about their asshole ex’s that were horrible for their self esteem and why they put up with it for so long. Entering the topic of SELF LOVE into the show, “loving yourself is the only way to true freedom.” Thoughts on hairy armpits? Weight gain? Did they ever overcome their eating disorder? Find out the girls answers now on episode 3 of Can’t Shut the Femme Up! Our Dm's are always open for you @cantshutthefemmeup <3 eatingdisorderhope.com https://bulimia.com/ nationaleatingdisorders.org/get-help/ https://renfrewcenter.com/learning-resources-for-eating-disorders-and-recovery/

The ladies flash back to 2005-2006 where they are beginning to go through puberty and their first menstrual cycles. They're answering questions like, how did they first learn to put in a tampon?  What is their first period story?   From breaking hymens, to growing pubes, the girls go back in time and chat about what the hell is happening to our bodies at that age. Faith and Rachel open up about their PMDD stories, what PMDD is, how they were diagnosed, the drastic changes it causes in their moods and lives every single month; affecting millions of others worldwide.  They both briefly talk about the way suicide loss has affected their lives as well as their own stories with suicidal ideation and what they’ve done to take care of their mental health.  Please listen with care. They wrap the episode up with their epic period pranks from middle school that they’ll never forget.   Please enjoy this important episode of Can’t Shut the Femme up. 

At the height of their luteal phase, the girls share their hearts as to why they are starting this show. Each one gives the listeners a brief view into their lives and who they are. They go back to middle school and talk about how common SA is at school after puberty. Discussions of the patriarchy in the church and how different women are treated in religion. They open up conversation about mental health and how important it is to the podcast. Plus a story time about saving stray cats from being killed by a dog. Thank you for tuning into the first episode of Can't Shut the Femme up, we'll see you next Monday!