Notes App Faith

“I didn’t become who I thought I would be… but I became who God was forming me to be.”This is the Season Finale. Four days before graduation, I’m sitting in the tension of endings, change, and everything I wish I could tell my 18-year-old self before walking into college.In this episode, I’m sharing the real lessons about friendship, heartbreak, identity, faith, comparison, and learning how to trust God when nothing feels clear. The things I learned the hard way. The things no one warns you about. If you’re starting college, finishing it, or just feel like you’re in a season of transition… this is for you.

You can reach the end of something you prayed for… and still not feel ready to let it go. In this episode, I open up about the quiet, in-between season of finishing something that meant everything—where you feel grateful, proud, and unsure all at once. From grieving routines and a version of yourself, to realizing your identity was never meant to stay in something temporary, this is an honest conversation about growth, letting go, and trusting God when what’s next isn’t clear.

What happens when the game you love… stops loving you back? When you’re still showing up, still working, still competing, but it feels different. Heavier. This episode goes into the part of being an athlete no one really talks about: the pressure, the expectations, the voices that start to shape why you play and what happens when you realize you can’t live up to all of them. Because at some point, every athlete faces this question: “If I can’t be who they want me to be… why am I even playing?" This isn’t about quitting. It’s about identity, pressure, purpose, and learning how to take your love for the game back. If you’ve ever felt disconnected from something you once loved… this one’s for you.

What do you do when your faith is steady… but your mind isn’t?This episode is a raw and honest conversation about anxiety, depression, numbness, and the thoughts we don’t say out loud. The ones that tell you you’re a burden, that no one really cares, or that you’re falling behind.We’re talking about what mental health actually looks like in real life: panic attacks, emotional exhaustion, and just trying to make it through the day. I also open up about my own struggles and how faith meets us in the middle of it, not by instantly fixing everything, but by staying.If you’ve been fighting a battle in your mind that no one else can see… this is your reminder that it’s real, and you are not alone.

This episode is all about something no one really prepares you for friendship heartbreak. As seniors getting ready to graduate, we’re talking honestly about what it looks like to lose friends, feel like the “backup option,” and question where we actually stand with people. With a special guest, we get into the difference between cultural friendships that are built on convenience and Kingdom friendships that are rooted in purpose, consistency, and real love. We share personal stories, call out red flags like inconsistency, jealousy, and surface-level support, and also talk about what a healthy, faithful friendship actually looks like. The kind that celebrates your growth, tells you the truth, and chooses you on purpose. If you’ve ever felt overlooked, confused in a friendship, or like you’re always the one trying harder, this episode is for you. It’s a reminder that you don’t have to earn your place in people’s lives when you already know you’re chosen by God.

This episode is a little different: no outline, no perfect structure, just an honest, in-the-middle reflection on what this season of life has actually been like. From balancing lacrosse, school, leadership, and faith to navigating friendships and personal growth, I’m learning what it looks like to show up without having everything figured out. Lately, God has been teaching me that glorifying Him isn’t always found in big, visible moments, but in quiet obedience, consistency, and the small ways we choose to trust Him daily.I also talk about nostalgia, healing, and the tension of opening back up after being hurt, learning to let relationships grow naturally instead of forcing them, and trusting that what’s from God comes with peace, not pressure. If you feel like you’re in the middle of things: still growing, still processing, still figuring it out, this episode is for you. You’re not behind. You’re being rebuilt.

Ever feel like following God means you’re missing out?Like everyone else is out living, dating, experiencing everything, and you’re just… sitting in the tension of trying to do things differently. Not because you have to, but because you feel called to. And instead of feeling set apart, it just feels isolating. This episode goes straight into that feeling. The FOMO that started earlier than you realized, the pressure that shows up in college culture, the confusion around dating and situationships, and even the unexpected comparison that can happen inside Christian spaces. It’s the quiet frustration of wondering if it would just be easier to go with the flow, to care a little less, to stop questioning it all. If you’ve been stuck between wanting to fit in and knowing you’re called to more, this episode will meet you right there.

Comparison shows up everywhere in college.Grades, relationships, internships, friend groups, leadership roles… even faith.In this episode, I’m sharing an honest conversation about what it feels like to be 21, close to graduating, and realizing you don’t actually have everything figured out. We talk about why comparison gets louder in college, how it quietly affects our faith, and why social media makes it feel like everyone else’s life is moving faster.If you’ve ever wondered:• Am I behind?• Why does everyone else seem so sure about their life?• Why does God feel closer to them than to me?You’re not the only one asking those questions.Comparison may be loud, but calling is louder.

We have our FIRST ever guest on the More Than an Athlete series !!In this episode, I’m joined by my teammate Kelsee as we talk about something that doesn’t show up in highlights but changes everything: the power of a faithful teammate.Not just someone talented.Not just someone who starts.But someone who stays.As two college transfers, we get real about the hidden struggles behind leaving a program: the identity shift, the loneliness, the doubts, the moments we questioned if we made the right decision. Transferring isn’t just about playing time. Sometimes it’s about obedience. Sometimes it’s about faith. If you’ve ever questioned your identity, your decision to transfer, or your place on a team, this conversation might be exactly what you didn’t know you needed.

This week’s Faith Fit Check explores something most of us avoid without even realizing it: silence. Not the peaceful, aesthetic kind. The uncomfortable kind. The kind that makes your brain start listing assignments, future plans, conversations you should’ve handled better, and backup plans for the backup plans. This conversation unpacks why silence feels so uncomfortable at 21, what it reveals about identity and worth, and how small, intentional moments of stillness can make space to actually hear the whisper. So will you join me in this challenge?

In this episode of GroupChat Gospel, we’re talking about the tension between “main character energy” and Kingdom energy. You know the vibe: romanticizing your life, protecting your peace, choosing yourself, curating your aesthetic. It feels empowering. Until it quietly starts replacing obedience. This week, I’m unpacking the moments where “choosing me” wasn’t actually choosing God. Main character energy builds a highlight reel. Kingdom energy builds a legacy.

Valentine’s Day feels louder when you’re healing from heartbreak.In this episode, I open up about navigating an unexpected breakup at 21 — missing who I was in the relationship, questioning my worth when they move on, and learning how to trust God in the ache. We talk about comparison, self-blame, and the truth that healing in private isn’t weakness — it’s obedience.You can love God and still miss someone deeply.You can have faith and still cry in your car.If this week feels heavy, you’re not behind, and you’re not alone. God is close to the brokenhearted.

Healing doesn’t happen in a straight line—especially at 21.In this episode, I’m sharing what healing really feels like in the in-between season: graduating, growing up, grieving things you didn’t expect to lose, and trying to follow Jesus when faith feels quiet or messy.We talk about emotional whiplash, grieving what never happened, faith when you don’t feel spiritual, and how Jesus meets us in emotional chaos. If you’ve ever felt okay one moment and undone the next, this conversation is for you.You’re not broken. You’re not behind. Healing isn’t about fixing yourself—it’s about learning how to live while carrying what changed you.Press play and let’s sit in the messy middle together.

When the game ends, the questions get louder.In this episode, I talk about what it’s like to lose an identity built on performance—and how faith reshapes who we are beyond the scoreboard. From post-grad panic to spiritual growth, this is an honest conversation about grief, purpose, and discovering that being an athlete was an assignment—but being a child of God is identity.If you’ve ever wondered who you are without the thing that defined you, you’re not alone.

Ever felt like your prayers are stuck on “delivered” but never answered?In this GroupChat Gospel episode, we’re talking about God’s silence and why it can feel so personal. We unpack the frustration, doubt, and waiting that come when heaven feels quiet, and what Scripture shows us about seasons where God seems absent but is actually working.From Psalm 13 to the story of Lazarus, this episode reframes silence as purposeful, not punitive. If you’re tired of waiting, questioning your faith, or wondering if God has forgotten you—this conversation is for you.Maybe God isn’t ghosting you.Maybe… He’s typing.

Senior year. Job applications. Big decisions. Loud expectations.In this episode, I’m talking about the uncomfortable in-between being 21, almost graduated, and still not having a clear plan. We’re unpacking post-grad anxiety, comparison, waiting on God, and what it really looks like to trust Him without a five-year roadmap.I share the tension of choosing between multiple paths, the pressure to “have it all figured out,” and what God has been teaching me about obedience, vocation, and identity beyond career titles.If you’re feeling behind, overwhelmed, or unsure of what’s next, this episode is a reminder that clarity isn’t a prerequisite for faithfulness.

What happens when faith stops feeling simple?In this first episode, I’m sharing my story unfiltered and honest. From growing up without a strong faith foundation, to building my identity around sports and performance, to navigating heartbreak, disappointment, and eventually surrendering my life to Christ.This episode is about losing control, questioning God, and discovering that faith isn’t built in perfect moments but in the messy, painful, in-between ones. If you’ve ever felt like you had to perform to be worthy, struggled with your identity, or wondered where God was in the middle of your pain, this conversation is for you.Welcome to the chat. You’re not alone here.

I’m 21, a college senior one semester away from graduating, and here’s the truth: I don’t have it all figured out. I’m navigating faith, friendships, post-grad panic, and what it means to follow Jesus in a generation that’s both connected and completely lost.Notes App Faith is my group chat with you—real conversations about life and faith, without the filters. We’ll talk about faith in the messy middle, identity, healing, and becoming, even when things don’t make sense yet.