Only Rainy Days

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. it gets hard to keep your head above water. you see the impending wave ahead of you, and it becomes easy to let whatever happens, happen. gotta keep your head up. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. sometimes life feels ideal, sometimes life feels like playing frogger on the highway blindfolded. there's some sort of excitement found in the unknown, and some sort of hope found in the middle of a storm. some days there's a twinkle in your eye, some days feel cold and grey. it all just ibbs and obbs. glimmers and shimmers. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. the feeling of wanting to "start over" is a comforting one when you feel like you made mistakes previously. mistakes are the best source of knowledge for the future; you have to face these mishaps face on. afterwards, take the information, calm and reset your mind, and try your best to move forward once again. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. i've been stuck in the middle of nowhere for the last couple weeks. the clock decided to grow legs and run off on me, so all i have left is some random dreams, a stick, and a couple rings. it's funny how things can just come and go so easily. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. time passes whether you want it to, or not. not every situation can be controlled purely by you; it's up to you to determine how to respond. if you do things to make it worse, you'll only make it worse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. there's not really much to say here. i've had a bad habit of bringing people close to fill my voids without considering what my presence does to them. promising to give things you cannot give just leads to pain and regret. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. perfection is merely a concept created to sell products to people. there is no "true" perfection; everyone has their little intricacies and their own stories. to truly be, you first have to accept your "flaws". Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. everything is bound to change at some point. bad situations go away, happiness turns mundane, a friendship or two might even go sour for a moment. you can't change everything, but you can learn how to deal with it. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. one final look at the past, and one big gaze into the future. trying to make positive changes for your own health, both physical and mental, is a challenge that requires commitment; you can't just say you're going to change, you have to put the effort in to change. putting in the effort is truly the only way you make something better. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. 2023 is finally coming to a close, and while it's been quite the rollercoaster of a year, i never even expected to get this far. to experience so much, to have the strings in my heart be pulled in every direction possible, for the better or for the worse. but i made it this far, so i should probably keep it going. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. the future's uncertain, and the past is distant. you cannot allow yourself to forget who you are, but you also cannot allow yourself to destroy the person you were meant to be. a lot will happen in life; some friends will come and go, family ties will shift and turn, relationships will flourish and burn. what lies ahead on this road of recovery and improvement? only time will tell. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. people tend to look towards unusual outlets when life starts to get stressful; some lean on the compassion of those around them, some choose to branch out into new hobbies, while some unfortunately end up turning to substances for their "comfort". in the midst of trying to feel anything other than themselves, they steadily knock themselves further down and down, blinded by the illusion that things are getting better. chasing your highs will only bring you to lower lows. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. it's easy to tell yourself that you should've done better; to believe that you've fallen short on your goals and your expectations. it's too easy to shift the blame onto yourself and to belittle your accomplishments, because it "easier". you need to adjust how you talk to yourself; give yourself credit where it's due, allow yourself the time to continually grow into the person that you are. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. ⁠feel free to join the community.⁠

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. some days you might just drift away; you lose yourself piece by piece as the weight of the world seems to crush you. memories go missing, friendships get hard to maintain, bad habits start to build up slowly but surely. there's no shame in admitting your faults, there's no shame in asking the people around you to keep you up when you feel like you're drowning. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. it's hard to keep your motivation burning all the time. some days, you'd rather just do anything but what keeps you alive. occasionally, it turns into more than just a couple of days. i've been stuck in this feeling for a while. i run away from everything that i love, and i'm tired of doing so. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. we all make mistakes, we are all holding onto a pile of thoughts that we just wish we could get out, whether it be for closure, or so someone close to you knows what's going on. i got a lot of skeletons in my closet, frustration in my heart, and a lot of poison in my veins. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. the future is a scary place at times. a place full of uncertainty. there's moments where you don't know exactly might be ahead of you, and the people around you might only contribute negatively towards that feeling. as long as you know what you want to reach for, put full confidence into yourself, and run for it. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. there's so many things in life to explore, to watch, to learn, to love. it's impossible to truly learn everything, so most people dedicate themselves to one interest. some others, myself included, have tried to be in the middle of everything at once, being left quite drained and confused. having focus and drive is important, if not considered necessary. you don't have to be everything for everyone. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. life is one mystery constantly filled with trials and tribulations. as visions of the future turn darker and darker, it's no surprise that some people turn to substances as a form of escapism. myself included in those who looked anywhere but in the right places to deal with my emotions. it's not a correct way to live life. one would argue you aren't truly living, trying to run into a world of false realities. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

one of those moments in life where thoughts aren't really compiled properly. it's good to just let it all out at times, to let the contents of your brain just spill out. better out than in, it's a snowball anyway. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

we all float away in our minds from time to time. our environments, other people, and even our own image of ourselves, disrupted and warped. in these times, we must stare hard into the concrete state of the world. re-familiarize ourselves with our surroundings, blocking out the way your brain tries to play tricks on you. everything is okay. take the time to breathe. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

seeing how much space is ahead of you is reasonably discomforting. there's moments where we doubt our capabilities, but you shouldn't. we worry about perfection, not fully understanding that nothing is perfect. the closest we have to perfection, is doing our best, every chance we get. we climb higher, and higher, each and every day. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

don't feel ashamed to be who you are. don't rush into a label, and not everyone has to know who you are. but be confident in yourself; you are not any less for it. happy pride. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

there's a delicate balance between changing yourself to be better for someone, and not losing yourself in the process. it's necessary to progress, but you don't want to fall. be yourself. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

tell your friends that you love them. spend time with those that you care for. don't let the darkness of life cloud the light in your heart. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

It is absurd to tell yourself it only gets worse. It is absurd to tell yourself it only gets better. Pleasure only exists because of pain, and vice versa. Waiting out the pain, only leads to more pleasure. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

You know what needs to be done, but yet you don't do it. Why is that? Could it be that you're busy with other things, or is it a lack of motivation despite not doing anything else? Procrastination and lack of motivation takes a massive grasp on life itself, and without some fighting, it's always going to hold you. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

There's always been this barren landscape in my head. I look around at the people right next to me, yet it feels as if we're so far apart. I am isolated to the confines of my thoughts, and my own head. In there, it's quiet. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

The future seems to be a cold and harsh place to wonder into. It's constantly in front of you, yet consistently trudging through it, the fog seemingly never clears. I'm scared of what lies through the haze, yet I can't let myself stop my journey. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. Welcome to the "Only Rainy Days" podcast. feel free to join the community.

A lot of moments where my own mind is my biggest problem. A lot of moments where I hurt the people closest to me when "I didn't mean to." I need to change, and I'm going to figure out how to. I owe it to myself and everyone else. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. feel free to join the community.

"Hey younger me, it's hazy. I know it's been some time since we last spoke, and I know that it feels like there's a lot of distance in between us, but I want you to know that I still think about you daily, and I hope that you continue to grow up into the person you're meant to be. I know this might all fall on deaf ears, but I left you a message if you ever want to hear it, and I think you should. Love you." TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. feel free to join the community.

what makes you, you? what are you confident in? what do you want to change? do you truly understand everything? TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. feel free to join the community.

"friends" come and go, but who really are your friends? learn the differences between peers and friends, and keep your eye out to see who really has your best interests in heart. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. feel free to join the community.

what does it truly mean to be "staying strong"? does it mean never addressing your feelings and acting as if you're okay? that's not human at all; we need our moments to address our thoughts before they snowball, but there's a proper balance to it. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse. feel free to join the community.

Sometimes we get into situations without doing anything. But we can persevere through it. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse.

At your lowest moments, it's better to stop moving instead of moving backwards. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse.

The boundaries and expectations people place on you, don't make you less of a person. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse.

Welcome to the first episode of the "Only Rainy Days" podcast, a place all about mental health (advocacy). There's more to living than just living, but figuring out why you're living, and how to get to that answer. TW: depression, suicide, anxiety, substance abuse.

This is the "Only Rainy Days" Podcast, and I hope you enjoy it. A lot of talking and mental conflict has led up to this point, but I just needed something to upload as a starter. First episode very soon, and I hope you enjoy the ride. Make sure to join the "Only Rainy Days" Official Discord.