Songwriter Diaries

I need you nowIt’s a dark time and I don’t know where to goAm I meant to stay this way forever?Lord, You’re the only one who knows and I am yoursIn this moment I surrender My worst anxieties, impossibilities They feel like ordinary daysThe stories in my mind, unruly and unkindI just can’t make them go away Too many hours, too many daysFeeling hopeless and broken, lost and afraidOh, teach me to be just a little more brave‘Cause I don’t know if I can face, another ordinary day I need you nowIt’s a sad time and I don’t know what to doAm I meant to be this way forever?You, are the only one to show me what is trueSo I will surrender All the worst parts of me, the pain and miseryThey feel like ordinary daysThe stories in my head that hurt me to no endHow can I make them go away?Too many hours, too many daysFeeling hopeless and broken, lost and afraidOh, teach me to be just a little more brave‘Cause I don’t know if I can face, another ordinary day © 2023 Songwriter Diaries 

Sometimes the dreaming’s all I ever doSometimes I fall asleep and dream of dreaming tooMy heart is open and my spirit freeStill I’m not where I want to beI’m spending days with my head in the cloudsI’m walking circles and I get lost in the crowdI can’t believe all of the time that’s goneStill I’m not where I belong Once I gave it all to have it allI used to be more than just a dreamerMore than just a dreamerIt’s time to pick myself up from the fallI want to be more than just a dreamerMore than just a dreamerHead in the cloudsHelp me find a way out Sometimes I cry for all the things I’ve missedSometimes I wonder why it all has come to thisBut I know there’s a reason for these tearsA reason why I’m still hereI’ve lived in shadows for the past few yearsDreaming in secret in the company of fears (though accompanied by fear)But something’s calling that I can’t ignoreSomething good my life is for Once I gave it all to have it allI used to be more than just a dreamerMore than just a dreamerIt’s time to pick myself up from the fallI want to be more than just a dreamerMore than just a dreamerHead in the cloudsHelp me find a way outHelp me find a way out Once I gave it all to have it allI used to be more than just a dreamerMore than just a dreamerIt’s time to pick myself up from the fallI want to be more than just a dreamer © 2023 Songwriter Diaries

There are some days I can’t wakeProblems that I can’t faceShame about the mistakes, that I’ve made There are some nights I can’t sleepWorries keeping me weakAnd I find it hard to believe in me But it can take just one blessed minuteTo suddenly be overcomeI can’t put into words the way that it feels, To discover your love Every time I am aloneI think about life on my ownTroubled by everything I still don’t know Every time I am afraidWorried ‘bout things I can’t changeI pray that I will be okay, someday And it can take just one blessed minuteTo suddenly be overcomeI can’t put into words the way that it feels, To discover your love  You say all things in life have beauty in their own time You say you’re here with me in darkness and in the lightAnd if I only set my sights aboveIt can take just one blessed minuteTo suddenly be overcomeNothing can replace this feelingKnowing that you are the oneYou’ve given me a heart worth beatingSo into your arms I will runI can’t put into words the way that it feels, To discover your love   © 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I’m still underneath the coversPutting out the flames thatSting and burn my skinI’m still hiding in the shadowsFighting off the ghosts who’veHaunted their way inBut somehow in these trials and despite these tear-stained cheeks,I feel like dancing now I feel you here with me So I will dance, I will singAnd I will find a way through everythingI won’t give in, I won’t give upI’ll still believe in all I’m dreaming ofWith you somehow I can, so I will dance I still worry for tomorrowAll the things I don’t knowWhat the future brings I still overthink the detailsTrying hard to escapeAll the fear within But somehow in these moments and despite what leaves me weak,I feel like dancing when you’re dancing next to me So I will dance, I will singAnd I will find a way through everythingI won’t give in, I won’t give upI’ll still believe in all I’m dreaming ofWith you somehow I can, so I will dance  With you somehow I can, so I will dance  © 2023 Songwriter Diaries

Here I go again, all the thoughts within, circling my headI can’t seem to win, fighting off this sin, finding ways to mendEven in my praying I am contemplatingAll the ways I worry and I fault What will it take?What is the cure?What do I live this misery for?How will I learn?How do I heal?How can I bear the pain that I feel?God if you’re listening to meHelp me be still I seem to lose my days in a messed up haze, I can take no moreI’m without a sword and without a shield in this internal war Even in believing, I am lost and grievingWho I was before this took its toll What will it take?What is the cure?What do I live this misery for?How will I learn?How do I heal?How can I bear the pain that I feel?God if you’re listening to meHelp me be still I might not be alone but I sure am feeling lonelyHow could you love someone like me?I’m scared of being like thisI’m scared of being trapped inAll of the weaknesses you seeGod, I am listening What will it take?What is the cure?What do I live this misery for?How will I learn?How do I heal?How can I bear the pain that I feel?God if you’re listening to meOh are you listening to me?You’re my only remedyHelp me be stillHelp me be stillHelp me be still© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I believed I had it figured outThen thieves in the night comeSlowly as the mornings get me downNever a moment is right I thought there were boundaries Lines uncrossed and sacred spaceBut you have a hold on meAnd I can’t seem to break awayI’ve never been rebellious I’ve barely even told a lieNow I’m feeling jealousOf the ones who aren’t afraid to tryIt’s like I haven’t grown upTrapped inside a box ofRules I followed as a childJust when I think that it’s my timeCome thieves in the night  I believed I made most of my timeBut I watch the time fly Wasted days they make me want to cryI’m hardly getting by I thought there were boundaries Ties undone and rules to bend You still have a hold on meAnd I don’t know when it will endI’ve never been rebellious I’ve barely even told a lieNow I’m feeling jealousOf the ones who aren’t afraid to tryIt’s like I haven’t grown upTrapped inside a box ofRules I followed as a childJust when I think that it’s my timeCome thieves in the night  Thieves in the night, night, nightThieves in the nightThieves in the night, night, night I know I’ve been mostly luckyAnd I have all that I need But I just can’t break free from all the power you have on meAnd you don’t even seeDon’t you see? I’ve never been rebellious I’ve barely even told a lieNow I’m feeling jealousOf the ones who aren’t afraid to tryIt’s like I haven’t grown upTrapped inside a box ofRules I followed as a childI’ve never been rebellious I’ve barely even told a lieNow I’m feeling jealousOf the ones who aren’t afraid to tryIt’s like I haven’t grown upTrapped inside a box ofRules I followed as a childJust when I think that it’s my timeCome thieves in the night  Oh you’re a thief in the nightThieves in the nightYou’re a thief in the night© 2023 Songwriter Diaries

I think about life beforeI think about all the times I’d wonNever running out of moreNever running out of loveI might have been self-assuredA little naive in all the funSitting pretty on the top of it all Now there is silenceNow that I’m hurtingI’m flooded with all the memoriesIs it a breakdown?Is it a breakthrough?Towards the woman I’m meant to be I’m still afraid and in this melodyI’m trying to make a change that’s good for meI, don’t know where this will leadRight now I’m so far from sitting prettyI find myself insecureI find myself comfortable to hideAlways being oh so cautiousAnxious, always tiredHow is that I’m so unsure?So unlike the girl I used to know?Sitting pretty on the top of it allNow that I’m olderNow the world’s changingI’m holding onto the memoriesIs it a breakdown?Is it a breakthrough?Towards the life that I’m meant to lead I’m still afraid and in this melodyI’m trying to make a change that’s good for meI, don’t know where this will leadRight now I’m so far from sitting pretty I think about life beforeI think about all the times I’d wonNever running out of moreNever running out of loveI wanna be self-assuredA little more brave in all the funSitting pretty on the top of it all(Though) I’m still afraid, I have this melodyThat’s helping me make a change that’s good for meI, don’t know where this will lead I don’t know where this will leadI don’t know where this will leadBut I’ve heard of a land so prettySomewhere I could be© 2023 Songwriter Diaries