HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

In Episode 86 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true pioneer of modern fisting culture — Jeff Carter, also known as Dyn0, co-founder of StudFist.com. What starts as a long-overdue reunion quickly turns into something deeper: a candid conversation about growth, accountability, and the evolution of an entire subculture. Ryan opens with a heartfelt acknowledgment of their past, setting the tone for an episode rooted in honesty and mutual respect.Jeff takes listeners back to the early days of StudFist in San Francisco — from accidental cam room success to building one of the most influential platforms in the space. Together, they unpack how authenticity, “fly-on-the-wall” realism, and a refusal to follow industry norms helped reshape what fisting content could be.The conversation expands into the broader evolution of the scene — normalization, technology, generational shifts, and the rise of creator-driven platforms like StudFist.fans. Jeff offers rare insight into sustaining a niche brand for nearly two decades while staying true to its original spirit.They close on something real: aging in the industry, relationships within it, and the importance of having a plan beyond it. It’s raw, reflective, and unexpectedly heartfelt — a full-circle moment between two creators who helped define the culture from different angles.

art two picks up right where we left off with Chris Wydeman — and this time, we go deeper, looser, and way more unfiltered.Ryan and Chris dive into how the scene has evolved from underground and niche to something far more visible and accessible, especially among younger generations. They reflect on the shift in culture, the changing dynamics at events like FistFest and IML, and what it feels like to now be the “veterans” that others look up to.The conversation gets personal as they unpack the realities of sex work — the toll it can take, the blurred lines between performance and authenticity, and what it means to reclaim intimacy outside of the camera. Chris opens up about stepping away from the industry, while Ryan reflects on the challenge of separating HungerFF from his real identity.They also confront heavier topics: addiction, trust, and how substance use can distort connection, both emotionally and physically. There’s honesty here about mistakes, broken trust, and what it takes to rebuild meaningful relationships — including a heartfelt moment of reconciliation between the two.And because it’s Brolapse, it wouldn’t be complete without some absolute chaos: wild party stories, unexpected moments, and the kind of absurdity that only exists in this world.At its core, this episode is about connection — the kind that goes beyond the surface. Brotherhood, boundaries, forgiveness, and finding balance in a life that’s anything but ordinary.🎧 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM.🎥 Full video available on HungerFF.com🔥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers

Episode 84 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse is here—and this one goes all the way back to the beginning.In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, Ryan James sits down with longtime friend and collaborator Chris Wydeman (@wydemanxxx) to unpack the origin story behind one of the most respected names in the scene. What starts as a conversation about curiosity and self-exploration quickly evolves into something deeper—touching on connection, discipline, and the mindset that separates experience from intention.Chris opens up about discovering everything on his own at 18, long before he even had a name for it, and how that journey led him into community, mentorship, and a more methodical, almost spiritual approach. Together, Ryan and Chris reflect on their early experiences, the evolution of the culture, and what’s been lost—and gained—as things have shifted toward a more content-driven world.They also get into:• The difference between exploration and performance• Why slowing down can take you further• The importance of intuition, trust, and safety• How practice, patience, and awareness shape real growth• The balance between physical and psychological connectionThis is a conversation built on years of shared history, mutual respect, and lived experience—and it sets the stage for an even deeper dive in Part 2.🎧 Listen & Subscribe:Spotify:https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseApple Podcasts:https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible:https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio:https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🎥 Want more?Spotify subscribers get early video access + exclusive weekly drops of Deeper: The Audiobook Series every Wednesday.📖 DEEPER: Anti MemoirGrab your copy: https://www.hungerff.com/deeperSigned & numbered editions: https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions👕 Merch – FFamous & Rich Tee:https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/ffamous-and-rich/🎶 HungerFF Sound Initiative (New music every Friday):https://www.hungerff.com/spotifyThis is just Part 1… and we’re only getting started.👉 Like, follow, subscribe, and if you’ve been enjoying the show, leave a review—it goes a long way.

This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of my longest-time friends, FFalconPunch, for a conversation that goes way beyond where it all started.We get into his origin story — from a spontaneous first experience that changed everything, to the unexpected moment he landed on the name “FFalconPunch” and how it stuck. What starts off funny and chaotic quickly turns into something deeper: a look at identity, growth, and how we find ourselves in spaces we never expected to belong to.We also talk about how the scene has evolved over time — moving away from ego and hierarchy toward something more inclusive, more connected, and more rooted in shared experience. It’s about community, learning from each other, and understanding that the people and moments you don’t expect can end up shaping you the most.This is Part 1 of a much bigger conversation — and trust me, we’re just getting started.🎧 Listen now and follow Brolapse for Part 2.

Max Muscles joins Brolapse for an honest, funny, and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about how curiosity turns into confidence—and how pushing limits isn’t always what you think it is.What starts as a simple story about a weekend hookup quickly becomes something more. Max walks through his first experience, how it shaped his perspective, and how that moment opened the door to a whole new side of himself. From there, we dive into his evolution—from shy and private to confidently creating and sharing content with a growing audience.We also explore the connection between bodybuilding and personal progression. The same mindset that drives growth in the gym shows up in other areas too—but as Max shares, it’s not always about going bigger or further. Sometimes the real lesson is learning to slow down, stay present, and actually enjoy the experience.Along the way, we get into everything from collaborations and creative setups to the realities behind preparation, discipline, and consistency. It’s a mix of humor, honesty, and real insight into what it takes to grow—not just physically, but mentally.If you’ve ever been curious about how people evolve, push boundaries, and find their lane while staying grounded, this episode delivers.🎧 New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8 PM🎥 Video episodes available on Spotify with early access for subscribers

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true icon — Chi Chi LaRue — for a conversation that spans four decades of gay porn history, creative evolution, and what it really means to stay relevant in an industry that never stops changing.After stepping away from directing, Chi Chi returns behind the camera for the first time in years — and opens up about why the set has always been her “happy place.” From her early days in the 1980s working under pioneers like William Higgins to becoming one of the most influential directors in adult film, she reflects on the eras she helped shape — and the ones she helped redefine.The episode dives deep into the evolution of performer safety, from the height of the AIDS crisis to today’s testing culture, as well as the dramatic shift from structured studio systems to creator-driven platforms. Chi Chi shares her perspective on how the rise of OnlyFans-style content has disrupted the industry — and what’s been lost along the way.Ryan and Chi Chi also get into the art of directing itself — especially when it comes to capturing acts and fetishes outside your personal experience. For Chi Chi, it’s never been about personal preference — it’s about the visual, the chemistry, and knowing when to step back and let performers create something real.Along the way, the conversation blends humor, chaos, and honesty — from wild on-set stories and unforgettable shoots to sobriety, survival, and the reality of building (and rebuilding) a life in this industry.This isn’t just a conversation — it’s a rare look at the past, present, and future of porn, through the eyes of someone who helped define it.🎧 Spotify:https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse🍏 Apple Podcasts:https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible:https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio:https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🎬 Spotify subscribers get early video access + weekly bonus episodes of Deeper: The Audiobook (new chapters every Wednesday)📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir:https://www.hungerff.com/deeper📚 Signed & Numbered Editions:https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions🎶 New music every Friday — HungerFF Sound Initiative:https://www.hungerff.com/spotify🎧 LISTEN NOW:

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect.What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for him, it unlocked something real.The two dive into how access to better tools, patience, and consistency completely changed Pete’s experience, and why so many people get it wrong in the beginning. There’s a candid discussion about ego, pretending to be more experienced than you are, and why that mindset can backfire fast.They also get into the mental side of it all—body confidence, putting yourself out there, and how content creation became a way for Pete to take control of how he saw himself. Losing over 80 pounds wasn’t just physical—it was the start of a bigger transformation.Plus: chaotic toy sessions, the reality of editing burnout, wild event stories from Europe, and why chemistry and trust matter more than anything else. Whether you’re experienced or just curious, this episode is packed with real insight, humor, and a lot of “yeah… we’ve all been there” moments.New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8PM. Spotify subscribers get early video access.

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Sofftpaw for a conversation that goes far beyond a typical guest interview.Sofftpaw is the founder of the Fist Council — a nationwide forum made up of leaders from over 35 fisting clubs and organizations. What started as a simple idea—connecting event organizers—has evolved into a powerful network focused on collaboration, education, and building safer, more sustainable spaces for the community.The episode begins with Sofftpaw’s personal journey into fisting, from a post-pandemic “guilty pleasure” to a defining part of his life. With guidance from mentors he calls his “fisting dads,” he developed a structured, methodical approach rooted in anatomy, training, and intention—something he believes many newcomers are missing.From there, the conversation expands into how the Fist Council was formed: not as a “shadowy organization,” but as a grassroots collaboration between organizers who wanted to share knowledge instead of compete. Together, they exchange best practices, support new club founders, and work toward creating consistent standards for safety, consent, and event production across cities.Ryan and Sofftpaw also dive into the evolution of the modern fisting scene—from the post-COVID boom in participation to the growing visibility of fisting within larger kink spaces like IML. They explore the diversity of club models, the importance of community, and how chosen family often emerges from shared experience.The episode closes on a deeper note, examining how kink intersects with mental health, neurodivergence, rejection sensitivity, and personal growth. At its core, this conversation isn’t just about fisting—it’s about belonging, connection, and what happens when a community learns how to build itself from the inside out.🎙️ A thoughtful, funny, and unexpectedly emotional episode that captures a pivotal moment in the evolution of the scene.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Belgian creator Pup Davey for one of the most wide-ranging and honest conversations the show has had yet.Davey opens up about discovering fisting long before he ever saw it in porn, experimenting as a teenager and realizing early that anal stretching and depth play were going to be a major part of his sexual identity. Puppy play came later through Tumblr’s aesthetic kink culture, where a cheap hood from Amazon eventually led to a full-blown pup identity.The conversation explores the psychology behind kink discovery, how identity evolves through community, and the role aesthetic and headspace play in puppy culture.Davey also talks openly about his gender journey and describes himself as a “hyper femboy”, sharing what it’s been like to explore gender fluidity and start estrogen while navigating a large audience in adult content.Other topics include:• The difference between instinctual kink discovery and community-driven kink culture• How exposure fetish content once became addictive and the real consequences it caused• Toy training, depth play, and how limits evolve over time• The reality of maintaining a massive online audience• The changing dynamics of kink events like Darklands• Balancing authenticity, humor, filth, and vulnerability onlineIt’s a conversation that moves between hilarious, chaotic, thoughtful, and deeply human moments.As always, Brolapse aims to humanize the performers people obsess over online and show the real lives behind the content.⸻👤 Follow Pup DaveyAll Linkshttps://allmylinks.com/puppydaveyX (Twitter)https://x.com/PupperDaveyBlueSkyhttps://puppydavey.bsky.social⸻🎧 Listen to BrolapseSpotifyhttps://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseApple Podcastshttps://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon Music & Audiblehttps://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadiohttps://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8PM🔥 Full uncensored video available athttps://HungerFF.comSpotify subscribers also receive early video access and weekly updates from the Deeper Audiobook series every Wednesday.⸻📚 Order Deeper: Anti Memoirhttps://www.hungerff.com/deeperSigned & Numbered Hardcover Editionshttps://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions⸻👕 HungerWear MerchRyan is wearing the “Meet Me in the Bathroom” tee in this episode.Grab it here:https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/meet-me-in-the-bathroom⸻🎵 HungerFF Sound InitiativeNew music drops every Friday across all streaming platforms.Explore the catalog here:https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

In Episode 77 of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting.What starts as a conversation about a viral scene with Wyld Rider quickly turns into something deeper. Grayson opens up about his past working as an LGBTQ addiction counselor, the burnout that came with that career, and the moment he decided to finally take a leap and start posting adult content online.Along the way, the two discuss body confidence, therapy, and how the bear community helped Grayson find a new sense of self. He also shares how experienced friends in Minneapolis guided him through his first fisting experience, turning what started as curiosity into a passion.The conversation explores Chicago’s massive fetish ecosystem, long-running kink communities, IML, the rise of fisting culture in modern porn, and why mentorship and trust are central to the scene.Grayson also breaks down his philosophy as a soft dom fisting top, including why training partners slowly, prioritizing chemistry, and emphasizing aftercare makes for the best experiences.The result is an episode that is funny, thoughtful, and unexpectedly wholesome for a podcast about punching holes.X (Twitter):https://x.com/pupgraysonBlueSky:https://sweddybear.bsky.socialInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/muleferdanLinktree (OnlyFans, JustForFans, etc):https://linktr.ee/sweddybearSpotifyhttps://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseApple Podcastshttps://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon Music & Audiblehttps://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadiohttps://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8PM🔥 Full video episodes available exclusively athttps://HungerFF.comSpotify subscribers also get early video access as soon as editing is finished.Order now:https://www.hungerff.com/deeper💎 Limited edition hardcover covers (still available):https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editionsRyan is wearing the “Fisting Jesus: Sacred Sleaze Edition” tee in this episode.Grab it here:https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/fisting-jesus-sacred-sleaze-editionRyan James is also releasing new music every week through the HungerFF Sound Initiative.Listen here:https://www.hungerff.com/music🎙️ Brolapse is a podcast exploring sex, identity, kink culture, and the people shaping the community from the inside out.

In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael, for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love.Josh shares his fisting origin story—one that began earlier than most—and reflects on it now with the clarity that only time and experience can bring. What starts as a wild, chaotic introduction quickly evolves into a broader conversation about consent, growth, and the reality that not every formative experience is meant to be repeated.The two revisit the night they first met at a Leatherworks Red Hanky social in Fort Lauderdale, a moment that would lead to a lasting bond, a blown-out set of tires, and a friendship built through shared experiences, tension, and ultimately, understanding.The heart of the episode centers on Deeper—Ryan’s memoir—and Josh’s decision to write the foreword. He explains why he felt it had to be him: someone who has loved Ryan, challenged him, called him out, and never wanted anything from him in return. The result is a foreword that doesn’t protect, doesn’t condemn, but instead tells the truth.Together, they unpack addiction, the ripple effects it has on the people around you, and the complicated reality of loving someone who is struggling. They also dive into content culture, performer value, and why Josh drew a hard line when others didn’t—refusing to give away his image for free in an industry that often expects it.This episode is funny, painful, reflective, and honest in a way that’s rare. It’s about friendship, accountability, survival—and the idea that telling your story might be the first step toward understanding it.📖 Pre-order Deeper: http://www.hungerff.com/deeper🔥 Signed & Numbered Hardcover Editions AVAILABLE NOW — EXCLUSIVELY on HungerFF.comOnly 30 copies per cover — expected to sell out fast👕 Shop the shirt from this episode:https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/alpha-bottom-energy-power-pride-pleasure🎧 LISTEN NOW (Spotify — Early Video Access):https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse📻 iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes every Friday at 8 PM

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution.Ian opens up about his fisting origin story — from early curiosity and pushing his limits, to training his body and discovering what he was truly capable of over time. What starts as a pursuit quickly becomes something deeper: a journey rooted in patience, self-awareness, and learning to listen instead of force.The conversation expands into body confidence, growth, and the reality behind what people see online. Ian reflects on stepping away from the industry during COVID, reconnecting with family, and how that time away reshaped his perspective on health, boundaries, and longevity.They also dive into collaboration, chemistry, and authenticity in content creation — why chasing numbers doesn’t compare to real connection, and how trusting your instincts can define your path both on and off camera.This episode is about evolution — not just physically, but mentally and emotionally — and what it really means to grow into yourself.🎧 Listen now: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse

In Episode 74 of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with ⁠John Thomas⁠ for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn.John opens up about his fisting origin story, growing up with religion, guilt, and desire colliding early, and how kink evolved from curiosity into identity. From London sex clubs to navigating HIV, relationships, and self-acceptance, his journey is deeply personal—and unexpectedly relatable.But this episode doesn’t stop at the origin story.The two dive into the reality behind extreme content: the difference between performance and pleasure, why group dynamics can shift intimacy into spectacle, and how constant content creation is changing the industry itself. John speaks candidly about burnout, authenticity, and why making fewer—but more meaningful—scenes matters.One of the most powerful moments comes when the conversation turns to responsibility. In a world where porn is often used as education, John reflects on the importance of context, honesty, and showing real pleasure instead of pain or performance.This is a thoughtful, self-aware, and deeply human episode about identity, boundaries, influence, and what it actually means to live inside the body everyone is watching.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself.Wyld opens up about his journey from a quiet corporate life to embracing his deviant side online, how fitness and self-acceptance became the gateway to content creation, and why piggish desire was always there—just waiting for permission to surface. Together, they unpack how fisting moved from fantasy to reality, why trust and intimacy matter so deeply in kink, and how submission can be an act of empowerment rather than erasure.The conversation also explores authenticity in an oversaturated content landscape, navigating relationships while being publicly sexual, and the importance of genuine connection—both on camera and off. Wyld shares how his dynamic with Brogan helped shape his confidence as a creator, and why staying true to what actually turns you on is the key to longevity.It’s an episode about growth, honesty, and choosing depth over performance—inside and out.

Episode 72 completes the two-part HungerFF Sound Initiative.Following last week’s introduction, Part Two leans fully into execution, featuring four complete track drops that expand the project’s sound, humor, and erotic logic. Recorded as an audio-only episode, this installment blends commentary with music, allowing each track to stand on its own while remaining part of a larger arc.This episode includes “Schlop Schlop,” “I Cleaned Out for This,” “Assgasm,” and “Built to Fist.” Together, the tracks move from playful and visceral to hypnotic and industrial—exploring the sounds of fisting, shared community tropes, the pursuit of anal orgasm, and the fantasy of the perfect fister as something engineered rather than accidental.With Part Two, the Sound Initiative shifts from concept to payoff. Next week, Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

In Episode 71, HungerFF steps away from traditional interviews and introduces a new music-driven project that blends kink, humor, masculinity, and AI-assisted production. Recorded as an audio-only episode, Part One features full track drops and commentary, giving listeners a guided introduction to the Sound Initiative and the creative mindset behind it.The episode includes complete plays of “Fisting in the Moonlight,” “All Men Love Rosebuds,” and “Cunt,” along with a preview of the upcoming industrial EDM track “Obsessive Fisting Disorder.” Spanning genres from country and 1950s swing to warehouse EDM, the project explores fisting culture through unexpected musical styles—leaning into contrast, camp, and unapologetic masculinity.Part Two arrives next week with additional tracks before Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

Some episodes are fun. Some are loud. And then there are the rare ones that feel like a real conversation you’re lucky to witness.In Episode 70, Rocco Steele joins me for an honest, reflective talk about stepping away from the industry and what it means to finally let a public persona become a smaller and smaller piece of your life. Rocco shares how a serious health scare shifted his priorities, how his husband showed up for him in a way that reaffirmed everything, and why he’s been planning a gradual exit for the last couple of years. Not out of bitterness, not out of shame, but out of clarity.We get into the unseen work behind being “on” all the time. The toll of appearances. The burnout. The pressure to keep up with an online machine that never stops. Rocco breaks down the boundaries that mattered most to him, especially protecting his sobriety and his marriage, and what it feels like to move through the world when people recognize you in places where you’re just trying to be a person.This conversation also goes deeper into chosen family, grief, and aging as a gay man. Rocco talks about coming out in the 80s, the losses that shaped his generation, and how getting older has changed what he values, what he gives his energy to, and what “grace” looks like in real life. We talk about the mental health cost of growing up online, and the quiet reckoning that hits when you’re trying to untangle your public self from your private self.And yes, we revisit a full-circle moment from early HungerFF.com history, including why Rocco said yes to filming his first and only fisting scene and what that trust represented at the time.This one is about legacy, integrity, and what happens when you stop performing and start living.New episodes every Friday at 8 PM.Pre-order Deeper (drops March 1, 2026): https://www.hungerFF.com/deeper

For Episode 69 of Brolapse, Ryan James does something different.Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper—his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version. Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words, followed by the first chapter, Impact, giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions.Deeper is not a traditional memoir. It rejects clean arcs and easy redemption in favor of fragments, contradictions, and lived texture. These opening chapters explore survival, addiction, performance, porn, identity, and the cost of turning pain into currency in the age of algorithms—without smoothing edges or offering answers that don’t exist.Starting in March 2026, the Deeper audiobook will be released chapter by chapter as bonus episodes for Spotify subscribers, before eventually becoming available in full on Audible. If you’ve ever wondered what it sounds like when someone tells their story without a safety net, this is where it begins.Pre-order the book now at https://HungerFF.com/DeeperNew episodes of Brolapse drop Fridays at 8 PM.

In Episode 68 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough.Brogan shares his unconventional journey into fisting, from spending years unsuccessfully trying to bottom, to discovering that topping opened an entirely new sexual and psychological path for him. Together, they unpack how intuition, responsibility, communication, and consent shape truly connected sex—especially in practices that are often misunderstood or sensationalized.The conversation dives into authenticity in content creation, burnout from performing what you think audiences want, and the freedom that comes from returning to sex that feels real. Brogan reflects on why fisting can be one of the most romantic and intimate sex acts he engages in, why cameras can sometimes disrupt that connection, and how presence matters more than performance.They also explore training versus play, the dangers of inexperience masquerading as confidence, how the fisting scene has evolved post-COVID, and why normalization is powerful—but still requires care, accountability, and listening. From bratty bottoms to aftercare, from live events to private sessions, this episode is about slowing down, checking in, and making sure every moment is a genuine “fuck yes.”This is a conversation about sex—but also about growth, trust, and what it means to truly take care of someone when you’re the one “driving the car.”🎙️ HUNGERFF PRESENTS: BROLAPSENew episodes drop Fridays at 8 PMEarly video access for Spotify subscribers🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseApple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon Music: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273📖 DEEPER — Ryan’s memoir is available for preorder now:https://HungerFF.com/Deeper👕 HungerWear — “Exactly What I Am” Tee:https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/exactly-what-i-am-glitter-grit-edition

It’s the very first Brolapse Holiday Special 🎁 — and we’re flipping the script.Inspired by the UK tradition of Boxing Day (a day rooted in role reversal), Dolan Wolf returns—this time as guest host—and puts me in the hot seat 😅🎙️We get into the real stuff and the fun stuff:✨ what the holidays mean to us (and what we can’t stand)🍽️ favorite holiday foods + gift/collectible obsessions🐶 what a “non-sexual day” actually looks like when your brand is HungerFF🧠 burnout, work-life balance, and learning to take the “latex vest” off📘 Deeper — what I learned writing my autobiography, why it was the most cathartic thing I’ve ever done, and the advice I’d give my younger self👊 plus… classic Brolapse detours into pop culture, guilty pleasures, and unexpected questions that hit hardIf you’ve ever felt like you have to be “on” all the time… this one’s for you. 🖤📘 Pre-order Deeper: https://HungerFF.com/Deeper🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

HungerFF reconnects with Alex FFire, a professional fisting top and content creator, for a candid catch-up that covers how Alex first got into fisting, why reassurance and praise are central to his “body worship” style, and what it means to be a rare fisting top in today’s scene.They dig into identity (poly, non-binary), navigating frail masculinity, and the generational shift around filming sex, shame, and power. Alex also talks FistFest nerves vs. comfort, finding the right kind of play partners, and how he approaches safer sex in 2025 — including PrEP and DoxyPEP — while staying unapologetically slutty.🕗 New episodes drop Friday nights at 8 PM🎥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers🔥 Full video available on HungerFF.com

Ryan James is in Fort Lauderdale, bringing in a guest from Mexico City for a Brolapse episode that turns into a full-on “wait… WHAT?” moment.Masked FisterX reveals that his first-ever fisting session was with HungerFF—after a Grindr message in Puerto Vallarta—where Ryan literally gave him the starter instructions (“go file your nails” 💀) and helped set the tone for how he’d approach fisting content from that moment forward. The wild part? The mask didn’t even exist yet.From there, we get the real behind-the-scenes evolution: how he went from unsure and inexperienced, to finding his balance between “too rough” and “too soft,” learning to read partners, build a dominant persona, and still keep the foundation where it belongs: communication, consent, and checking in—even on camera.We also get into how he vets potential collaborators (and why he won’t do endless DMs), what makes a partner “ready,” how power exchange actually works when it’s consensual, why he prefers full-session context over short clips, and why he avoids the chems-first culture even while navigating scenes where it’s common.It’s funny, weirdly wholesome, and honestly kind of mind-blowing: the before and after of a persona that went on to become a whole brand—plus a reminder that the hottest sessions aren’t just “pound town”… they’re the ones where people actually talk. 👊💦🖤🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse📻 iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM (Spotify gets early access)

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Andrew Phoenix (@AndrewFFoeniXXX) for a raw, funny, and deeply honest conversation about finding himself through sobriety, kink, and community.Andrew opens up about being raised religious, getting bullied, and having early partners shame him for loving fisting — only to discover, in 2018, a community where he finally felt accepted exactly as he was. He talks about how sobriety reshaped the way he plays, how being fully present made his connections richer, and why the fisting world feels more like family than a fetish.We dive into the culture outsiders don’t understand, the friendships forged over gloves and laughter, and why fisting isn’t “weird” — it’s meaningful, bonding, and sometimes downright hysterical. Andrew also shares why the Andrew you see in videos isn’t a persona at all… it’s actually the truest version of himself.A mix of heart, humor, filth, and honesty — this episode goes deep in every way possible.Follow Andrew:🐦 X: @AndrewFFoeniXXX💙 BlueSky: @AndrewFFoeniXXX.bsky.socialNew episodes drop Fridays at 8 PM. Early video access available on Spotify.

In this episode of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with BottomGuyNYC—NYC bar manager, shameless fister, and proud red-hanky flagger—to talk about why, for him, fisting isn’t sex… it’s a sport.They dig into what it means to “train” for play, why a hand in someone can feel less intimate than dick-and-butt sex, and how he balances a 21-year open relationship where his husband is his emotional home—but the kink happens elsewhere.From nervously sitting in the car before his first Fist Fest to organizing fisting meetups on Atlantis cruises and Telegram, BottomGuyNYC breaks down the bond between fisters, the power of living openly at work, and how mentorship in kink still survives in the age of algorithms.If you’ve ever felt “weird” for how you experience sex, intimacy, or kink, this conversation might make you feel a little less alone.In this episode:Fisting as a sport vs. “real” sexNavigating an open relationship after 20+ years togetherFlagging red at work and stripping away shameFist Fest as the “Olympics” and family reunion of kinkTelegram, cruises, and building offline community in an online worldMentorship, safety, and why only showing the extreme 45 seconds can be dangerousFollow BottomGuyNYC:X (Twitter): @bottomguynycBlueSky: @BottomGuyNYCJustFor.Fans: https://justfor. fans/bottomguynyc1🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIaSpotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseApple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM.🎥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers.🔥 Full video available exclusively on https://HungerFF. com 🔥

Manchester’s own Jake Rockard joins Brolapse for a raw and revealing conversation about fisting, chems, workaholism, and the underground networks that shape the UK kink landscape. Jake opens up about discovering fisting young, how early experimentation shaped the way he plays today, and why he rarely engages in casual fisting in the UK outside of camera work or international travel.We dig into the Manchester scene — a tight, clique-based ecosystem built on private invites, house sessions, and community trust rather than big public events. Jake explains how these groups form, how new players get pulled in, and why the North feels so different from London’s isolated, every-man-for-himself vibe.Jake also speaks candidly about chems and harm reduction, sharing how he shifted from chaos to productivity and why calling himself a “workaholic” feels like reclaiming his life rather than losing balance. He breaks down Bump, the hookup app he designed himself, why he refuses to drown users in ads or forced paywalls, and how he aims to give players a cleaner, more respectful space to connect.Follow Jake:🐦 X: @jakeywakey0📸 Instagram: @jakerockard🔗 JFF: https://justfor. fans/ jakeywakey0🎧 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes every Friday at 8 PM🔥 Full video exclusively on https://HungerFF. comLISTEN & SUBSCRIBE

For episode 61 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with solo-named stunner Ridick (one D, like the Vin Diesel character) to trace how a shy model with a pushy best friend turned into a full-blown creator brand. He talks about being dragged onto Instagram, getting scouted for the Box Menswear tour across Texas, and what it felt like to be the 35-year-old with a real work history surrounded by chaotic twenty-something boys on the road. That tour, plus a jump to OnlyFans, blasted him from Dublin obscurity into a quarter-million-follower career.From there, the conversation goes deep—literally. Ridick explains how a lifelong fetish for big toys meant that when fisting finally showed up, it “just worked” the first time. He walks through how experimentation led to his now-famous prolapse, why he sees it as a “wow effect” at the end of a scene, and how fans’ reactions taught him that what felt normal to him was actually rare. Ryan and Ridick compare notes on party tricks, rosebuds, and that strange joy of shocking a room that isn’t quite ready for what you can do.We also get the geeky, tender side: Marvel Zombies binges, Alien and Predator lore, gadgets and drones, and the split between “Ridick” the entertainer and Kuba the introvert who’d rather stay home and cuddle. They talk about being the product and the person, learning how to handle fan interactions in public, and finding a balance so that the performer doesn’t swallow the human being underneath. By the end, it feels less like an interview and more like two future scene partners plotting something dangerously fun.Find Ridick online:• JustFor.Fans: https://justfor.fans/ Ridick_7• OnlyFans: https://onlyfans.com/ ridick_7• X (Twitter): https://x.com/ 7Ridick• BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/7ridick (if you don’t want this line, you can delete it when you paste)🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!🔥 Full video available exclusively on https://HungerFF. com 🔥

This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of my favorite people in the entire industry — performer, lawyer, and author Blue Bailey (@bluebaileysf) — for a raw, unfiltered conversation that goes deep into everything from porn ethics to chemsex recovery. We talk about our first wild shoot together in a sleazy San Francisco hotel, the infamous Viral Loads era, and how Blue turned his lived experience with addiction and HIV into the powerful memoir Blue Movie.From discussing the realities of consent paperwork and performer rights to finding self-worth after meth and the blurred line between pleasure and pain, this one hits every nerve. Blue opens up about life after porn, his law career, and what it really means to survive the industry — not just physically, but emotionally.🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers.)

Vienna’s own PUP-HULKY sits down with Ryan James (HungerFF) for a candid, funny, and unexpectedly tender conversation about kink, discipline, and identity. He shares how a dare became a persona, how years of dance and bodybuilding shaped his ability to listen to his body, and why chastity flipped a switch—focusing everything on “just butt and muscle.” We get into consent, aftercare, and how collaboration with trusted pros made exploring BDSM feel safe and real.This episode is about making curiosity normal—taking a 20-year fantasy and finally living it—without shame, labels, or over-produced perfection. If you’re into open, adult conversations about f*sting, submission, and the power of authentic chemistry, this one hits.Guest — PUP-HULKYX (Twitter): https://x.com/ puphulkyOnlyFans: https://onlyfans.com/ pup-hulkyJustFor.Fans: https://justfor.fans /PUP_HULKYInstagram: https://instagram.com/pup_hulky🔥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers (goes live here first).📺 Full video: https://HungerFF. com

After an unforgettable 37th birthday trip to Paris, HungerFF returns with a raw and personal storytime unlike any other. From an airport nightmare with Air France to a terrifying pulmonary embolism that nearly ended his life, Ryan James (HungerFF) opens up about the chaos, humiliation, and heartbreak of a week that changed everything. What started as a celebration became a confrontation with mortality — and a forced pause on his long-awaited colostomy reversal surgery.In this brief but powerful life-update episode, he shares what it feels like to have your body betray you twice in one year, what he’s learning from it, and why he refuses to let pain silence his voice. Honest, unfiltered, and deeply human — this is Brolapse at its most vulnerable.

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Italian creator Blue Eyes XXL for one of the most honest and vulnerable conversations of the season. Known for his mix of elegance and edge, Blue Eyes opens up about leaving the fashion world for adult entertainment, finding freedom through exhibitionism, and building a brand that’s equal parts nasty and sweet.They dive deep into the art of fisting, body potential, and the trust that turns physical intensity into true intimacy. From learning fisting from “old-school masters” in Naples to experiencing his first anal orgasm with @RoccoSteeleNYC, Blue Eyes reflects on the evolution of pleasure, connection, and the mental strength required to stay authentic in an industry built on fantasy.Together, Ryan and Blue Eyes explore what it means to be seen — not just sexually, but humanly. They talk about burnout, boundaries, self-care, and how to stay grounded when fans blur the line between performer and person.🔥 This episode celebrates sex, honesty, and creative self-expression — proof that even in the most extreme corners of kink, the real story is about being human.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM!

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with the rising powerhouse of MachoFuckers — HorsePapo. From his explosive growth online to his evolution from dominant top to exploring bottom play, HorsePapo opens up about creativity, connection, and what it means to merge muscle, endurance, and intimacy in porn.The two dive deep into the philosophy of fisting — how it ties to size, stamina, and trust — and how boundaries, consent, and communication create the most unforgettable scenes. HorsePapo also shares the story behind his name, his training mindset, and why mystery and anonymity still fuel his power.This conversation hits every note: sex, humor, honesty, and a raw look at the passion that drives today’s underground creators.👊 Topics include: • How fisting “goes hand in hand with big d*cks” • Transitioning from pure top energy to exploring bottom play • The creative process behind MachoFuckers scenes • Why anonymity and fantasy matter in fetish porn • Fitness, stamina, and filming with intention • Collaboration, consent, and staying grounded in the spotlight⸻🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

This week on Brolapse, I’m joined by the one and only Silver Steele — performer, activist, and all-around legend. From Houston’s Space City Fisters to Pig Week in Fort Lauderdale, Silver opens up about his journey into fisting, the lessons he’s learned along the way, and why kindness is at the core of his brand.We talk about safety, education, and why going slow is key (“you only get one butthole, and it has to last you a lifetime”). We also dive into his experience being one of the most vocal advocates during the Mpox outbreak, how he balanced vulnerability with visibility, and why inclusion matters for trans folks in fetish spaces.It’s an unfiltered conversation about sex, identity, and what it means to use your platform for more than just porn.🎧 Listen & Subscribe:YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIaSpotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM!🔥 Full video available exclusively on HungerFF.com 🔥

This week on Brolapse, we’re slipping into something slick with one of the most respected rubber pigs in the game—@RubberKai. From his early days at the Hoist in London to becoming the guy people gear up for, Kai shares how rubber became not just his fetish, but his lifestyle.We explore how latex and fisting became an inseparable combo for him—covering everything from the mental clarity that comes with being encased, to the sheer practicality of cleanup. We also dive deep into gear care, repair, and the emotional intimacy that rubber can unlock. Whether it’s opera, disco, or Berghain techno, Kai’s scenes are as wild as they are intentional—and always encased.This episode is proudly sponsored by Invincible Rubber, creators of handcrafted latex menswear designed to push limits. From laser-cut holiday fantasy looks to Ryan’s custom tops for post-surgery play, Invincible’s craftsmanship and fearlessness shine through. RubberKai shares what makes them one of the best brands in the world of kink gear.If you’ve ever wondered why the latex scene feels more queer, more creative, and more human than anything else—this episode peels back the catsuit to reveal the messy, beautiful heart of it all.🎧 Listen on Spotify:⁠https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse⁠(Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)📺 Watch on YouTube:⁠https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa⁠🍏 Apple Podcasts:⁠https://apple.co/408WLLX⁠📻 Amazon & Audible:⁠https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse⁠❤️ iHeartRadio:⁠https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273⁠🔥 Full uncensored video exclusively on:⁠HungerFF dot com⁠🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM!🔗 Brolapse Listening & Viewing Links

Season 2 of Brolapse opens with a legend. Dolan Wolf talks about coming to gay sex later in life, discovering fisting, and why kink for him is a mind game with a body attached. He breaks down his methodical training era (yes, the π-and-plug story), the San Francisco Leather Men’s Discussion Group performance we did with two German tops and Logan Hawk, and the line that changed how many of us play: “Our bodies are organisms, not machines.”We get into the real-talk moments too—like pausing a CLAW workshop to rinse and returning with the reminder that shit happens—and how honesty beats porn myths every time. Dolan reflects on fisting’s shift from underground to mainstream, what’s gained, what can get lost, and why better education beats gatekeeping. He shares the wish-list of collaborators he’s eyeing, his soft launch plan for JustForFans/OnlyFans (fisting, cigars, BDSM), and we nerd out over Scream—including our still-on-the-table parody collab.If you’ve ever wondered where confidence, community, and truly filthy joy meet, this one’s a blueprint.Find Dolan: BlueSky @dolanwolf.bsky.social · Twitter/X @DolanWolfXXXNew episodes Fridays at 8 PM ET. Full videos at https://HungerFF.com🎧 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273Listen & Watch

Brolapse turns 1 year old this week, and I couldn’t think of a better guest to celebrate with than Jasun Mark — the director behind Falcon’s Fetish Force, Fisting Central, Club Inferno Dungeon, and more.In this anniversary episode, Jasun shares his journey from cutting video in Toronto to directing for Jake Cruise, TitanMen, and beyond. We dive into his transition into fetish and fisting films, his collaborations with iconic performers, and his philosophy on why fisting should be fun, safe, and full of laughter — not fear.We talk porn history, directing styles, performer stories, fisting aesthetics, creative risks, and even the crazy GoPro-on-a-fist experiment that changed the game. Jasun opens up about imposter syndrome, mainstream projects, and what excites him most about his future in fetish porn.If you love fisting, queer history, and unfiltered conversations, this is one episode you don’t want to miss.Connect with Jasun Mark:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/JasunMarkFilmX (Twitter): https://x.com/jasunmarkxxxBlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/jasunmark.bsky.social🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIaSpotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseiHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio also live Fridays at 8 PM across all platforms.

In Episode 51 of Brolapse, I’m back with my sixth Ask Me Anything—this time focused on life after my colon perforation surgery. From depth vs. width, to the emotional relief of realizing I could still get fisted, to the daily realities of living with a stoma, I open up about recovery, grief, resilience, and gratitude.This AMA covers 12 community-submitted questions across Twitter, BlueSky, Facebook, Telegram, and DMs—everything from small victories in healing, to whether I’ve had to relearn my body, to the role community support has played since surgery. It’s raw, honest, and deeply personal, with plenty of humor, nostalgia, and reflection along the way.🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM (ET)! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!🎧 Listen on YouTube: ⁠https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa⁠🎧 Listen on Spotify: ⁠https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse⁠ (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: ⁠https://apple.co/408WLLX⁠📻 Amazon & Audible: ⁠https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse⁠❤️ iHeartRadio: ⁠https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273⁠🙏 Please consider supporting Wrex Wylde’s recovery: ⁠https://www.gofundme.com/f/jeff-with-his-living-expenses-while-he-recuperates-at-home⁠

For the 50th episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (@HungerFF) welcomes award-winning director and producer I Que Grande (@I_Que_Grande)—best known for his work with Raw Fuck Club, Treasure Island Media, and as the host of Demystifying Gay Porn.Together, Ryan and Luis take listeners on a candid journey through their years working together, from chaotic sets at RFC to major productions like Gangbang Proposal. Luis recalls his unexpected entry into the industry via a Craigslist ad, his transition from editing to directing, and the technical craft behind shooting hardcore scenes—even when they weren’t necessarily his personal kinks.The conversation dives deep into the art of porn production: editing styles, camera techniques, and what truly makes a great scene. They reflect on the balance between passion and professionalism, and share their frustrations and joys with an industry often misunderstood from the outside. Luis also opens up about the evolution of Demystifying Gay Porn, his archival work in preserving queer erotic history, and how podcasting has given him a new way to tell stories.From misconceptions about porn stars being “dirty” or “uneducated” to the truth about how much hustle and skill it takes to succeed, Episode 50 is both a celebration and an education. It’s about survival, creativity, and the importance of preserving queer history.🎧 Listen on YouTube: ⁠https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa⁠🎧 Listen on Spotify: ⁠https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse⁠ (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: ⁠https://apple.co/408WLLX⁠📻 Amazon & Audible: ⁠https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse⁠❤️ iHeartRadio: ⁠https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273⁠🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

In this raw and deeply revealing episode, HungerFF sits down with Dominic Ford (@DominicFord), founder of JustFor.Fans (@JustForFansSite), for an unfiltered conversation about what it really takes to build a sex worker-led platform that centers kink, community, and creator autonomy.We talk about:The early days of JFF and how it rose from porn studio rootsWhy corporate-run platforms like OnlyFans fail fetish creatorsHow JFF protects extreme content from censorship & payment bansThe ethics of consent, transparency, and performer safetyWhy queer creators deserve tech built by us, for usAnd how Dominic prepares for the growing threat of political attacks on adult contentDominic doesn’t hold back. He talks openly about the emotional toll, the philosophy behind his work, and what scares him most as the industry faces increased scrutiny from the far right.Whether you’re a fan, a creator, or someone building your own path in adult tech—this is a must-hear episode on authenticity, ownership, and kink liberation.🎥 Full video episodes available early onSpotify (with video)🎧 Audio available on all major platforms:🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6🕗 New episodes drop Fridays at 8PM

In this candid, unfiltered reunion, HungerFF and Jazmatazz ditch the script for an honest conversation about life, pleasure, and personal growth. From globe-trotting adventures in LA and Spain to the challenges of staying grounded after sober victories, the two open up about the highs, lows, and complicated middle ground of chemsex, harm reduction, and burnout in the porn world.They swap stories about navigating the ever-changing fetish landscape—both online and in person—while reflecting on community hypocrisy, creative stagnation, and the importance of finding connection beyond the lens. Jazmatazz shares the rebrand journey from My Little Fisting Blog to Jazmatazz.com, his run-ins with German censorship laws, and his street-fisting experience at Dore Alley. HungerFF gets real about injury recovery, the future of his content, and a deeply personal update on his health, family tensions, and boundaries in toxic relationships.The episode also spotlights fellow fister Wrex Wylde’s ongoing medical struggles and how the community can step up to support him. It’s a raw, real, and unexpectedly warm conversation that reminds us—whether in sobriety, relapse, or somewhere in between—everyone deserves a place at the table.💖 Support Wrex Wylde: https://www.gofundme.com/f/jeff-with-his-living-expenses-while-he-recuperates-at-home📲 Follow Jazz:BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/jazzmatazzoz.bsky.socialJustForFans: https://justfor.fans/jazzmatazzozPodcast “Such FFun”: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/such-ffun/id1537046097Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mlfb🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

From fisting rookie to one of the most recognized names in fetish porn, FitnessPapi has built a career on raw authenticity, unapologetic sexuality, and an uncanny ability to connect with fans. In this Brolapse exclusive, we trace his journey from humble beginnings—brainstorming over sushi with me about the idea that became Brolapse—to commanding nearly a million followers across platforms.We dive deep into his fisting origin story, the early content days when 5,000 followers felt like a mountain, and the viral rise of his Storytime series. We talk about the art of building a personal brand without losing yourself, navigating the pressures of fan culture, and the real-life fallout of online controversies—including his unforgettable brush with the Nicki Minaj fandom.Of course, it wouldn’t be Brolapse without getting explicit—FitnessPapi opens up about his love for degradation scenes, his favorite collabs (including Mikey, Eli, and yours truly), and why authenticity and longevity matter more than quick fame. Whether you’re here for the fetish talk, the industry insights, or just to hear one of the most charismatic pigs in the game spill it all, this episode delivers.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!📲 Follow FitnessPapi:X (Twitter): https://x.com/prmusclepapi

This week on Brolapse, I’m joined by the electrifying Lena Vesper—a trans cam queen, fetish performer, and self-described “hole mommy” who’s flipping the script on what femme dominance looks like in the world of fisting, fetish, and camming.We talk about:• How trans femmes are navigating (and reshaping) fetish spaces• Camming as a tool of empowerment and boundary-setting• The reality of owning your hole as your business• Raunch, gooning, piss, power dynamics, and the thrill of “gross girl” aesthetics• Her thoughts on raceplay, porn algorithms, and how clout pressures creators• The myths of inclusion in leather and fisting spaces—and what real access looks like• Acrylic nails, shoulder-deep dreams, and the best fuck machines in the game💬 “You don’t have to ask our pronouns. Just let us in. Give us the space.”Whether you’re a seasoned kinkster or just fisting-curious, this one’s raw, smart, unfiltered, and absolutely unforgettable.🔗 Find Lena Vesper online:🔞 Twitter (X): https://x.com/lena_vesper🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of the realest, rawest, and most resilient legends in the industry—Brian Bonds. From his early days getting fisted in a bathroom before shooting a scene, to directing some of the kinkiest, most beautifully lit fisting content out there, Brian has seen all sides of porn. But today’s conversation goes deeper than any scene he’s ever shot. We talk about the emotional aftermath of long-term sex work, how mental health gets pushed to the side in adult entertainment, and what happens when the industry no longer has space for you. Spoiler: he’s still finding ways to take up space—and do it on his own terms.Brian opens up about the toll of performing through grief, addiction, and burnout—and the shame spiral that can come from pretending everything’s fine when it’s not. We get into how pirated drug-fueled porn gets rewarded by the algorithm, and how that dark feedback loop can mess with your sense of worth. He shares what led him into outpatient rehab, how he’s approaching sobriety, and why taking three months off everything is a radical act of self-love. We also swap stories about cancellation guilt, awkward fan interactions, and our shared struggle with imposter syndrome.And yes—we talk about fisting. Brian shares his origin story as a “wrister fister,” his first scene with Derek Parker, and what it means to hold space for performers when he’s behind the camera. Whether you’re a longtime fan or a creator trying to survive this chaotic industry, this one’s for you. It’s messy. It’s honest. And it just might be exactly what you need to hear.🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!Follow Brian Bonds:🔗 X (Twitter): https://x.com/BrianBondsXXX📸 Instagram: https://instagram.com/Official_BrianBonds🔞 JustFor.Fans: https://justfor.fans/BrianBondsXXX

What turns you on when the taboo becomes your truth?In this unflinching and deeply personal episode, HungerFF welcomes VersAssPunk, a prolapse-loving nullo whose devotion to radical embodiment has no off switch. They talk about the physical challenges of traveling with a prolapse, the erotic thrill of losing control, and the long-term goals of growing bigger, wetter, and bolder—even into old age.From bathroom logistics to retirement home fantasies, Vers doesn’t hold back. He shares how his competitive streak fuels his desire to keep pushing his body further, and how walking around with a thick, slimy lapse hanging between his cheeks made him feel more turned on—and more himself—than ever.Part confession, part manifesto, this is Brolapse at its most intense, intimate, and unforgettable.

“You start second-guessing everything—your looks, your choices, your value… all because of a number.”In this unfiltered episode of Brolapse, I sit down with Apollo Fates—content creator, Club Inferno Dungeon performer, and lowkey goonface icon—for a conversation that hits harder than a double punch. We unpack the reality of being a fisting performer in an oversaturated market, where having a huge hole and a loyal fanbase still isn’t enough to pay the bills.Apollo opens up about:His first introduction to fisting and how it shaped his kink identityGrowing up gay in a hostile home, and how that delayed his self-expressionWhy he’d ditch social media altogether if it weren’t tied to survivalThe pressure of follower counts and the illusion of online valueBurnout, bots, and the line between creation and collapseHis viral goonface and how it became both a brand and a bufferThe emotional weight of working hard and still feeling invisibleThis episode isn’t just about sex. It’s about self-worth, visibility, and the cost of chasing clout in a world that treats bodies like brands. If you’ve ever measured your value by a follower count—or felt invisible despite giving everything—this one’s for you.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

In this week’s episode of Brolapse, I sit down with New York-based fisting trainer and content creator FFireBoy for an unfiltered conversation about kink, community, and building a practice around sexual healing.We talk about his journey from exploring toys during the pandemic to running a full-time fisting training business with over 50 clients, his views on consent, substance boundaries, and the real-life emotional breakthroughs that can happen when you let someone inside—literally and figuratively.Danny (aka FFireBoy) opens up about:His first time getting fisted via a post on AssPig.comWhy he treats training as a therapeutic practice, not just a kinkHow he balances authenticity vs. performance in content creationWhat it’s like working with trans, sober, and first-time clientsThe moment a client broke down crying mid-session, and how that changed everythingWe also talk about the rising visibility of fisting in the kink world—and why it might just be the new bareback.This episode is equal parts sex, strategy, and soul. You don’t want to miss it.🕗 New episodes every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🎙️ Audio available across all major platforms.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

This week on Brolapse, I open up like never before—emotionally and medically. As I head into my colon reconnection surgery, I’m reflecting on everything this experience has taught me: from suicidal fear to radical acceptance, body horror to body pride, prolapse loss to prolapse resurrection.I talk candidly about the day my hole almost killed me, the shock of waking up with a stoma, my doctor giving me the green light to keep fisting (bless him), and how I found peace, pleasure, and purpose in unexpected places—including latex, punchfisting, and maybe even filming with my stoma 👀. I also call out the two losers who ghosted me over my bag. You’ll never hear from them again.This one’s raw, honest, and deeply personal. If you’ve ever felt broken or terrified that your kink, your body, or your life was over—this episode is for you.💬 Tap in. Share it. And wish me luck.New episodes every Friday at 8PM.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James (aka HungerFF) sits down with the unapologetically masked mischief-maker himself: Pink National Treasure.From surviving small-town hate with a gun to the head, to building a fiercely protected anonymous persona, PNT opens up about why anonymity is freedom—and why once it’s gone, you can’t buy it back.They dive deep into:👉 The birth of the “Lesbro” mindset: two bottoms, no dick required.👉 The plague of bad, checklist fisting videos vs. real, connected scenes.👉 Frail masculinity and why huge holes terrify insecure tops.👉 Toy safety, drug safety, and the cost of reckless stunts (yes, Ryan’s stoma makes a cameo).👉 Why bait-and-switch pay-per-view scams ruin trust—and how real creators keep it honest.Raw, real, hilarious, and refreshingly smart—this episode proves we’re more than holes for hire.💦 Brolapse drops new video episodes every Friday at 8PM — early video access on Spotify for subscribers!🎧 Listen & Subscribe:Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access!)Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

This week on Brolapse, we get deep and dirty with Sir Joshua — the mastermind behind Pervert Media’s throat-destroying, boundary-blurring, beautifully brutal brand of porn. It’s our first ever sponsored episode thanks to the legends at Hankey’s Toys, who craft the monster silicone masterpieces that have stretched us all to new limits.We dive into:Why “You know why you’re here” hits harder than you think.How trust and communication fuel the roughest scenes.The art of turning secret cravings into safe, consensual filth.Our shared stories of fisting’s journey from taboo to mainstream.Favorite Hankey’s Toys (spoiler: the Seahorse and Ogre FXL get wild love).Joshua reveals the gentle side behind the savage persona, the teamwork with Tom that keeps Pervert Media thriving, and what makes a true pervert pig. You’ll laugh, get horny, and maybe learn a thing or two about aftercare, objectification, and why a milk chaser can save your throat.🎧 New episodes every Friday at 8 PM — early video access for Spotify subscribers.🔥 Sponsored by Hankey’s Toys — www.mrhankeystoys.com

Ian Sterling never set out to be a star—he just wanted to make hot shit that people would jack off to. In this raw and reflective episode, Ian opens up about his surprise GayVN nomination, his XBiz feature, and how none of it was ever the goal. From idolizing old-school Falcon and Titan muscle gods to becoming jack-off material himself, Ian shares what it means to leave a legacy without chasing the spotlight.We talk porn motivations, inspiration, body image, and the thrill of becoming someone’s fantasy—without losing your sense of self.🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM🎙️ Audio available across all platforms at 8 PM

French rising star @kinkoer opens up about the first time he took a fist, the porn that inspired him, and how a long-held fantasy became a full-blown identity. We talk about post-COVID exploration, the power of being seen, and why fisting felt like coming home. Also: apparently, I create monsters. 😈🎧 New episodes drop every Friday at 8PM👊 Full video available exclusively on my official website🖤 Early video access for Spotify subscribers—🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/BrolapseYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIaApple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLXAmazon Music: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapseFollow Kinkoer:🧸 JFF: https://justfor.fans/kinkoer🐦 X: https://x.com/kinkkoer📸 IG: https://www.instagram.com/kinkoer🌐 BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/kinkoer.bsky.social