The Awakening Podcast

Episode 32: Deconstruction, Art and the Ministry of HonestyContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, spiritual harm, LGBTQIA+ religious trauma, and leaving high-control church environments.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with David Hayward — known around the world as The Naked Pastor — artist, author, and one of the most recognized voices in the deconstruction space.David’s work has given language and image to experiences that are often too painful for words. His art has resonated deeply with those walking away from harmful religious systems, and particularly with members of the LGBTQIA+ community who have carried wounds inflicted by the very institutions that claimed to love them.In this conversation, David opens up about his own journey out of institutional ministry, how art became his ministry, and why honesty — even when it’s uncomfortable — is one of the most sacred things we can offer one another.We also dive into Philip Zimbardo’s The Lucifer Effect: Understanding How Good People Turn Evil and what it illuminates about how ordinary people within religious systems can participate in — and perpetuate — real harm.This conversation is moving, thought-provoking, and a beautiful reminder that deconstruction can be its own form of devotion.In This Episode, We DiscussDavid’s journey out of institutional ministryArt as a ministry of honesty and healingHow religious harm uniquely impacts the LGBTQIA+ communityDeconstruction as a courageous and creative actThe Lucifer Effect and what it teaches us about harm within systemsFinding community and voice on the other side of faithAbout Our GuestDavid Hayward, known as The Naked Pastor, is an artist and minister whose work has reached hundreds of thousands of people navigating deconstruction, spiritual abuse, and life after institutional religion. His cartoons and art have become a touchstone for those who have felt unseen, unwelcome, or wounded by the church — particularly within the LGBTQIA+ community. David’s work is honest, prophetic, and deeply human.🎨 Connect with David & get custom artwork: NakedPastor — David Hayward📚 Book mentioned: The Lucifer Effect: Understanding How Good People Turn Evil — Philip Zimbardo | Get the book hereWhy This Episode MattersFor too long, the church has asked people to make themselves smaller — to silence their questions, suppress their identities, and perform a faith that was never truly theirs. David Hayward has spent years refusing to do that, and in doing so, has created space for countless others to refuse it too.Whether you’re in the thick of deconstruction or years into your own rebuilding, this conversation will meet you where you are.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with Your HostsHeather — linktr.ee/HappyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch on YouTube: The Awakening Podcast📩 Be a guest: [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode stirred something in you — whether it’s grief, recognition, or the first flicker of permission to be honest — let yourself feel it. Your questions are not a crisis. Your doubts are not a betrayal. And your identity was never something that needed to be fixed. Take your time. You belong here.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 31: From Worship Stage to Authentic VoiceContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, spiritual harm, and leaving high-control church environments.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Joshua and Prez Colburn — artists, musicians, and voices in the deconstruction space.Joshua shares his experience as a former megachurch worship leader and what it was like to step away from a role that once defined his identity. Prez walks us through her own journey of deconstruction alongside him, and how their relationship evolved as their beliefs began to shift.Together, they open up about what it looks like to leave behind performance-based faith and rediscover authenticity — not just personally, but creatively.We also talk about their work as influencers and artists in the deconstruction space, and Prez shares about her upcoming song Fence Sitter, a piece that captures the tension of questioning, uncertainty, and standing in the in-between.This conversation is honest, creative, and a powerful look at what happens when you choose truth over performance.In This Episode, We DiscussLife as a megachurch worship leaderDeconstructing as a coupleIdentity beyond church rolesHealing from performance-based faithCreativity and expression after deconstructionThe story behind Fence SitterAbout Our GuestsJoshua and Prezleigh Colburn are artists and musicians who share their journey of deconstruction through music, storytelling, and online presence. Their work centers around authenticity, healing, and creating space for others navigating life after faith.🎧 Connect with Joshuahttps://linktr.ee/Originalsinfluencer🎶 Connect with Prezleighhttps://linktr.ee/prezmoymusicWhy This Episode MattersFor many, deconstruction isn’t just internal — it impacts relationships, identity, and creative expression. Joshua and Prezleigh’s story highlights what it looks like to walk that path together, navigating uncertainty while choosing honesty over expectation.It’s a reminder that there is life — and even beauty — on the other side of performance.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with Your HostsHeather — https://linktr.ee/HappyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode brings up parts of your own journey, take your time with it. You’re allowed to question, to evolve, and to create a life that feels true to you — even if it looks nothing like what you were taught.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 30: Grief, Deconstruction, and Healing ForwardContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of grief, loss, traumatic brain injury, and religious deconstruction.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with author Kayna Chappell for a deeply moving and honest conversation about grief, faith, and what it means to rebuild after everything changes.Kayna shares the story of losing her husband and how that loss became a turning point in her spiritual life. In the aftermath, she found herself questioning long-held beliefs and navigating a path of deconstruction while also supporting her son, who was living with the effects of a traumatic brain injury.We talk about what it looks like to hold grief and growth at the same time — how healing isn’t linear, how belief systems can shift under the weight of real life, and how love continues to evolve even in the face of profound loss.Kayna’s story is one of resilience, honesty, and learning to move forward without bypassing the pain.This conversation is tender, real, and a reminder that healing doesn’t mean going back — it means finding a way forward.In This Episode, We DiscussGrief and the loss of a partnerDeconstruction after life-altering eventsParenting through trauma and recoverySupporting a child with a traumatic brain injuryRedefining faith, meaning, and healingMoving forward without bypassing painAbout Our GuestKayna Chappell is an author and storyteller who shares her journey through grief, deconstruction, and healing. She creates space for honest conversations around loss, resilience, and rebuilding life after trauma.🎙 Podcast with her sonhttps://tr.ee/80BJKJE8lk🔗 Connect with Kaynahttps://linktr.ee/heretikaynaResources Mentioned(Add here if anything comes up in your conversation)Why This Episode MattersGrief has a way of unraveling everything we thought we knew — about life, about faith, and about ourselves. Kayna’s story speaks to the reality that deconstruction isn’t always a choice; sometimes it’s something life brings to your doorstep.Her journey reminds us that even in the midst of loss and uncertainty, there is still space for healing, connection, and meaning — even if it looks different than before.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with Your HostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode feels heavy or close to home, take your time with it. You’re allowed to pause, to feel, and to process at your own pace. There’s no right way to move through grief or healing — only your way.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

pisode 29: Rebuilding Without Belief — Humanism After DeconstructionContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, loss of belief, and rebuilding identity after faith.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Sean Davis, an American humanist and former Christian who has deconstructed his faith.Sean shares what it was like to walk away from Christianity and what came after — not just the loss of belief, but the process of rebuilding meaning, purpose, and identity outside of religion.We talk about humanism as an alternative framework, what it means to live ethically and intentionally without a belief in God, and how community can still exist beyond religious spaces.Sean also shares resources that support those navigating deconstruction, including organizations that provide connection, support, and a place to land for those leaving faith behind.This conversation is grounding, thoughtful, and a reminder that meaning isn’t something you lose when you walk away — it’s something you get to create.In This Episode, We DiscussDeconstructing ChristianityLetting go of belief in GodWhat humanism is and how it shapes worldviewRebuilding identity and purpose after faithFinding community outside of religionSupport systems for those leaving belief behindAbout Our GuestSean Davis is an American humanist and former Christian who shares his perspective on life after religion and advocates for ethical, human-centered living.Resources MentionedRecovering from Religionhttps://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/American Humanist Associationhttps://americanhumanist.org/Why This Episode MattersFor many, leaving religion can feel like stepping into the unknown — especially when belief in God no longer feels true. Sean’s story offers a perspective on what it looks like to rebuild without returning to another belief system.It reminds us that morality, purpose, and connection don’t belong to religion — they belong to us.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with Your HostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode connects with your own journey, take your time with it. You are allowed to question, to let go, and to rebuild your life in a way that feels honest and true to you.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 28: From Doctrine to Divine Mother — A Spiritual AwakeningContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, spiritual awakening, and shifting belief systems.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Takisha Purcell, author of Understanding The Truth About God: Written in the Hearts of Men.Takisha shares her story of growing up in a Christian home in Jamaica and the early foundations that shaped her understanding of God, faith, and identity. As her journey unfolded, she began to question those inherited beliefs, leading her into a deeply personal spiritual awakening.What followed was a profound shift — one that moved her away from the traditional concept of a Divine Father and toward a connection with the Divine Mother.We talk about what it means to trust your inner knowing, to follow a path that may not be understood by those around you, and the courage it takes to redefine spirituality on your own terms.This conversation is expansive, thought-provoking, and an invitation to explore what truth feels like when it’s no longer handed to you — but discovered within.In This Episode, We DiscussGrowing up in a Christian home in JamaicaQuestioning inherited beliefsSpiritual awakening and inner knowingShifting from Divine Father to Divine MotherReclaiming personal truth and spiritualityNavigating belief changes in community and cultureAbout Our GuestTakisha Purcell is an author and spiritual voice who shares her journey of awakening and encourages others to reconnect with the truth within themselves.📖 Get her book[Insert Amazon link here]Resources Mentioned(Add here if anything comes up in your conversation)Why This Episode MattersFor many, deconstruction doesn’t end with letting go — it opens the door to something entirely new. Takisha’s story reminds us that spirituality can evolve, expand, and take forms we may have never been taught to imagine.There is no one right way to connect with the divine — and sometimes, the most honest path is the one you discover for yourself.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with Your HostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode resonates with your own journey, take your time with it. You are allowed to question, to evolve, and to build a spiritual path that feels true to you.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 27: Crucifying the Bible and Reclaiming Your VoiceContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, spiritual harm, and leaving high-control belief systems.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Deborah Grace, author of Crucifying the Bible.Deborah shares her personal journey of deconstruction — what led her to begin questioning, how she navigated leaving behind rigid religious dogma, and the experiences that ultimately inspired her to write her book.After decades of deep involvement in the church, Deborah began studying scripture more closely, which led her to challenge long-held beliefs and ultimately walk away from Christianity to rebuild her understanding of truth and identity.We talk about the process of untangling belief systems that once shaped your identity, the courage it takes to walk away, and how Deborah is now helping others who are finding their way out of harmful religious environments.This conversation is honest, empowering, and a reminder that reclaiming your voice is possible — even after years of being told who you should be.In This Episode We DiscussReligious deconstruction and identityLetting go of rigid belief systemsWhat inspired Crucifying the BibleHealing after spiritual harmReclaiming autonomy and voiceSupporting others leaving religious dogmaAbout Our GuestDeborah Grace is an author and advocate who supports others as they navigate life after religious control.📖 Get her bookhttps://www.amazon.com/Crucifying-Bible-Using-Disprove/dp/B09CLN8N1G🎧 Spotifyhttps://open.spotify.com/artist/2sIYhMcqieIFU5Hd3kVS85?si=YqnAo-o9Q4euQypV6G-T6Q📱 TikTok@deborah_grace_ctb🎙 Apple Podcast Featurehttps://share.google/FedkqaQBSFfnhPUkUResources MentionedRecovering from Religionhttps://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/Why This Episode MattersLeaving behind deeply held beliefs can feel like losing everything — identity, community, and certainty. Deborah’s story reminds us that there is life, voice, and freedom on the other side of deconstruction.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode resonates with your own journey, take your time with it. You are allowed to question, to change, and to rebuild in a way that feels true to you.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 26: Humanism from the HeartContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of humanism, life after religion, and building meaning through compassion and connection.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Steve Ghikadis, author of Humanism from the Heart.Unlike many of our guests, Steve was not raised within religion. Instead, he was raised as a free thinker, encouraged to explore the world with curiosity and ask questions about faith, meaning, and humanity from an early age. That foundation led him to humanism — not as a reaction, but as a natural extension of a life rooted in openness and inquiry.Steve shares what it looks like to live a human-centered life grounded in empathy, compassion, and connection. We also talk about his passion for bridging the gap between believers and non-believers, creating space for understanding rather than division.This conversation is thoughtful, grounding, and a reminder that purpose and goodness are not owned by religion — they are something we build together.In This Episode We DiscussBeing raised as a free thinkerCuriosity as a foundation for belief and identityWhat humanism looks like in everyday lifeBuilding meaning outside of religionBridging the gap between believers and non-believersCompassion as a guiding principleConnection, community, and shared humanityAbout Our GuestSteve Ghikadis is an author and advocate for human-centered living, focused on encouraging others to lead with empathy, curiosity, and understanding.Learn more about Steve’s workhttps://steveghikadis.com/Resources MentionedRecovering from Religionhttps://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/Secular Therapy Projecthttps://www.seculartherapy.org/Why This Episode MattersNot every path away from religion begins in harm — and not every conversation about belief has to end in division. Steve’s perspective offers a hopeful reminder that curiosity, compassion, and shared humanity can create meaningful connection across different worldviews.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderWhether you are deconstructing, questioning, or simply exploring, you are allowed to move at your own pace. Curiosity is not something to fear — it’s something that can guide you.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 25: Humanism, Community, and Life Beyond ReligionContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious deconstruction, secular identity, and rebuilding meaning outside of faith.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and we sit down with Shawn Towers, an American Humanist who is actively working to support and uplift others through education, advocacy, and humanitarian work.Shawn shares his journey beyond religion and what it means to build a life grounded in humanism, where ethics, compassion, and community exist without reliance on religious doctrine. We explore how purpose, meaning, and connection can be redefined outside of traditional belief systems.Through his work, Shawn is helping create spaces where people can belong, contribute, and heal — without fear, shame, or dogma.In This Episode We DiscussWhat humanism is and what it stands forLife after religionBuilding ethical frameworks outside of faithCommunity without doctrineHumanitarian work and advocacyHealing from religious conditioningCreating belonging beyond beliefAbout Our GuestShawn Towers is a speaker, educator, and advocate within the humanist community, dedicated to supporting others through outreach and humanitarian efforts.Learn more about Shawn’s workhttps://humanist.org/shawntowersWhy This Episode MattersFor many leaving religion, the question becomes “what now?” Shawn’s perspective offers a powerful reminder that meaning, morality, and community are not owned by religion. They can be built intentionally, rooted in humanity itself.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after faith. We create space for honesty, healing, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf you are navigating life after religion, you are not alone. There is space to rebuild, to question, and to create meaning in ways that feel true to you.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.

Episode 24: Exposing Sex, Sin, and Secrets in the Seventh day Adventist ChurchContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious abuse, sexual misconduct, institutional cover ups, and spiritual harm.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I have the honor of sitting down with Melissa Duge Spiers, author of Holy Disobedience.Melissa joins us to talk about the devastating patterns of abuse, secrecy, and power within the Seventh-day Adventist Church that she courageously exposes in her book. Through years of investigation and survivor testimony, Melissa uncovers how systems meant to protect the faithful often instead protect perpetrators.In this powerful conversation, we discuss the culture of silence surrounding sexual misconduct, the spiritual manipulation used to maintain control, and the courage it takes for survivors and advocates to speak out.Melissa’s work is a call for truth, accountability, and justice for those harmed within religious institutions.In This Episode We DiscussInstitutional abuse within religious organizationsSurvivor advocacy and truth tellingPatterns of secrecy and protection of leadershipSpiritual manipulation and controlThe cost of speaking outWhy accountability within churches mattersAbout Our GuestMelissa Duge Spiers is an author and advocate dedicated to exposing abuse within religious systems and amplifying the voices of survivors.Pre Order Her Bookhttps://www.lakedrivebooks.com/books/holy-disobedience/?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAb21jcAQdt_tleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZA81NjcwNjczNDMzNTI0MjcAAaeFoZt_MvpDFvo3xVnqTHofZimjxbr7t-9j4_R1aKwfzzMf7ijK2CEqr-3gbQ_aem_V6U0cb49pQDOv5bd4VwMrAInstagramhttps://www.instagram.com/the.glory.whole?igsh=NGZ1ZHRqOTdpcWZ2Why This Episode MattersInstitutional abuse thrives in silence. Conversations like this help bring hidden harm into the light and remind survivors that they are not alone. Accountability begins when stories are told and systems are no longer allowed to hide behind spiritual authority.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf discussions of abuse within religious systems are difficult for you, please listen at your own pace and take care of yourself. Healing often begins when truth is spoken.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 22: Accountability in the Age of PatriarchyContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of current events, systemic patriarchy, power structures, and accountability.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down for a timely and honest conversation about current events, accountability, and the ways patriarchy continues to be upheld in our culture.We unpack how systems of power protect themselves, how accountability is often avoided or redirected, and why patriarchy is not just an abstract idea — but something reinforced in everyday choices, institutions, and silence. We also discuss what it means to take responsibility in our personal lives while still naming systemic harm.This episode is reflective, direct, and rooted in the belief that healing and justice both require honesty.In This Episode We DiscussCurrent cultural and political eventsHow patriarchy sustains itselfAccountability vs performative outrageInternalized patriarchyReligious systems and powerWhy naming harm mattersPersonal responsibility within broken systemsWhy This Episode MattersConversations about patriarchy and accountability can be uncomfortable — especially for those raised in high-control religious spaces where hierarchy was normalized. But growth requires courage. Naming systems of harm is not about division; it is about clarity, healing, and refusing to participate in cycles that cause damage.Coming Next WeekNext week, we are honored to welcome Melissa Duge Spiers, author of Holy Disobedience.We’ll be diving into spiritual autonomy, resisting harmful authority, and what it means to reclaim your voice. You won’t want to miss it.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survivor stories, and rebuilding life after spiritual harm. We create space for truth-telling, growth, and community beyond fear-based systems.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf conversations about power, patriarchy, or accountability feel activating, pause and check in with yourself. Growth does not require self-abandonment. You are allowed to process at your own pace.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 21: When Labels No Longer FitContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of addiction, recovery, religious identity, and healing after spiritual harm.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Courtney, who shares her deeply personal journey through faith, identity, and recovery.Courtney talks about growing up within Catholicism, later finding herself drawn toward Judaism, and eventually arriving at a place where traditional religious labels no longer feel big enough to describe the path she is walking.Along the way, Courtney opens up about addiction, recovery, healing, and learning to rebuild a life rooted in honesty and hope rather than expectation and pressure. Her story is a powerful reminder that our journeys are allowed to evolve, and that healing often happens outside the boxes we were taught to stay inside.In This Episode We DiscussReligious identity and evolving beliefMoving from Catholicism to JudaismLetting go of labels that no longer fitAddiction and recoveryHealing after religious harmHope and rebuilding lifeTrusting your own pathWhy This Episode MattersMany people feel pressure to land in a new belief system after leaving one behind. Courtney’s story reminds us that growth does not always end in a new label. Sometimes the most honest place we can land is simply continuing the journey.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast centered on religious deconstruction, survival, and healing. We share real stories from people rebuilding their lives after faith, while creating space for honesty, curiosity, and community.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Follow the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode touches on parts of your own journey, take it at your own pace. Healing is not linear, and you are allowed to grow beyond the labels you were given.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Leaving the Pews: One Woman's Journey to Healing and AuthenticityContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious upbringing, identity suppression, and recovery from faith-based harm.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I are joined by Cat, a guest who shares what it was like to grow up as a pastor's child, always watched, always expected to be the picture of perfect faith, and how she eventually found the courage to walk away in search of something truer to herself.Cat opens up about the unique pressures of life in the church, where every choice felt public and every doubt felt dangerous. She walks us through the slow, tender process of leaving her Christian roots behind and finding the path that brought her the most healing, meaning, and peace.In This Episode We DiscussGrowing up as a pastor's child and living life under a microscopeThe pressure of being a public face of faithNavigating doubt within a high-visibility religious householdLeaving Christianity behindFinding healing, meaning, and personal peaceCharting your own spiritual pathAbout Our GuestCat is sharing her story anonymously. We're grateful for her vulnerability and trust in bringing her experience to The Awakening community.Why This Episode MattersGrowing up as a pastor's child comes with a specific kind of pressure that's rarely talked about — the weight of being a living symbol of someone else's faith. Cat's story is a reminder that healing is possible even when your whole identity has been shaped by a role you never chose.Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox KnoxConnect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6sInterested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode speaks to your own experience, please listen gently and take breaks as needed. You deserve safety, freedom, and a community that honors who you truly are.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Escaping Evangelicalism and Finding FreedomContent NoteThis episode includes discussion of religious control, identity suppression, and recovery from faith-based harm.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I are joined by Sebastian, a guest from the UK who shares his journey out of a deeply conservative evangelical upbringing and into a life rooted in authenticity and healing.Sebastian describes growing up in a high-control religious home, the fear and rigidity that shaped his early life, and how discovering paganism became a turning point that helped him reclaim agency over his own spirituality. Not long after leaving evangelicalism, Sebastian came out as gay and began the long work of healing from religious harm and abuse.Today, Sebastian uses his voice to help others recover from religious trauma, offering support, validation, and community to those navigating life after faith.In This Episode We DiscussGrowing up in conservative evangelical environmentsHigh-control belief systemsDiscovering paganism as a path to freedomComing out after leaving religionHealing from religious harm and abuseIdentity reclamationSupporting others through deconstruction and recoveryAbout Our GuestSebastian is an advocate and peer-support voice helping people recover from religious harm and abuse.TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@sebastiantheinfjt?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pcWhy This Episode MattersLeaving religion often means losing community, identity, and certainty all at once. Sebastian’s story reminds us that freedom can be found beyond fear, and that healing becomes even more powerful when it’s shared.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode resonates with your own experience, listen gently and take breaks as needed. You deserve safety, freedom, and a community that honors who you truly are.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Deconstruction in Real TimeContent NoteThis episode discusses early-stage deconstruction, identity disruption, and the emotional impact of leaving high-control religious belief systems.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I are joined by Reckless, a guest who is only four months into their deconstruction journey.Rather than looking back with years of distance, this conversation happens in real time. Together, we talk through what begins to surface in the early stages of deconstruction, what often still needs to be unpacked, and why the beginning can feel disorienting, lonely, and overwhelming.This episode is an invitation — especially for listeners who are new to deconstruction — to hear that confusion is normal, questions are allowed, and community is essential while healing and rebuilding life on the other side of faith.In This Episode We DiscussEarly-stage deconstructionLetting go of certaintyFear, grief, and identity lossUnpacking beliefs and internalized shameWhy community matters in healingRebuilding without rushingLearning to trust yourself againWhy This Episode MattersMany stories of deconstruction are told after years of processing. This episode centers what it looks like at the beginning, when things are still raw and unclear. If you are early in your journey, you are not behind, broken, or doing it wrong. Healing does not require having all the answers.About the ShowThe Awakening is a podcast for people navigating religious trauma, deconstruction, and rebuilding life after faith. We center honesty, survivor voices, and community over certainty.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Watch the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf you are early in your deconstruction journey, take this episode at your own pace. You do not need to have clarity to deserve support. You do not need certainty to belong.If you want, I can alsoWrite a new listener invitation captionCreate a community-focused promo postHelp shape a follow-up episode for early deconstructionThis episode is such a gift to people who feel like they’re just beginning to wake up.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Surviving Conversion Therapy and Choosing LifeContent WarningThis episode includes discussion of religious trauma, conversion therapy, coercion, emotional abuse, and threats of electroshock therapy. Listener discretion is strongly advised.Episode DescriptionThis week on The Awakening, Tamara and I sit down with Zachary Heath, a survivor of religious abuse whose story is both harrowing and deeply hopeful.Zachary shares his experience growing up in a high control religious environment and surviving the IFB. After coming out as gay, his parents made attendance at conversion therapy a requirement in order to remain living in their home. As the therapy escalated toward the use of electroshock treatment, Zachary was able to escape just in time.Today, Zachary is using his lived experience to give back. He is part of a nonprofit organization serving at risk youth, helping provide housing and stability, and working as a project director focused on building safe neighborhoods for young people who have nowhere else to go.This episode is a powerful testimony to survival, resistance, and what healing can look like after religious trauma.In This Episode We DiscussSurviving high control religious systemsConversion therapy and coercionConditional love and parental controlEscaping religious abuseHealing after religious traumaQueer survival and resilienceHousing justice for at risk youthTurning pain into purposeAbout Our GuestZachary Heath is a survivor, advocate, and project director working to create safe and stable housing for at risk youth.Support Zachary’s projecthttps://upcurve.life/fundraiser/17/epic-youth-tennessee-at-risk-youth-neighborhoodInstagramhttps://www.instagram.com/zachary.heath21?igsh=azN1Mnh5djJocmhoTikTok@zacharyheath21Why This Episode MattersConversion therapy is abuse. Zachary’s story exposes how religious systems weaponize love and obedience and reminds us that queer lives are worth protecting. Healing is possible and purpose can be rebuilt even after profound harm.🎶 Intro/Outro MusicYour Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hostsHeather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321🎥 Follow the show on YouTubehttps://www.youtube.com/@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📩 Interested in being a guestEmail us at [email protected] Care ReminderThis episode covers heavy material. Please listen at your own pace and take breaks as needed. You deserve safety, dignity, and care.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

Episode 17 — Healing the Body, Reclaiming the SelfContent Note:This episode discusses trauma, nervous system responses, and embodied healing. While not graphic, the conversation may resonate deeply with survivors of abuse or religious trauma.Episode DescriptionIn Episode 17, we are joined by Jeffrey Shearer (Jeff), a trauma therapist who helps us explore what trauma really is, how it impacts our sense of self-worth, and why healing must involve both the mind and the body.Jeff walks us through how trauma is stored in the body, the difference between hypervigilance and hypovigilance, and how these nervous system responses often develop as survival strategies. Together, we unpack why so many survivors struggle with self-worth and how learning to understand our bodies can be a powerful step toward healing.This episode is grounding, educational, and deeply affirming for anyone navigating life after trauma.In This Episode We DiscussWhat trauma is and how it shapes self-worthHow trauma is stored in the bodyHypervigilance vs hypovigilanceNervous system responses and survival patternsWhy trauma-informed healing mattersCompassionate approaches to recoveryAbout Our GuestJeffrey Shearer is a trauma therapist who specializes in helping individuals understand their nervous systems, rebuild self-worth, and move toward embodied healing.🌐 Jeff’s Website:https://www.jeffreyshearer.com/Why This Episode MattersMany survivors are told to “think differently” or “pray harder,” while their bodies remain stuck in survival mode. This conversation reminds us that trauma is not a failure of faith or character — it is a physiological response, and healing is possible when we approach it with compassion and understanding.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Roy Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] Care ReminderIf this episode brings anything up for you, pause when needed and tend to yourself with kindness. Your nervous system learned to survive — and it can also learn safety.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

pisode 16 — Survival Is Not a SinContent Warning:This episode contains discussions of adoption trauma, physical abuse, sexual assault, incest, pregnancy resulting from rape, religious trauma, and deconstruction. Listener discretion is strongly advised.Episode DescriptionIn Episode 16, we sit down with George, a trans man who courageously shares his story of survival, identity, and religious deconstruction.George recounts his experience of adoption, the abuse he endured within his family, and surviving rape by a sibling—an assault that resulted in a child. He speaks honestly about how Christianity and religious expectations were used to silence him, enforce shame, and deny safety, and how stepping away from those systems became essential to his survival and healing.This is a deeply vulnerable conversation about trauma, truth-telling, gender identity, and what it means to reclaim your life when faith communities fail to protect the most vulnerable among them.About the ShowThe Awakening is a space for religious trauma survivors to share their stories of how they survived, deconstructed, and began healing. We believe survivors. We name harm. We create room to breathe on the other side of faith.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] Care ReminderThis episode covers intense and traumatic experiences. Please take breaks as needed and prioritize your well-being. Support is valid. Rest is allowed. You are not alone.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

🎙️ Episode 15 — “When an Affirming Home Isn’t Enough”How the Church Still Pushes People AwayThis week on The Awakening Podcast, Tamara and I sit down with David, a gay man whose story challenges one of the church's greatest lies.David grew up in a loving, affirming home, supported by his family and encouraged to be fully himself. And yet, the church still did profound damage. Through shame-based theology, subtle messaging, and spiritual pressure, David internalized harm that ultimately led him to deconstruct out of Christianity entirely.Today, David identifies as an atheist, not because he lacked love or support growing up, but because the church could not offer him a God that felt safe, honest, or life-giving.In this conversation, we talk about:Why affirmation at home doesn’t cancel out church harmHow theology, not family, is often the deepest woundWhat deconstruction looks like when belief no longer makes senseThe freedom — and grief — that can come with walking awayThis episode is especially important for parents, allies, and anyone who believes the church is harmless if someone is “loved enough” elsewhere.🌿 Connect With Us & Help Us Build CommunityFollow, add, and subscribe so we can go live with you, hear your stories, and continue building a space rooted in honesty, healing, and accountability.HeatherTikTok: @happyheatherInstagram: @happyheathersmilesTamaraTikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321Instagram: @tamarajo321📺 YouTube@TheAwakeningPodcast📘 Facebookhttps://www.facebook.com/share/1C9xMvSeRw/📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at: [email protected]🎶 Music CreditsIntro & Outro Music: “Your Poison” by Rox KnoxIf you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2026BIG Media

🎙️ Episode 14 — “When Healing Is Called Possession”A Story of Adoption, Trauma, Faith, and Reclaiming IdentityThis week on The Awakening Podcast, we sit down with Hal, who courageously shares his deeply personal and painful journey through adoption, loss, religious trauma, and self-discovery.Hal was adopted from Russia and came to the United States at just 22 months old, where he was raised by his mom and dad. After the devastating loss of his mother to cancer, Hal went on to attend Clemson University. While there, he suffered a traumatic brain injury that altered the course of his life.During his recovery, Hal found himself surrounded by a group of Pentecostals who attempted to cast demons out of him, interpreting medical trauma as spiritual failure. The harm deepened when his father told him he was going to hell for being gay, leaving Hal wrestling with shame, identity, and belonging.Today, Hal identifies as spiritual and no longer associates with the God of the Bible, choosing instead a path focused on healing outside of the religious frameworks that caused him harm. Hal has chosen to remain private, and we deeply honor that choice.This episode is raw, tender, and profoundly human — especially for those navigating:Religious traumaParental rejectionSpiritual abuseIdentity after faith You are not alone.🌿 Connect With Us & Build CommunityFollow, subscribe, and add us so we can go live with you, hear your stories, and continue building a community rooted in honesty, healing, and accountability.HeatherTikTok: @happyheatherInstagram: @happyheathersmilesTamaraTikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321Instagram: @tamarajo321📺 YouTube@TheAwakeningPodcast-w6s📘 Facebookhttps://www.facebook.com/share/1C9xMvSeRw/📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at: [email protected]🎶 Music CreditsIntro & Outro Music: “Your Poison” by Rox KnoxIf you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 13 — Shipped Away in the Name of God: Tabatha’s StoryThis week on The Awakening, we sit down with Tabatha, who shares her deeply painful and courageous story of being adopted into a strict Christian family whose love was conditional on conformity.When Tabatha’s trauma and humanity didn’t fit their idea of a “perfect Christian child,” she was sent away to a troubled teen program in Jamaica, where she experienced further harm and lasting trauma.After surviving her past and reclaiming her voice, Tabatha founded Survivors Unrestrained — an organization dedicated to helping survivors of institutional, systemic, and religious abuse find community, support, and connection with one another.During the conversation, Heather and Tamara also highlight a petition we encourage listeners to sign: the Protect Kids Act, which seeks to increase protections for children in youth residential programs. Your signature can help push for real change in how vulnerable young people are treated.🎶 Intro/Outro Music:Your Poison by Rox Knox🌐 Connect with Survivors Unrestrained:Website: https://survivorsunrestrained.org/✍️ Sign the Protect Kids Act petition:https://www.change.org/p/pass-the-protect-kids-act-protect-children-in-youth-residential-programs?recruiter=1395789295&recruited_by_id=a3986430-c44b-11f0-82c5-19d258e4bb7f&utm_source=share_petition&utm_campaign=petition_dashboard&utm_medium=copylink&fbclid=IwT01FWAOu1vhleHRuA2FlbQIxMABzcnRjBmFwcF9pZAwzNTA2ODU1MzE3MjgAAR4Nc-vqi8YTsL5UAZIONLWb-LAHT_PDFC3gpjA1S4bmCMGqQfaejE_QHHwuWA_aem_x5kyRIUhRPqlhUbnXX1gIQ💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — TikTok: @happyheather | Instagram: @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

pisode 12 — Bad Theology, Bad Papers, and Bad Pastors: A Week of Christian ScandalsThis week on The Awakening, we’re switching things up. Instead of interviewing a guest, Heather and Tamara dive into several current scandals shaking up the Christian world.We’re talking:• A failed college paper that somehow turned into a cry of “persecution”• Women who continue to carry water for the patriarchy — and why it’s so harmful• The newest wave of controversy surrounding Harvest Christian Fellowship and Pastor Greg LaurieIt’s messy, frustrating, and honestly… a little too on-brand for modern evangelicalism. Join us as we break it all down with honesty, humor, and a whole lot of side-eye.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 11 — From Evangelical to Wiccan: Brooke’s Journey Into Freedom and ParenthoodThis week on The Awakening, we sit down with Brooke, a young woman whose spiritual path has taken her from evangelical Christianity to embracing Wicca. Brooke opens up about what led her to deconstruct, how she discovered a more empowering and earth-centered spiritual practice, and what parenting looks like when you’re healing from religious trauma while raising the next generation.Her story is honest, brave, and full of insight about reclaiming identity, intuition, and personal power after leaving high-control faith spaces.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 10 — From Gospel Roots to Atheist Liberation: Kellie’s JourneyThis week on The Awakening, we sit down with Kellie, whose story stretches from growing up under the influence of gospel greats to finding her voice and identity outside of religion.Kellie shares her powerful journey from deeply rooted Christian culture to atheism, and how she found belonging and purpose through Black Nonbelievers of Metro Detroit. Her story is one of courage, authenticity, and the freedom that comes from choosing your own path — even when it means breaking away from everything you were raised to believe.This conversation is honest, empowering, and an important look at what deconstruction and liberation can look like within the Black community.✨ Connect with Kellie:Linktree: https://linktr.ee/DetroitAtheistQueen?utm_source=linktree_profile_share&ltsid=71c159c2-c8cb-4bf5-aa7d-ea6fbfe9f7a3🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 9 — Losing Faith, Finding Freedom: Dan’s Story from South AfricaThis week on The Awakening, we sit down with Dan, a guest joining us all the way from South Africa. Dan shares his powerful journey of loss, questioning, and rebirth after his wife’s passing from cancer led him to deconstruct his faith.What began as heartbreak became the spark for deep reflection — and ultimately, liberation. Today, Dan identifies as an atheist and is building a community for others who are learning to live authentically outside the bounds of organized religion.This conversation is tender, thought-provoking, and a reminder that healing can take many forms — even outside of faith.🌍 Connect with Dan:TikTok: @thefaithlessones🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 8 — From Pastor to Druid: Chris Bridges’ Journey Through Pain and AwakeningThis week on The Awakening, we sit down with Chris Bridges, a man whose story takes us from the pulpit to a path of profound spiritual transformation.Once a pastor and victim of spousal abuse, Chris opens up about the deep pain he endured while serving in ministry, and the courage it took to walk away from everything he knew. Now walking a deconstructed, earth-centered path as a spiritual Druid, Chris shares how healing, nature, and authenticity brought him back to life.This conversation is raw, redemptive, and filled with hope for anyone rebuilding after religious trauma or personal loss.🌿 Connect with Chris Bridges:TikTok: @urbanmysticdruidFacebook: Chris Bridges🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 7 — Faith, Politics, and Disability: A Therapist’s Story of DeconstructionIn this week’s episode, we sit down with Will, a therapist who began deconstructing from Christianity after Trump’s election. Will shares how politics, faith, and personal experience collided in a way that changed everything he believed.He also opens up about living with a disability and how it shaped his understanding of grace, acceptance, and what it truly means to belong.During our conversation, Will also references the book Staring at the Sun: Overcoming the Terror of Death by Irvin D. Yalom, which offers a powerful exploration of mortality, meaning, and the human experience.This conversation is raw, reflective, and deeply human — exploring the complex intersections between faith, identity, and healing.🎶 Intro/Outro Music: Your Poison by Rox Knox💬 Connect with your hosts:Heather — @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara — TikTok: @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram: @tamarajo321📩 Interested in being a guest?Email us at [email protected] you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 6 | Surviving the IFB: Shay’s StoryIn this episode of The Awakening Podcast, we sit down with Shay, a survivor of the Independent Fundamental Baptist (IFB) cult. This marks the very first time Shay has shared her story publicly, and she does so with courage, honesty, and incredible strength.Together, we talk about what it was like to grow up in a system built on fear and control, what finally led her to break free, and how she’s finding healing and empowerment on the other side. Shay’s story is a powerful reminder that even in the aftermath of trauma, freedom and self-discovery are possible.This episode holds space for bravery, truth, and the beginning of a new chapter.Connect with ShayTikTok: @dragonrosezConnect with Your HostsHeather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Be a GuestEmail us at [email protected] CreditIntro and Outro: Your Poison by Rox KnoxIf this episode resonated with you, please subscribe, share, and leave a review—it helps us reach more people who are finding freedom in their awakening.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 5 | Escaping the Cult with Topher from True Crimes Against WineWhen Topher’s family became entangled in John MacArthur’s cult, he barely escaped with his freedom intact. In this episode, he shares his journey of healing, humor, and rebuilding after religious trauma.Topher, host of True Crimes Against Wine, talks about what it means to unpack spiritual abuse, rediscover your voice, and reclaim joy after years of manipulation and control. His story is both sobering and inspiring—a reminder that healing is possible even after deep religious trauma.This conversation is raw, honest, and filled with hope.Connect with TopherPodcast: True Crimes Against WineTikTok: @topherrachelwineInstagram: @truecrimesagainstwineConnect with Your HostsHeather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Be a GuestEmail us at [email protected] CreditIntro and Outro: Your Poison by Rox KnoxIf this episode spoke to you, please subscribe, share, and leave a review—it helps us reach more people who are finding freedom in their awakening.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Episode 4 | Deconstructing into Celtic Christianity with Bishop John GeeIn this episode of The Awakening Podcast, we sit down with Bishop John Gee, a Celtic Bishop whose journey led him from evangelical Christianity into a more expansive and inclusive expression of faith.Bishop John shares his path of deconstruction and spiritual rediscovery, offering insight into Celtic spirituality, ancient wisdom, and the beauty of a faith deeply rooted in connection—with creation, community, and the Divine.Together, we explore how Celtic Christianity invites us back to a faith that is mystical, grounded, and free from the entanglements of empire.✨ A conversation about rediscovering sacredness in all things and embracing a faith that liberates rather than confines.Connect with Bishop John Gee: Website: ancientceltic.info TikTok: @bishopgunits Instagram: @celtic_bishopConnect with Your Hosts:Heather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Be a Guest:Email us at [email protected] Credit:Intro & Outro: Your Poison by Rox Knox👉 If this episode resonated with you, please subscribe, share, and leave a review—it helps us reach more people who are finding freedom in their own awakening.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

In this episode of The Awakening Podcast, we are honored to sit down with Mary Byler—author, advocate, and founder of The Misfit Amish. Mary shares her story of survival and resilience, as well as her passion for amplifying the voices of those who have been silenced within insular religious communities.Mary is the author of Reflections and Memories of An Amish Misfit and Jezebel’s Justice. She also highlights the importance of survivor stories like Triumph and Survival by Kay Rose, reminding us that telling the truth is a powerful act of healing.✨ This conversation is courageous, vulnerable, and full of hope for those reclaiming their stories.Connect with Mary Byler (The Misfit Amish):Website: themisfitamish.comTikTok: @amish.misfit.meFacebook: Mary BylerInstagram: @plainrainbows_maryConnect with Your Hosts:Heather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Be a Guest:Email us at [email protected] Credit:Intro & Outro: Your Poison by Rox Knox👉 If this episode encouraged you, please subscribe, share, and leave a review—it helps us reach more people who need this community.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

In this episode of The Awakening Podcast, we sit down with Abel, also known as Poetic Deconstruction, to hear his journey from fighting in the boxing ring to deconstructing faith and rebuilding life with honesty and courage.Abel shares openly about healing from harmful systems, embracing vulnerability, and finding freedom in truth. His story is raw, inspiring, and full of hope for anyone walking through deconstruction and healing.✨ A conversation about faith, resilience, and the fight for freedom.Connect with Abel (Poetic Deconstruction): TikTok: @poetic_deconstruction Instagram: poetic_deconstructionConnect with Your Hosts: Heather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmiles Tamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321Be a Guest:Email us at [email protected] Credit:Intro & Outro: Your Poison by Rox Knox👉 If this episode spoke to you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review—it helps us reach more people on their journey of awakening.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media

Welcome to the very first episode of The Awakening Podcast! Hosted by Heather (@happyheather | @happyheathersmiles) and co-host Tamara Buchanan (@feralatheistjezebel321 on TikTok | @tamarajo321 on Instagram), this show is all about real conversations, raw stories, and reclaiming our voices after religious trauma.In this episode, we share who we are, why we started this podcast, and what listeners can expect moving forward. Together, we’ll be exploring the journey of healing, spirituality, deconstruction, and the many ways people are finding freedom and wholeness outside of toxic systems.✨ Whether you’re just beginning to question or you’ve been walking this path for years, this is a space where your story matters.📩 Want to be a guest?We’d love to hear from you. Email us at [email protected] with your story or topic ideas.🎶 Music Credit:Intro & Outro: Your Poison by Rox Knox📱 Connect with us on Social Media:Heather: @happyheather | @happyheathersmilesTamara: TikTok @feralatheistjezebel321 | Instagram @tamarajo321👉 If you enjoy the episode, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave us a review—it helps us reach more people who need this community.If you like what you here, check out other great pods on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!Barrett and Zac host The All About Nothing: Podcast, discussing everything from news and politics to entertainment and sports! All About Nothing, but All About Something too!Zac and Barrett host What The Pod Was That with Cari Simmons, available everywhere you listen to podcasts.Take a deep dive down the rabbit hole with Amii on the pod Welcome to Wonder Land.Check out Black White and Blue In the South, With Dr. Jumelle Brooks and Bill Kimler!Politically Speaking with Erica Sampson, Kirsten Pruitt, and Emily Mayer is a sharp, engaging podcast breaking down politics with insight, wit, and a fresh perspective.The Preach Jacobs Podcast is hosted by Columbia South Carolina's very own Ambassador, Hiphop Artist, Columnist and Owner of SoulHAUS Art Gallery, Preach Jacobs!All of these fantastic podcasts can be found on the BIG Media LLC Podcast Network!FAIR USE COPYRIGHT NOTICE The Copyright Laws of the United States recognize a "fair use" of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states:NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONO RECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.This Video/Audio in general may contain certain copyrighted works that were not specifically authorized to be used by the copyright holder(s), but which we believe in good faith are protected by federal law and the fair use doctrine for one or more of the reasons noted above. If you have any specific concerns about this usage, or our position on the Fair Use Defense, please contact us at [email protected] so we can discuss amicably.Thank you.Mentioned in this episode:BIG Media LLC Copyright 2025"The Awakening Podcast" is solely owned by it's host and is distributed by BIG Media LLC | Independent Podcast Network!BIG Media