Unchained

I didn’t take my anger out on people…I turned it on myself.This episode is about self-destruction, unprocessed pain, and what happens when you don’t know where to put what you’re feeling.If you’ve ever been at war with yourself in silence—this one’s for you.

What happens when the person who stood by you in your darkest moment…is no longer aligned with who you’re becoming?In this episode, I talk about a 33-year friendship,shared motherhood, loyalty, prison letters,and the painful truth of outgrowing someone you still love.This isn’t about blame.It’s about growth.Boundaries.And choosing yourself… even when it hurts.

For 25 years… I asked for my baby books.Every time I saw him, I asked.And every time… there was an excuse.What was taken from me wasn’t just a book.It was proof that I was there… proof that I loved my kids… proof that I mattered in their story.After all that time, I finally got them back.But sometimes… getting the truth doesn’t fix anything.It changes everything.This episode is about what was taken, what was returned…and the unexpected cost of both.If this helps even one person see something sooner than I did… then it means something.

Episode 13: Building From the BreakdownFor the first time, I’m not sitting here alone.In this episode, I’m joined by my first guest—someone whose story stopped me in my tracks. At just 24, she’s lived through abusive relationships, struggles with family, and battles with alcohol… and she’s still trying to figure out who she is on the other side of it all.This isn’t polished.This isn’t perfect.This is real.We talk about what it looks like to grow up fast, to survive things you never should’ve had to, and how you start rebuilding when everything feels broken.Because sometimes… the breakdown is exactly where the rebuilding begins.If you’ve ever felt lost, stuck, or like you’re still trying to find yourself after everything you’ve been through—this one’s for you.

What happens when your past doesn’t stay in the past…and moves in right down the street?In this episode, I share what it felt like to come face-to-face with the man who hurt me as a child—and the truth that changed everything:He didn’t move back into my life…I just hadn’t finished taking my life back from him.If your past has ever shown back up uninvited, this one’s for you.You are not broken.You are not weak.And you are not alone.

For 20 years, I drove without a license.Not proud of it.Not hiding it either.This episode isn’t just about DWIs, arrests, or driving illegal—it’s about what happens when you learn how to survive inside a life you know isn’t right… and you stay there anyway.I talk about the choices, the people who enabled me, the fear I lived with every time I got behind the wheel, and the moment everything finally shifted.I did the work.I got sober.I went back to counseling.I did everything right……and still crashed into the back of someone the day I finished.Because change doesn’t happen halfway.And neither does healing.This episode is about accountability, survival, and the ripple effect our lives have on the people watching us—especially our kids.If you’ve ever lived in something you knew you needed to fix…this one’s for you.

For most of my life, love felt like something I had to fight for.Something I had to prove myself for.In this episode, I talk about what happens when you finally experience a love that’s safe… and learning how to believe you deserve it.

Sometimes the people who hurt us the most are the ones we grew up with.This episode was one of the hardest ones I’ve recorded.For years, I protected people in my story.Today, I stopped protecting the silence.In this episode of Unchained, I talk about a kind of trauma people rarely talk about — the kind that happens inside your own home. The kind where you still wake up the next morning, share a bathroom, sit at the same table, and pretend everything is normal.My brother and I shared a childhood, a home, and a mother. But some things happened that changed our relationship forever.This episode isn’t about revenge.It’s about truth.And it’s about healing out loud.If you’ve ever carried something painful from a place that was supposed to be safe, I hope this episode reminds you of something important:You are not crazy.You are not weak.And you are not alone.🎙 Unchained with RebeccaNew episodes every Tuesday at midnight.

For years I believed I was the problem.In this episode I talk about trauma, survival, addiction, and the moment I realized I was never broken — I was just trying to survive things I didn’t deserve.If you’ve ever felt like you’re too far gone… this episode is for you.

Sobriety wasn’t a straight line for me.I’ve had more Day Ones than I can count — and every relapse came with so much shame that I stayed stuck longer than I had to.In this episode, I talk about the cycle no one posts about: relapse, self-hatred, and learning how to get back up faster.This isn’t about being perfect.It’s about not living in the fall.Five years sober — because I stopped hating myself when I struggled.

My loneliness didn’t start in prison.It didn’t start with drugs.It didn’t start with alcohol.It started when I was three years old.In this episode, I talk about witnessing my mother being shot — and how that moment quietly programmed my nervous system to believe the world wasn’t safe.When chaos is your normal, calm feels suspicious.When intensity feels familiar, you mistake it for connection.This isn’t about blame.It’s about truth.You can love someone and still acknowledge what shaped you.If you grew up in chaos, there’s nothing wrong with you.Your body did what it had to do to survive.But survival is not the same thing as safety.Healing is teaching your body what safety feels like for the first time

Lonely wasn’t something I felt for the first time in prison.It was something I learned as a child.In this episode of Unchained, I talk about growing up in chaos, my mom’s marriages, the boyfriend who did very bad things to me, and the kind of loneliness that happens when you’re a little girl carrying something too heavy to say out loud.I talk about my dad’s suicide one year before I went to prison. The guilt. The anger. The silence.And I talk about how trauma and grief didn’t create my self-destruction — they just gave it gasoline.If you’ve ever felt lonely in a room full of people…If chaos ever felt like love…If being needed felt safer than being alone…This one is for you.Follow, share, and send it to someone who needs to hear that they are not broken beyond repair.Healing is possible.

Twelve hours.Handcuffed to a chair.“Just tell the truth.”In this episode of Unchained, I share what happened during the interrogation that led to my confession — and how quickly the tone changed once they got what they needed.I talk about being booked into my local jail, seeing familiar faces on both sides of the bars, being placed on suicide watch because I couldn’t stop crying, and being transferred to another county while I sat alone praying my mom would come.She did.This episode is about humiliation, loneliness, and the moment everything shifted.

Rehab wasn’t just about addiction.It was my escape plan.I share what it felt like to be so tangled in a toxic relationship that treatment became the only way out. I wasn’t just fighting drugs. I was fighting attachment, fear, and the version of myself that thought this was love.This is the part of the story where I started choosing me — even if I didn’t fully understand it yet.

You ever look back at your life and think…“What in the actual chaos was I doing?”This episode is about the man was with before prison — aka my Olympic-level attempt at ignoring every red flag in existence.We’re talking:• Grief I didn’t know how to handle• A relationship I definitely should’ve run from• Drinking like it was a personality trait• And me convincing myself everything was “fine”Spoiler: it was not fine.This is the part of my story where I was trying to make heartbreak, addiction, loss, and dysfunction somehow make logical sense… like if I just thought hard enough, it would all magically become healthy.It didn’t.But if you’ve ever loved the wrong person, stayed too long, or coped in ways that made things worse — welcome. Pull up a chair.We’re healing now.But back then? Whew. We were auditioning for chaos

This wasn’t a Netflix script.It was my real life.In this first episode, I take you back to the day the doors locked behind me — my first day in prison. The fear. The humiliation. The awkward moments no one prepares you for. And yes… even the parts that are almost funny now.It was the worst field trip ever.But it was also the beginning of the woman I’m becoming.