Trying To Make It Make Sense

You ever look back at your life and think…“What in the actual chaos was I doing?”This episode is about the man was with before prison — aka my Olympic-level attempt at ignoring every red flag in existence.We’re talking:• Grief I didn’t know how to handle• A relationship I definitely should’ve run from• Drinking like it was a personality trait• And me convincing myself everything was “fine”Spoiler: it was not fine.This is the part of my story where I was trying to make heartbreak, addiction, loss, and dysfunction somehow make logical sense… like if I just thought hard enough, it would all magically become healthy.It didn’t.But if you’ve ever loved the wrong person, stayed too long, or coped in ways that made things worse — welcome. Pull up a chair.We’re healing now.But back then? Whew. We were auditioning for chaos