Unmasking with Cris Beasley

Note: You can listen here on Substack, Spotify, Apple, or wherever you get your podcasts. After a decade of fatigue topped off with a radical accidental overdose of Prozac, I had to rebuild my body and energetic system from nearly scratch. I tried a multitude of things. This morning attunement has become my rock. It takes inspiration from the many cultures that root themselves in time and space by honoring east, south, west, and north. Then I turn to the earth and receive the yin feminine qualities. I thank my mother, my grandmother, and all the grandmothers. Then I turn to the sun and ask for the energy of the mother that I’ve just received to be activated by the yang masculine qualities. I thank my father, grandfathers, and all the grandfathers for their offering. Finally, I turn inward to the center of myself. I connect to my soul and the center of the universe.I allow my body to move itself. My body isn’t the slave to my mind. It know how to operate itself independently of mind, and this attunement connects me to that way of being. Each days’ movements are different and new. I trust that it will stretch, loosen, activate, and flex in the perfect way to honor how much or little energy I have.As always, feel free to pop any questions in the comments. I’m here. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

I am working with anger right now—not rage, but clean anger that refuses to mask or perform safety for others. I will no longer pad the egos of privileged men or pretend I’m not angry to make conversations comfortable; I need to speak mano a mano with awake adults who can handle direct truth without requiring me to manage their vulnerability. It is not my job to protect anyone from the discomfort of authenticity, and I demand that men claim the power they hold along with the responsibility to learn their lessons and apologize—not grovel, but demonstrate they got the message.What matters is not guilt or innocence but whether you took the note from the universe: the apology is the receipt proving this will never happen again. The Epstein files show what happens when sociopaths win, yet accountability means dedicating your life to ensuring such violations cease, stepping into divine masculine energy to protect the sacred. We are at the good part now; we bought our tickets by being born, we woke up, we are here, and this is the show we came to witness.subscribe on Substackdraw a card and more at crisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

crisbeasley.comSubstackOkay, it is 10:37 a.m. on Sunday, February 8th, and I have taken a handshake dose of bufo. It’s bringing up so many really painful things that I haven’t known how to talk about. It feels important to locate myself in the context.I’m a white woman, very British, on beautiful land called Oaxaca, Oaxaca de Juárez, of the Mixtec and the Zapotec beautiful indigenous heritage here that I feel, but still wouldn’t say I have any deep understanding of. But I feel — and I’m deeply grateful for this land, because I can work with bufo here. The gift of this sacred medicine cannot be expressed.The depth of gratitude that I have to be on this land, in the body that I’m in, carrying the karma that I carry, and the profound lack of understanding of that karma. What it is to be legal in this body, pursuing my soul’s dharma. I feel very grateful that I can legally have bufo on this land. There are many things that are core to my existence as a being, as a woman, as a Cris Beasley, that make me illegal in the country of my birth, in some senses. Perhaps — I don’t want to exaggerate — but perhaps we all have to find the place where we can exist. It is so complex, this net of the Maya, the overriding message.The reason I recorded today was to say: I am facing — and I believe we all are facing, on some level — the existential terror of realizing we have already woken up.We are already awake. We are already enlightened beings. We are already fully realized beings.It’s fucking terrifying. I’m like, oh shit, not only am I awake right now, I’ve been awake for a long time, and I’ve been existing in what it is to be aware 100% of the time of where we are, feeling everything. In certain moments, I wanted to forget, but taking mushrooms makes me more aware. Smoking weed, having edibles makes me more aware. I feel more awake, and there have been some moments where I just wanted a break. I just wanted to be able to forget again for a while. I just wanted to untake the pill of the knowing. Was I red-pilled, or black-pilled, or white-pilled? No — we all watched The Matrix. We’ve been awake for a long time.We have been awake for a long time, and we’re facing — I’m facing — the existential terror of what it is to realize that I’m not going back to sleep. It’s crushing to witness the amount of pain that’s happening right now. It’s crushing. Why are we doing this? Why are we doing this at all?The existential terror of this — I’ve never been to the point where I didn’t want to be on the planet anymore, where I wanted to kill myself. I’ve never wanted to kill myself, but I really understand how there are people who experience this much suffering, they just don’t have a way out. They’re awake, and they can’t do anything about it, or at least they don’t remember that they can. I had never touched that place prior to my dark night of the soul.Lord, bless how self-absorbed I was. I just had never been there. Apologies to all the people who knew me through that period and were like, “She is so shallow.” I was so shallow. Welcome to Enneagram 3 — we’re shallow, and we don’t even know it. We’re trying so hard. Bless us. We’re trying so hard. We have no idea. I had no idea who I was. I’m crying. I gotta wipe away these tears.I’m just trying to come to grips with this. I’m grateful that I have money in the savings account that’s allowed me to not have to grapple with these questions in the midst of a full-time or even part-time job. I feel so grateful that my soul set me up to be able to do this deep exploration. Apparently, I have some things to share from it, because I’ve had the beautiful luxury of being able to sit and watch a lot of YouTube and listen to a lot of podcasts. I pretty much consume media all day every day. I try to take breaks on Sunday, but I’m not very good at that.I need more time in nature. I need more play. I need less digital. From noon every day until I go to sleep at 9:30, I’m pretty much either producing content or consuming content. This is a voracious mind that I have. It’s great, it’s lovely, but I’m also having to learn to protect my stillness. It’s hard. It’s hard to feel all of this. It’s really, really hard to be awake during all this, and I’m searching for my way through it.I’m searching for my connection to the collective, to my expression of superabundance, my journey with money, my journey with visibility, my journey with authenticity, my journey with making music, letting my voice come out. I nearly didn’t publish that last episode — I held back because I was like, “It’s so incoherent. Nobody’s going to be able to follow this.”I don’t tie things up in a neat bow. I don’t finish my thoughts. I forget to say the most important thing. I forgot to say my mother’s autistic — because some of these things are just hard for me to say still. My mother’s autistic. Pretty sure I’m autistic. My aunt’s autistic. My father not, but my grandfather was — that whole matrilineal line tracing through my grandfather, my mother’s father.I forget to make the most important points. I forget to say them clearly. I forget to articulate the headline. I bury the lede. I’m dancing the line between: am I just half-assing this? If I have the strength to do it wrong, do I have the strength to do it right? Can I just say the most important thing? A lifetime of half-assing, caught in between a lifetime of perfectionism, just trying to dance that dance. It’s so hard. It’s just so hard right now.I was in a space not so long ago — a conference, spiritual people — and we didn’t cry together, almost nobody named how hard it is right now, because probably the dam would have burst. I get it. This conference is not slated to be a church service where everybody goes down to the altar and cries and speaks in tongues. That’s kind of what I’m missing. I’m missing that space.I don’t want it to be a Pentecostal church by any stretch, but I’m missing that space where we can all stand up and say, “It’s really hard right now.” We’re missing that space to cry together, and sing together, and just show up consistently. Some days we cry together. Some days we laugh together. Some days we laugh and cry at the same time together. Trying to make that space — I don’t know how. I don’t see anybody else who has. There are other people who come from the same background that I have, they’re all in the same boat. We’re still missing that community. We’re still missing that space that’s safe.All right — let’s see if I can tie this one up in a bow. I still crave to hear from you. Several people did reach out via various methods — some texted me on the Substack app, some people emailed me, some people commented — I loved every single one. So if you feel motivated to reach back and say hi, I really appreciate it. I’ve got so much more that I want to do together, but firstly, I just want us to get together and talk. I just want us to talk about it.With that, hopefully I’ll have the courage to play out on a song. I’m going to do that — or if not, I’m going to put it up on SoundCloud so you can listen to it separately. I don’t have a team yet. I have to do all my own production, it’s driving me crazy. At some point there will be a team — so say my guides — a team helping me do this production work and get the podcasts just a little bit better. I would love to be playing you out on the song I recorded in Los Angeles last week. This is the most my voice has ever come through. I’m singing in light language, picking up the pieces of the Christian church, of the Pentecostal church, the many beautiful gifts of the music, going into altered states of consciousness, and releasing on a deep level. I don’t even fully know what’s going on. I really would like somebody to scan my brain so they can tell me, “Oh, you went into theta brainwave state.” I’ll be like, “Cool.”I’m going somewhere, and I hope it takes you on a journey as well. So with that, I will say: be good, but not too good. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Coming to grips with autism + ADHD, the inheritance I got from my mother. Realizing that the reason I burned out so many times from my early 30's onwards was that I just didn't know how to speak what was actually true about myself. I didn't even know myself. This is the journey back with the strength to keep speaking even when people don't like it.Substackcrisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

I am not a financial advisor. Consult appropriate experts.Correction: Gold was $1,300 in 2018, not $1,800 as I said. That's even worse news for how much the dollar has slipped.Nate Hagens Great SimplificationClive Owens on gold crash Jan 30thLex Friedman on Fuck You Moneyfind me:crisbeasley.comSubstack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

crisbeasley.substack.comcrisbeasley.comHello and welcome to season two of Unmasking with Cris Beasley. I am your host, the aforementioned Cris Beasley, and the new name denotes the massive earthquake that has opened up in my self-understanding over the last months. Those of you who have been following along with The Telepathy Tapes may have already started to become fascinated with autism, and perhaps you even wonder, am I autistic? That was definitely me.In the same way that for many years I was like, am I ADHD? My mom was formally diagnosed, and yes, probably. It’s been a wild ride.I’ve been working with what is widely called the most powerful psychedelic on the planet, 5-MeO-DMT. I’ve been microdosing it, and it has opened up pathways for me to look at things that I hadn’t—it’s not that I hadn’t wanted to look at them before, but it’s very difficult to look at things that you don’t even know exist. I’m a firm believer that what is locked away in our subconscious has wisdom to it, that we can’t look at certain chapters of our own story until we have the strength and grounding to do so. I’m going to be covering many topics in season two. We’re going to go down many tangents and rabbit holes. I’m starting to understand with this autistic diagnosis as I read more about the characteristics of neurodivergent people what this brain is for, and why, for most of my life, I have felt like the weird one, and I didn’t understand why the world didn’t seem to be shaped in my shape. Season two is going to be about giving myself permission to be weird and to stop apologizing for the things that people don’t understand about me, and to embrace that this is how I am. I’m supposed to be this way. It has a function.Top line information about season two: even though episodes might have a title and appear to be about a thing, it’s better to think about each episode as the central node that we’re going to keep coming back to throughout the episode, but the purpose of each podcast is to expand the concept of what each topic connects to.There are other people who are more expert in each of these nodes than I will ever be because they have a brain that goes into the detail and studies the stuff in a comprehensive fashion. I’m going to leave links to these people’s excellent work—YouTube channels, books, podcasts—so that if you want to know where I’m getting my information from, you can tune in to the experts that I’m using to inform my viewpoints.I have a synthesizing brain. I’m interested in everything (other than sports.) I’m even sometimes interested in politics. I’m interested in everything from house construction to the microbiome, gardening, and precious metals futures, and the world economy. It’s so many different topics, I literally could not list them all.I’m going to stop apologizing for being interested in nearly everything. I’m going to look at my synthesizing feature as the thing my brain was designed for. This is what I’m here to do. I’m here like a brain neuron network to trace the pathways between things. And once you see that these things are connected, it’s very obvious.Sometimes when I’m explaining things, I know I’ve done it well when people are like, yeah, of course it’s like that. But they didn’t know it before then. And that’s the sensation that I have within myself, where I go, “Of course, it works like that.” I understand why the obesity epidemic—it took me years to figure out the obesity epidemic, and now when I look at it, I’m like, yeah, that’s exactly what’s happening. There are many pieces to it. There’s not just one input to answering it with any kind of satisfaction, but now that I look at it, I totally get it. I totally get why we are where we are and what we can start to do to dig out of it. These are not necessarily easy things to do, but there are some simple ways of starting to understand extraordinarily complex system change.Everyone knows that we’re in the midst of immense change on the whole planet right now. It seems everyone understands that shit’s going down. Many cultures marked this time as a moment of change. The Mayan calendar with 2012 being one of the most famous, but there are many prophecies about this time being this enormous, potent moment of change. Much of what we’re going to talk about, if not all, is connected to how we make sense of the chaos, how we can work with the chaos and flow with it to do what it’s here to do, because it’s unavoidable. It’s totally unavoidable, and it is good. It’s absolutely 100% for the good of all on the planet, but the next couple of decades are going to be challenging.We’re stripping away the systems of control, the ways in which we were taught to behave and be obedient, the subconscious programming that’s being weaponized against us to keep us unhappy.It’s all breaking apart right now. There are many forces that are pushing up from below like a tree root that can lift a whole house. That’s what’s happening right now. It’s not scary unless we try to do it alone. It’s not scary if we let our identities dissolve, if we let ourselves no longer be labeled into boxes of people who are told they have the right to hate each other, to insult each other.We’re breaking down the silos. I’m here to break down those silos of the false identities that tell us how we’re supposed to behave, how we’re supposed to talk, how we’re not supposed to talk, how we’re supposed to dress, how we’re not supposed to dress. All these things signal that I am a part of a group. I am of a group that’s a part of you or not a part of you. That’s going to tell me whether I should trust you or not trust you. But we’re deconstructing so much of this tribal programming over the next decades.Let’s bring it back to autism. The unmasking that is happening for me personally, I know is happening for many people, whether or not you consider yourself autistic. This is a year where many people are choosing to step into our voices, and I want us to do it together. I know in my bones that we need safe spaces to come back to after we went out into the world, and we were brave, but it went badly.I’ve been trying to step into my voice. I was cut out of a community that I had been a volunteer in for like the first five years of this event, led by two white men about my same age. They found the commentary I was starting to write about sex and relationships and women stepping into their power, and they did not know how to moderate me. I was causing too much conversation.I went back into my little hole after that because I learned the wrong lesson. I mean, it was true—you do get cut out of communities—but it was hard. I didn’t take away the lesson that I did the right thing. I did it perfectly well, or at least reasonably well. I wasn’t a horrible person, and I didn’t deserve to be treated the way that I was treated. That’s not the lesson that I took away from it. Instead, I hid for a bunch of more years. Then I tried various other times—many, I don’t know how many we’ll have time to talk about—but many various other moments where I tried to step into my voice and somebody didn’t like it. I was like, damn, it keeps happening. I must be doing it wrong, and I kept going back into my hole.This time I’m not going back into my hole.If you’re on that journey as well, if you already did it, please share some tips. Help a girl out. I could use some solidarity from some people ahead of me on this. And if you’re in it, or if you want to get started in it, let’s do it. There ain’t no time but the present, we gotta get going.We’re going to talk about a whole bunch of stuff. And basically everything that I’m talking about is going to piss somebody off. Because it’s all connected. Everything that I’m going to be talking about is connected to what we’re doing to free ourselves from the bullshit that is keeping us sick, that is keeping us invisible, that is keeping us poor, that is keeping us frustrated, resentful, not in relationships with the correct people, people pleasing some people that don’t even appreciate it. They like what they get from us, but if we stop giving it to them, they’re going to behave badly. I’ve left some relationships like that. It was not pleasant. So painful. Because you think these people are your people. At the very least, you think, I don’t know if I’ll have any other people. If I leave these, they’re probably as good as I’m going to get. I can’t afford to not have a best friend or a boyfriend or a girlfriend or whatever. But no, that’s not true. It’s all bullshit.So let’s find each other. I’m going to be talking about the world economy, the price of gold, the Epstein files. We’re going to talk about Trump’s fall. That shit’s about to get lit on fire. We have gone over the log flume, kids.We are on the ride, and we’re going to make it. I’m telling you, we’re going to make it.We’re going to do it and we’re going to do it together. We’re going to find each other. We’re going to clear off a whole bunch of bullshit. There’s so much bullshit, I can’t even go down that tangent… so many tangents. There are so many fights that are not even about the thing that is important. We have to stop getting drawn into the bullshit fights and talk about what’s really important.What else are we going to talk about? We’re going to talk about art. We’re going to talk about giving up hatred of others, other races, other genders, trans people, gay people, whatever. We have to give up our hatred of other people. We’ve been trained to hate each other. We’ve been trained to misunderstand each other, to stereotype each other. And some of this shit’s still deep in me. It’s implanted deep in us, the mistrust of each other, but we’re coming out of it.I’m definitely going to talk a bunch about art, creating, what it takes to nourish ourselves. We’re going to talk about technology. We’re going to talk about the surveillance state. We’re talking about creating new, right relationships with money and livelihood so that we aren’t controlled by the surveillance state. There’s so much good stuff. I’m sure there’s more. We’re probably going to talk about cats and dogs. I don’t know what all we’re going to get into.We’re also going to take questions. I’ve already got three questions incoming to put to the guides. We’re going to turn cards from the upcoming Ennea Oracle deck. Last but not least, I’m going to tell you about the Ennea Oracle deck. Heretofore known as Becoming Dragon, but I’m shifting it to Ennea Oracle because, truly, the Enneagram is the backbone of this deck. My inner wisdom asked me to finish the first section. So I’ve got nine cards all about the Enneagram 3, the overachiever, whose mission it is to be authentic and find our voice. Do you see what we’re up to here?I’ve got nine channeled messages that will be going up on the website soon. The cards are finished, the guidebook is finished, and you can already go to crisbeasley.com and turn a card for free. We’ve got so much to talk about with Enneagram – this beautiful system for understanding the way in which we disconnect from our heart intelligence, the way in which we disconnect from our mental clarity, and the way in which we disconnect from our body and divinity. We have a lot to cover. If there’s one topic I’m most likely going to talk about for the rest of my life, it is the Enneagram.You can always hit reply to any of my emails. They come directly into my inbox. I read every single one, and I will reply to as many as I possibly can. And if you wish to ask a question to the guides, that link will be down in the notes.Be good, but not too good. I’ll see you next time. Much love.Cris This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

It is presently half past nine in the evening. I’m going to attempt to catch the uncatchable, the unputtable-into-words experience of awakening that I had today. I say “awakening” with some amount of scare quotes in there because it feels so wild to say, “Oh hey, I awakened today.”But what I know is that when I was in the experience, it was made very clear to me that there was a part that I touched that was a completely realized, awake being. That’s the first time that I have touched that place before. It was absolutely incredible.What’s funny about this experience is that this feeling of awakening was so profound and so pervasive that I thought all of humanity had awakened. I was like, “Oh shit, it’s already here?! What is today? Like the 13th of January, 14th of January, 2026. I didn’t think we would make it here this fast. Damn, this is awesome, with Trump in the White House, and everything just flayed open, but we made it!”There’s nothing to do.There’s nothing to worry about. Those words, these words, they just don’t fully capture it. It’s so far beyond, which I know sounds stupid, but these words are the best I have, so we make do.I really thought that when I came down out of this high, that I was going to call my friends and that everyone on the planet would have had this awakening experience at the same moment. We would all be like, “Oh gosh, this is amazing.” I literally thought all of humanity had awakened with me.Let me just give you a little context about Bufo. For those of you who have not worked with the medicine or are not familiar with it, it is considered widely to be the most powerful psychedelic on the planet. Some call it the God molecule, 5-MeO-DMT. It is collected from the toad, expressed from the glands on the back. It is a venom that is smoked. Yet it’s so gentle. It is so extraordinary and exquisite.My intention for today has been to dissolve fear because there’s always anxiety that comes up before dosing on the medicine. Then, as I’m inhaling, as it’s kicking in, there’s fear. What’s very merciful about this medicine is that it dissolves the fear. Often, I am doing some amount of purging. The fear physically leaves my body as I am vomiting.Of course, we have this ugly word, vomit, in English. But if I understand correctly, in many other languages, it means to get well. To vomit is to get well. That’s absolutely what I experience every time I go through this process.What is there to say about such an extraordinary, ineffable experience? I thought we all awakened together. I thought the whole planet was having this experience of unity consciousness at the same time as me. It was pretty wild. It was like, well, there’s nothing to do, but we’re not dead, so we might as well do something anyway.It brought a sense of lightness and aliveness. At the same time being poured back into this physical body. It’s an extraordinarily humbling experience coming back into the anger, the layers of, I mean, if you haven’t worked with Bufo. Maybe if you can imagine eight different threads that you’re currently pulling on and investigating in your life. I don’t know. How does the universe work? Is it this way or is that that way? I’m just going to live into this question and see what evidence the universe brings. If I handle it this way, if I wait, if I rush, if I hurry, how is this going to play out?The universe is in conversation with me. It’s like, oh, yeah, that’s how that played out. Oh, okay. Then I can look in the rearview mirror and go, all right, I see what we’re doing here. I see what I’m being asked to shift into.But at any given time, there’s a bunch of those different threads being pulled, many different things, like my cats are not getting along, financial decisions being made, and all these somewhat disconnected questions that I’m living into in my life. There are so many decisions that I need to make. How do I prioritize all these competing things that need to be done?Bufo comes through, and it just pulls on like all eight of those strings at once. So I’m coming back from this profound experience where we are all awake already, everything is perfection, and there is nothing wrong. There’s nothing that I must fix.I think this might be the first time in my life that I’ve ever felt in my body there was nothing for me to fix, nothing for me to do or to figure out or to know that I didn’t already know. So exquisite. Such a relief to know that that place even exists.Then, as I’m poured back into the density of this body, I lay down on my bed, and my body began to… not exactly shake, more like make these very detailed circular movements that felt very much like unbraiding an intricate braid. As I’m doing this, my old patterns of behavior are releasing. I’m saying to myself, “Oh, no. Oh, no, no, no. I will not be doing that thing that I thought I might do. I will not be handling it that way.”My body is shifting. My body is shifting. I’m giving myself permission to feel as I feel. All this new information is coming in as all these different threads get pulled through. It’s just a bit of, I don’t want to say it’s a bit of a mindfuck because that makes it sound like I’m getting scrambled. It’s the opposite of that. It’s that things are being put back into order, even though I have the slightest clue what the order will be once it’s in that order.There’s some deeper surrender to the process that is, yes, it’s founded in trust. Yes, it’s founded in the dissolving of the fear that the medicine has been helping me with for, I don’t know, maybe two, three years. It doesn’t even cost as much as faith or trust. It’s just this allowance of what is happening to happen and not needing to control it so much anymore, which has definitely been a big arrow piercing through the stories of my life.I just don’t have to understand, control, or fix all this stuff. It’s really difficult to accept for some part of me who’s done that my whole life, perhaps taking an identity of being the person who understands well enough to fix, to control. Who am I if I’m not that person who’s the best at fixing and controlling? I don’t know, but I like her. I really like her. The more I do that, the more I like her, meaning me.So, Bufo…I have wanted to talk about it, and then I haven’t wanted to talk about it again, and then I have wanted to talk about it. It’s very complex for me. I don’t come from a lineage of curanderas in the tradition of Bufo. I’m a white woman. I can’t apologize for being a white woman. I also don’t wish to mask, hide, and censor whole portions of my experience.So, I’m talking about this today with some trepidation. I think everybody should by now understand that I’m a white lady talking about a traditional medicine. This only represents my personal perspective. I absolutely don’t recommend that you work with this medicine in the way that I do. I’m only here to share the experience and the perspective for what it is, not to aggrandize it.But also, my tendency has been to shut myself up. I’m really, really lonely when I do that. So, I’m trying to learn to stop making myself invisible and to instead become transparent to myself, transparent to others, and transparent in public. Oh my god, I feel like I could die, but I’m gonna do it anyway. So, here we go.I’ve been working with Bufo in handshake doses, very tiny little doses, because I work primarily by myself. Sometimes I have someone on Zoom. Sometimes I have someone physically, but most of the time I’m working with it, just me and the cats. Don’t you? It’s me, the cats, and a bowl of papaya. That’s what we got. We got a yoga mat. We got some incense.I need to work with a small enough dose that I don’t lose consciousness. I don’t want to endanger myself physically for obvious reasons. It’s been a process of dissolving fear since the very beginning. Every dose dissolves another layer of fear. Every journey, every ceremony dissolves another layer of misunderstanding and helps me remember. Also, it has literally helped my memory come back together.For those of you who’ve been following along for a while, you may remember that I had an accidental overdose, which was Prozac, by the way. I took a month of Prozac by accident due to a pharmacy error, which significantly impacted my nervous system for a very long period of time. I was in bed for seven weeks. I lost down to something like 85 pounds, maybe less. Yeah, it was a really difficult time.I’d been having memory issues for a while that caused a lot of anxiety. I don’t know why it was the case that whenever I would try to use my sound equipment, it would cause immense anxiety to unplug the system and plug it back in. I would just shut down. I could not connect and reconnect my equipment, which made doing one of the things I love the most in the world stressful. It was not good times.I had to get little Tile finders to put on my keys and my wallet. I even tied one to a coat rack so that I wouldn’t have to look for the Tile to find my phone. Anyway, created this whole elaborate system of Tile tags on everything because I just couldn’t do these really basic things, like trying to leave the house. I would go into a spin because I couldn’t find my keys, couldn’t find my wallet.Anyway, I rarely use my Tile tags anymore because my brain got stitched back together in the process of these many journeys. Plugging in my sound equipment is not stressful at all anymore. I’m so beyond humbled and grateful that this medicine exists and that I was brought into it by a dear soul sister of mine, which makes me cry. I feel so grateful that I get to do this work with this medicine.Today, I did two successive small doses and hit this level of consciousness. I hit a well of what it is to be a fully awakened, realized being. I remember what it felt like. I’m not going to forget what that feels like ever. I’ll never forget it.I’ve been doing these small doses not only for my physical safety, but because I want to stay conscious for this medicine as much as possible. I want to build up the ability. This may be crazy talk. This may be the ego talk. I don’t know. Who knows? I’m going to surrender to the journey with this medicine, but there’s this part of me that has put a stake, like planted a flag in the ground that says, I want to remember the goddess. I want to go in and break through. I want to stay conscious. I want to remember what happens in my journey because it’s really common for people to white out and then come back. That may happen to me, who knows how it’s going to be? But today I was able to get to a higher level and to stay conscious with it. This is probably after I don’t even know how many journeys over the course of two, three years, dozens probably. I mean, I’ve done five in a month.It’s working.What we’re doing, what all of us are doing, what we’re all doing is working. It is working. It might sound naive, but there’s some part of me that knows that this thing that I touched today, where we did it, and we’re all awake, there’s a way that that is true. There’s a way that it’s real. I can’t make you believe it. I don’t want you to believe it in that sense, but there’s some layer of truth hidden within us that is becoming visible rapidly. It is changing what it is to be a citizen of Earth at this moment.Everybody on earth knows it. We all know it.Name the person that you think is the most horrible person on earth. I would still say there is a part of them that knows this. There is a core kernel of them that knows why they’re here.Okay, I could wax poetic, but it is time for me to go to bed. If you have had anything like a similar experience where you had an awakening of feeling this sense that you visited the place where we’re all awake now, you know, like now, already now, and you knew or you knew you were a fully aware soul, I’d be super curious to hear any bits of your experience that you might share as someone who’s just had that experience.I now really get the expression, “Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.” Of course, my version of that’s more like, “Before enlightenment, load the dishwasher. After enlightenment, load the dishwasher.”There’s nothing to do. Everything is perfect. Yet and also… here I am, an infinite being in a finite material reality. There’s nothing to do, but I’m not dead yet, so I might as well do something. ;)Okay, my friends, as always, take care and be good, but not too good.crisbeasley.substack.comcrisbeasley.comcrisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

What if the whole “find your passion in life” is just a bait-and-switch to keep you from noticing the real heist—your birthright to create without selling the tenderest parts of your soul at a yard sale? In the next seventeen minutes, we’ll follow the money trail from your kitchen-table “just-for-fun” doodles to the boardrooms that still can’t decide whether femmework counts as labor, and we’ll land on a dead-simple rule: the yang job pays the rent, the yin joy pays the soul, and never the twain shall invoice on the same stationery. Stay with us—by the end you’ll know exactly how to protect the part of you that sings from the part of you that files taxes, and why mixing them up makes even trillionaires miserable. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Well, this one’s a tearjerker…TranscriptSo this is my mama, Paula Beasley, on the day of her graduation. She was living in Cape Girardeau, Missouri, and we were living in Pocahontas, Arkansas. My mom didn’t raise me. She was disabled from birth, so my granny raised me, Virginia Beasley. She was looking very mysterious, a little mischievous here in this picture, which I really like. She didn’t look like this so often, but when I see this picture of her, I’m like, oh yeah, I’m definitely related to that lady. The story tonight is actually about my grandfather, Paul. This is the first year Paul has been on the Dia de Muertos altar. He’s my beloved Uncle Joe’s brother. Uncle Joe was a big fixture in my life. My other uncles were a big deal as well, but I didn’t hardly know my grandfather. I put him on the table this year for the first time. I’ve been working on forgiveness. This is a hard story for me to tell. I’ve been mad at my grandfather for a long time, and he’s been dead a long time. My particular cosmology is that when you die, you have a life review. He died, and he saw what he did, but I’ve still been holding in my body a lot of hatred, to be honest, because he cheated on my granny. When she divorced him, he disowned my mother, and my aunt, and me. He actually told his brother Joe he would disown him, too if he continued to have anything to do with us, but my uncle Joe told his brother what he could do with it. So Joe was still in my life. [neighbor dogs barking] Oh, the doggies, the doggies here. I think they’re upset by this story as well. So I was mad like them dogs, and I’m still partly mad, but I know it’s just poison in my bones. Forgiveness is not a process I understand, but I am asking for the wisdom of it to move through me. It felt like it was time for me to put him on my ofrenda for Dia de Muertos this year. When I did, I heard him say, “thank you,” and I started crying. My guides said to me today that those on the other side love us unconditionally, even when we hate them. Because I know it wasn’t his soul, it was his personality that did these horrible things. His soul has to do its work, and he’ll move through this in a different way in the next go-round. So I honor his time here. I honor his making my mama so I could come to this earth and be who I am, and I say thank you.So that’s my story for Muertos 2025. Sending y’all love wherever you are. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

“What henceforth cometh after such a strange week…” That’s what I’ve been wondering. Are you in strange times? All the people in my bubble are bumping around, breaking some old old old old old patterns, and finding themselves in brand new territory. I had so much energy pouring out of my solar plexus after watching a random Anne Hathaway cougar romcom that I could barely speak.All the details and more in today’s voice note…Don’t forget – this Friday the 24th is our free new moon gathering, The Hearth. Have a quandry in your relationships, career, or tribes? We got you. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

In this raw, mud-footed transmission, the guides unpack five seismic truths:* Money is both scarce and bottomless—two radio stations broadcasting at once. Which one you tune to decides whether you slave or steward.* Every wall ever built (Berlin, China, the one in your head) is a desperate spell against death; the guides reveal why the spell is already broken.* War and peace aren’t opposites—they’re a single polarity you can slide like a dimmer switch. The switch is hidden inside your calendar, your pantry, your bank app.* Self-trust isn’t a mood; it’s a muscle grown by the daily vow: “Even if some days I might look unfit to run my own life, I still trust the one who gets up and keeps the promises.”* AI is the rhythm we’re wiring into our own nervous systems. The first genre has been written by hedge-fund hive-minds; the next can be written by the singers —if we remember the building blocks are the meaning we give our language, and the instruction is “your north star is beauty.”Listen to the end for the multi-dimensional democracy question: does the timeline of peace need a majority vote, or a frequency shift? And why your grandmother’s soup embodies more advanced economics than the World Bank will ever put on in a press release.Note: this was recorded in 2023 and the audio quality isn’t great. My apologies in advance. I’ve upgraded to better equipment now.Events, the Becoming Dragon oracle, etc:crisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Greetings dear readers,October’s here, and the Becoming Dragon reboot is roaring ahead. I’ve wrapped the first draft of the art for the nine cards of the Enneagram 3. Ultimately, it will feature 82 round, double-sided cards that flip front-to-back for reversals like a coin. Add a digital guidebook, deeper Enneagram geometry baked into every card, and a possible PhD at Pacifica University to validate it all with AI linguistic analysis, and you’ve got the decade-spanning dharma that’s munching contentedly at my copious spare time, lol.I will start with the Enneagram 3, as that’s my core type. A stressed-out Enneagram 3s runs on approval: we’ll become whatever keeps rent paid, the memberships to the cool kids tribes current and valid, and/or the significant other happy until we can’t tell the role from the soul. If overachieving, identity blur, or the terror of being useless rings true, hit the button to submit an anonymous question—your story could shape a card, a post, or both.ASK A QUESTION This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

This month's installment of funny, pretty, and weird rabbit holes takes us to the tribal lands of Arizona to inquire about extra-terrestrials. Did we meet them? Do they have exotic fruits and appetizers to share with us? You'll have to listen to find out.CONVIVVIUM Soul Family Reunion Dec 2-6, 2025 near Mexico Cityconvivvium.orgMore Official Criscrisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

If you prefer, it is available on Spotify and Apple Podcasts as well as Substack. Please do give us a 5-star rating and help this brand-new show get off the ground, btw. We read all reviews, so drop us a love note there.Enneagram 8: the bulldozerThe wound is the terror that your feelings—especially the oceanic anger—are simply too big for any human container, so you stay small or explode and watch people flee. Enneagram 8 work is planetary homework for everyone, because unprocessed big energy shows up in despots, lovers, and your own midnight panic. This energy is highly at work on the planet right now, and today’s episode paints the dots on the road to find your way through this apparent chaos. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

I taught this superpower to one of my longest-running clients, someone who’s raised hundreds of millions of dollars for progressive causes, who gets the random call from Senators here and there whose ass is in a cinch.If you’ve been following this for long, you’ll already know that last August I went to the ER with seizures, etc, and got quite ill for months. Needless to say, I was a bit concerned that I wouldn’t be able to show up for him at the level he had been accustomed to. I got on the first call after the incident, and he said, “You’re worth every penny we ever paid you, just for what happened this week.”This skill in the audio below saved him from a Whole Lotta Drama at key pinch moment where the shit absolutely could not hit the fan. I so wish I could tell you even one detail because it is quite juicy, but alas, client privacy… I digress.He had executed this new level of conflict resolution all on his own, given that I had been out sick. Not only that, but it had been almost no effort for him to do so. This exceeded his old way of dealing with people so massively that he’s never gone back.This was his crossing-over moment when he knew 100% in his bones that he was confident in himself.Even if U.S. senators don’t have you on speed dial, I’m confident this will be of use to you also if you wish to add to your kit of superpowers.--- I'm now opening up to take on new 1:1 clients. More about meIs it your mission in life to be a bridge? We are gathering the bridges in Mexico Dec 2-6, 2025.convivvium.org This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

I got a headache during meditation today, that’s how much the fear mind did NOT want me to publish this. Nonetheless, I’m pushing this big boulder out into the world. If we are as sick as our secrets, this act means I am getting well.IYMCI, the previous two episodes will make it much easier to understand the context of what's presented here.MJ Dorian's episode on the Devil in the tarot on Spotify or Apple PodcastsWork with me: http://crisbeasley.comAre you a bridge between worlds? We're gathering those called to translate between left and right, yin and yang, head and heart in Mexico in December 2025. Find out more at: http://convivvium.org This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Here’s part two of the biggest crash and burn of my life. I went all the way down the mystical rabbit hole/hell and came out the other side with some handy new things in my pockets. The tagline of this Substack might as well be “I fuck up so you don’t have to.”You’re welcome.More about CONVIVVIUM, the soul-family reunion in Tepoztlan, Mexico can be found at http://convivvium.orgAll the things Cris at http://crisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

It happened in Egypt. Of course, it happened in Egypt. Whomever is scriptwriting my life is a flair for the dramatic.P.S. This begins a phase of more audio-based episodes. These are now also available on Spotify, Apply, Overcast, and PocketCast. It may take a few days for everything to appear all the places, but please let me know if you don’t find them.Stay tuned for next week’s thrilling continuation – How NOT to Twin Flame.More of my magic, event, oracle deck, etc at crisbeasley.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

If you’re doing the work to heal money wounds and rewire old stories about worth, this one’s for you.It’s about untangling earning from deserving—two things we’ve been taught to confuse. This isn’t a money mindset pep talk. It’s a real moment from my own life, standing in front of a car I could afford but wasn’t sure if I deserved.Call it subconscious reprogramming. Call it remembering what’s always been true. Either way, I hope it meets you where you are.I woke up this happy, good Monday morning—the start of April—with a burning transmission about earning versus deserving, and I wanted to start to untangle those concepts, 'cause they are quite separate. Meaningfully separate. But… whatever it is—capitalist control structures, let’s call it—they’ve muddied the waters. It previously hasn’t been time for these concepts to become clear, but now it is time.I’m gonna tell some stories from my own life.I had a really hard time buying the car that I now drive. Let’s just cover that this is a 1995 Celica I bought for 85,000 pesos—like $4,200. And still, I struggled with: do I buy this? Do I not buy this? I had to move some money around, and it wasn’t the best time for me to be making a big purchase.I’m struggling with another big purchase again, 'cause I’ve got a little over a thousand dollars’ worth of water purification stuff I’d really, really like to purchase for my home. My goal is to make these decisions without justifying that I deserve these things—'cause that’s shaky ground. I could feel I was standing on bullshit.When I said, “I deserve this car,” I knew I didn’t effin’ deserve this car. If anybody deserves this car, everybody deserves this car. In Mexico, cars are quite a luxury. Just the gas alone to keep one going, much less the cost of maintenance, purchasing, insurance, all that.It’s more than that though, a world in which everyone has a car means no one can drive anywhere because the traffic is too bad. There’s more to unpack about a basic right to transportation than I can cover in this post, so put a pin in that, please.So I knew I didn’t “deserve” the damn car, but I also had this upwelling sensation that it was correct for me to buy it, so I had to find the ground to actually stand on. Where I landed was: I earned the money. I have the money. There’s no problem.I was checking in with my guides, checking in with divinity. There’s no problem with me buying the car. Well, why? Why do I get to buy a car if I don’t deserve it? Because I earned it. It’s really straightforward. I earned the money. I received the gift of this money from people who happily gave it to me, and now I get to happily give it to Enrique who’s selling it and would be delighted to sell it to me.Earning and deserving have to be disentangled when you reach a certain point in your energetic journey—when you're cleaning out the gunk: the resentment, the hunger for more, the overcorrections, the reactivity, the repression. Pulling those two concepts apart clears out some of the cruft. It helps us start to feel into where society is fractured—where the story no longer holds.What are the underlying things we all deserve?We all deserve clean water. Unfortunately, the vast majority of the world doesn’t have clean water. I don’t wanna go on a whole tirade about that, but it’s such a fundamental human right. That’s the difference: if I deserve it, everybody deserves it. Everybody deserves clean water. I'm gonna stand on that. It’s absolutely fundamental to our health as human beings. We deserve clean air. We deserve clean food. We deserve clean homes. We deserve a home that is stable and safe.There are things we just deserve. Humans have always deserved them. Does everybody always have them? No. That’s not the case. But don’t get tangled up in the evidence that because not everybody has it, you don’t deserve it either. No. We all deserve what we all deserve. This is what I’d love to see us have more compassion around. How do we start to orient into a world where our actions bring about that superabundance for everyone Because the world in which everyone has clean water is a very different world than the one we inhabit.So buy what you buy. Be a good steward of the money you’ve earned. And I have a lot more humility now that I don’t think I "deserve" this car, you know what I mean? Like—it’s a gift. The money I received for my labor was a gift. My labor was a gift to them. Their money was a gift to me. And with that gift, I gifted myself a car. But it’s just a gift, and it can be taken away.I just had my cell phone stolen.The trick is removing your self-worth from your money in the bank and your material possessions. When you treat them with that lightness—that they are a gift—you take back your power from any thieves. And you can genuinely enjoy.I know I’m not gonna have that '95 Celica forever. It’s a 30-year-old car. It might stop running. I might have to junk it. I might get in a crash. Somebody might steal it. Who knows? I might die.I might still have that car in 2095 when I’m planning on dying. I doubt it, but who knows? Maybe. Maybe it'll be running on zero-point energy by then. That’d be hilarious. Maybe it'll be a flying Celica. That’d be hilarious too.But still—I’ll lose it at the point of death.That just makes it a much lighter and more enjoyable journey with our money and our possessions. Because even if you have a lot of money and a lot of possessions, it’s no cure for that anxiety. There is no amount of money that will heal your money wounds. There’s just not.If you don’t think Elon Musk has money wounds—or Bezos, or any of the millionaires or billionaires, most of whom we don’t even know the names of because they just wanna live in secret… their money kinda ruins their life. They have to live these strange lives where they hide from fame because so many people want their money.Oh my God—it’s tragic and hilarious at the same time.They don’t even know if people are in their life for the right reasons. Everybody’s motives get questioned—their wife, their children—the money poisons every interaction they have until they make peace with it.It’s literally true no matter how poor or how rich: this essential aspect of healing your deservingness, healing your relationship to how you earn, how you spend, how you hold the life force that is money in your being, in your body—that’s the work.Moving through the old programming we’ve all been given—that had its space and time, but is now being upgraded. It will not get us where we’re going, and the whole world is coming to that realization right now.So: earning versus deserving. Hold that in your contemplation, please. I’d love to hear what comes up for you.More on this theme: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

[content warning: sexual violence, Trump]Section 3 of the 14th Amendment is a post-Civil War clause designed to keep traitors out of office. It bars anyone who’s sworn an oath to the Constitution and then engaged in insurrection or rebellion from holding public office ever again. After the January 6 incident, it’s not just a relic—it’s a tiny magic key, daring us to decide whether accountability still matters in American democracy.We are taught to be ignorant.Gisèle Pelicot is a woman whose brutal abuse has become a symbol of how social norms fail women and protect perpetrators. Women are tracking this case not because we like it. I am reading this like my life depends on it – because it does. My naivete when it comes to dark power games could well spell my death, and I’m just way over it.The men involved tried to deflect blame, framing their violence as inevitable. Her story isn’t just about what happened to her—it’s about the reality that we are taught to be ignorant of how to protect ourselves from abusers. We are taught to accept things that are unacceptable. I, for one, am tired of wringing my hands on the sidelines like a nagging ninny and wondering how to get people to respect my basic humanity.The excuses Democrats make for refusing to challenge Trump’s eligibility under the 14th Amendment have a haunting similarity to the justifications offered by the men convicted of raping Gisele Pelicot. In both cases, we see the same playbook: deflect responsibility, reframe harm as unavoidable, and prioritize self-interest over doing what’s right. Most of the quotes below by the convicted men are from an article by The Independent, ‘Mr Everyman’: Who are the 51 men who sexually abused Gisèle Pelicot?1. Deflecting Responsibility* Democrats: They say it’s not up to us to decide—this is about the will of the voters. They position themselves as powerless bystanders, conveniently forgetting they have both the tools and the mandate to intervene when democracy is at stake. Forgive the scare caps, but scary times ask for extreme capitalization: YOU CANNOT JUSTIFY CERTIFING A DICTATOR IN THE NAME OF UPHOLDING DEMOCRATIC PRINCIPLES. Do you see the irony in this?* Pelicot’s Abusers: “As long as the husband was present, there was no rape,” said Adrien Longeron, 34, site manager. They didn’t see themselves as active participants in a violent, systemic failure—they were just going along with the flow, right? You cannot justify raping a woman in the name of pleasing her husband.2. Framing Harm as Unavoidable* Democrats: They say challenging Trump would cause chaos, harm trust in institutions, and probably fail in court. They paint voting in a dictator as the more stable, adult choice—as if stability is a virtue when the house is burning down.* Abusers: “I didn’t go there intending to rape,” said Fabien Sotto, father of four. They frame their actions as inevitable or justified by the circumstances. It’s a perverse kind of logic where abdication of power gets dressed up as rational plan any normal person would undertake.3. Prioritizing Self-Interest* Democrats: Their real fear is political—losing votes, alienating moderates, or adding fuel to Trump’s victimhood narrative. Protecting their own electoral viability becomes more important than protecting the Constitution. The irony here is their long-standing complicity when the chips are down is what lost them the election in the first place. * Abusers: They prioritized their own desires over someone else’s humanity. Jérôme Vilela, 46, ex-volunteer fireman, admitted that he knew she was unconscious but returned to commit the same crime six times anyway. Letting themselves off the hook was easier than grappling with the damage they caused. 4. Fear of Making Drama* Democrats: They’re terrified of the blowback—being labeled as overreaching, fueling Trump’s base, or being blamed for “undermining democracy.” So, they take the path of least resistance, even when it leads straight to moral failure. “Democratic leaders are saying publicly and privately they want a drama-free transfer of power,” says Politico.* Abusers: They leaned on excuses like “her husband insisted” to sidestep accountability. They caved to an abuser and became abusers themselves. Simoné Mekenes, 43, their neighbor, said the husband “manipulated me and I fell into his trap.”The Common ThreadBoth cases are about power—and the refusal to wield it responsibly. Democrats have institutional power and the backing of the best intentions of the Founding Fathers, but they’re paralyzed by their fear of how it will harm their brand and possibly cost future elections. Pelicot’s abusers wielded personal power and used it to harm. Both groups cloaked their choices in the language of the status quo, hiding the deep cowardice of their decisions.The truth is, they both had choices. They just didn’t want to deal with the discomfort of making the hard ones. Whether it’s protecting democracy or protecting a person, there’s no excuse for using the power that’s been invested in you to make a bad situation worse. There’s no excuse for certifying this election.Democracy, like justice, doesn’t thrive on timidity. It thrives on bold action—and yes, on taking risks.We have a Minority Whip people-pleasing a sociopathic dictator in the name of not looking like a sore loser. They are literally more concerned about the next mid-term and 2028 than the vote that’s days away. They literally think letting the country burn while pointing at the other side and saying “it wasn’t me, it was him” will get them elected next time. They’re still playing middle school games and losing. They’re trying to play their same strategy game even though they were quite demonstrably out-strategized twice by a clown. In middle school, the biggest bully always wins. This must stop, and it goes for Republicans too. They had their party taken away from them for a whole lot of the same reasons. Politicians of all stripes must grow up and define a new game. The election in 2020 was the last election the Democrats were even going to win with politics as usual. Trump has been wagging the dog for how many years and they still haven’t had the come-to-Jesus moment of how to get it to stop. Are the Peter Pans in office not exhausted of the blame game by now? The American people are. The downward trend on this graph shouldn’t surprise anyone. Congress’s approval rating sunk even further to 13% this year. “The integrity of our democratic process depends on the peaceful transfer of power. Donald Trump has decided that the only valid elections are elections he wins,” Minority Whip Katherine Clark (D-Mass.) said in a statement to POLITICO. “He is the only President who has supported an insurrection rather than accept the will of the American people. Democrats will always ensure every vote counts and that we uphold our democracy.”With all due respect, she’s lost her damn mind.The Constitution makes it entirely clear that the President-elect's insurrection supersedes the people's vote. If I wrote the statement, it would read: “The integrity of our democratic process depends on the integrity of those in positions of power, most especially in the highest office. Donald Trump has decided that the only valid elections are elections he wins, but the law does not allow him to be inaugurated [..] Democrats will always ensure every clause of the Constitution counts and that we uphold our democracy.”It’s unethical to abide by the Constitution only when it’s convenient for your party’s marketing campaign. Our elected leaders must enforce the law of the land 100% of the time, even if that means they are unpopular and get voted out. Their job isn’t to get reelected, their job is to govern.That’s what we trust them for. That’s what we pay them for. That’s what they sign up to do when they take the oath. The question of whether this tactic would hold up in the Supreme Court work misses my point entirely. They must uphold the law even if someone else later overturns them. They are not responsible for what others do later on down the line, but they are responsible for the votes they cast. This isn’t a gentlemen’s game of chess, this is the collapse of the biggest superpower on the planet because leaders on both sides of the aisle have forgotten that with great power comes great responsibility.Politicians on both sides are basing their long game on a fantasy. There ain’t no point in thinking about midterms when the vote on January 6, 2025, will change the course of the nation. If they do not find the time to make some drama about a despot there well may not be any election in 2028, y’all, or it may be so manipulated that it’s all for show. “Christians, get out and vote! Just this time. You won't have to do it anymore! Four more years, you know what? It'll be fixed, it'll be fine, you won't have to vote anymore." — President-elect TrumpDo you really think he’s kidding?This man is so addicted to vainglory that he never intends to leave office. He felt the pain of being ignored for the years he was out of office and out of the public eye, and he’s more emboldened than ever. You have to realize this man is incapable of feeling happiness, only a momentary respite from suffering when he gets a shot of ego validation. His hunger for it is infinite, and he will stop at nothing to prevent his narcissistic supply from being cut off again. The truth of this situation stares Congress right in the face, but it is so big and horrifying that they can’t look at it. Being blind to the power games of narcissists has been deadly to individuals for a long time, and it’s now deadly to the human race. Do you really think we have four more years to wait for justice? IF SOMETHING IS UNACCEPTABLE, THEN DO NOT ACCEPT IT.IF SOMETHING IS UNACCEPTABLE, THEN DO NOT ACCEPT IT.IF SOMETHING IS UNACCEPTABLE, THEN DO NOT ACCEPT IT.The only day for justice is today. This is a public episode. 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Let's unpack the comment –"Male sexuality is the attraction to teenagers." It was a reply to a post by Benebell Wen on the Tao Te Ching and feminism.CW: I will be examining the origins of men’s attraction to underage girls in order to untangle them/us from the ways in which their sexuality has been manipulated by private corporations to serve profit interests. This will be one of my more intense posts, so please check with your deeper intuition to see if you have space to process this.COURSE http://crisbeasley.com/mavenDRAW A CARD http://becomingdragon.comSUBSTACK ESSAYS http://becomingdragon.substack.com This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Finally… FINALLY, I have clarity on what’s up with narcissists – their motivations, hopes, loves, fears, secret doubts, and the subtle ways you might still be giving your life force away to them. My father was a narcissist, and I was raised in a substantially narcissistic culture called the United States of America. I love them both, still, but I no longer give my power away to them.The voiceover version of this essay covers MUCH more, as you can see by the 35-minute runtime.If your life has been bent by narcissists and/or narcissistic systems of power and you would like that to cease and desist immediately, I know you’re gonna want more detail than what I’ve written here.It cuts off abruptly when my doorbell rings, but I’ll be back with part 2 soon!We will be doing a course in Spring 2024 that dives way deep into this so you can fully reclaim your sovereignty. Get on the waitlist to get the early bird discount as soon as we launch.crisbeasley.com/maven This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe

Welcome to the first episode of the Becoming Dragon podcast! I’ve been knowing it would come to this for some time. I’m surprised it took so long, and I’m surprised it’s already here. Such are the comic games of the brain.Brains do funny things, don’t they? Well here’s a bedtime whisper for when you can’t fall asleep for the excessive quantity of worrying about all the things you wish you had already done.Please hit reply and let me know how this goes for you. If there’s demand, we might do a lot more of these. I surely am hoping so. If the earthquake that we just had as I was typing this, we are onto something ground shaking. 💜😘More Becoming Dragon magic at… You guessed it, becomingdragon.com where you can draw a card about whatever emotional thinking error might be at play in your procrastination. Hard copies of the cards are available if you have hands that like to deal and shuffle. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit crisbeasley.substack.com/subscribe