027 | How Suffering Changed His Faith | Jenahl Alexander

Character | Worship | Near-Death Experience | Grilling Meats | HomosexualityIn this deeply personal episode of Hold This Thought, Christian sits down with worship leader and longtime mentor Jenahl Alexander for a wide-ranging conversation about faith, suffering, worship, excellence, doubt, leadership, and the moments that shape who we become.What begins as a conversation about in-ear monitors and church sound systems quickly evolves into something far deeper. Jenahl opens up about nearly dying from kidney disease, the emotional and spiritual valleys that followed, and the miraculous moments that transformed the way he sees God’s provision. Together, they unpack the difference between performative worship and genuine surrender, why discipline matters for musicians and leaders, and how doubt continues to exist even after experiencing miracles firsthand. Jenahl also shares a personal conviction on how Christians should view and respond to Homosexuality today.The conversation also explores church culture, mentorship, craftsmanship, grilling, creativity, humility, personal growth, and the importance of taking your eyes off yourself in order to truly see God and the people around you.Chapters:00:00 | Introduction & In-Ear Monitor Conversation07:18 | Better Sound, Better Worship Experiences14:05 | The Difference Between Worship & Performance20:31 | Why Musicians Need Discipline & Practice27:52 | Church Culture, Structure, and Leadership35:44 | Burnout, Sabbaticals, and Finding Balance42:16 | Jenahl’s Kidney Disease Journey Begins49:11 | Hospital Pain, Fear, and Wrestling With Doubt56:08 | God’s Provision During The Transplant Process1:03:14 | Mentorship Memories & Grilling Discovery1:10:03 | Steak Techniques, Charcoal, and Cooking Tips1:17:12 | Sauces, Food Quality, and Modern Conditioning1:24:41 | Travel, Perspective, and Learning From People1:31:52 | Humility, Leadership, and Serving Others1:39:27 | Letting Your Light Shine Publicly1:47:08 | How Christians Should Respond to Homosexuality1:54:46 | Final Reflections, Faith, and Keeping Our Eyes On God