03. Dark intermissions: an informal conversation about the darkness

When it comes to healing, we may find ourselves pushing toward the light, but also find the dark pushing back. I promised to be a friend in both, so here I am - in the dark with you. In this episode, I talk about the feelings that come up when comparing my traumatized life to the life of someone I found to be extraordinary and healthy. I talk honestly about the loss of this friendship, as well as my struggles with slipping back into eating disorder behavior. As I look back, I find it hard to see all that I’ve missed out on - seeing trauma, bad relationships, and disordered behavior rule my life for so many years - but, ultimately, I don’t decide to stay there. Come with me as I take you into the shadows of my mind, with the hope that showing you my way, will help you find your way too.