10 Cock views a Day for 10 Days? Nein.

I thought what could be good and fun piece to write about would only be a disservice to men and their cocks. I don't want to undo what my play partner had healed in me, my views of men, ego and their dicks.  Had hurt feelings in the past not feeling good enough and not worthy, but shouldn't I be adored for worshipping his cock for hours- "should'ing" on self is not a good idea. Objectification, me not liking it, really just abandonment fears? Maybe those that objectify are projecting their abandonment fears? My words and my actions, are prayers of grateful moments- I can't just 'say words', I can't just 'pretend an act'; I want to lift you to your higher self not feed your ego.  Likely not having sex.