114. Roland’s Addiction Story

Despite speaking about most of my behaviors over the years. I’ve never shared my sex addiction story on this Podcast before. In this episode, I walk listeners through my journey front to back. My childhood and how things led me to acting out. My early sexual acting-out behaviors and how they evolved. The events that caused me to develop my specific process addiction in my adulthood My discovery process While I’m quite open about my behavior. This was still a scary episode to record. Our world is not ready to accept sex addicts as they are. There is a ton of judgment and, oftentimes, social consequences if people find out about your past behavior. I’ve lived those consequences. I’ve been judged and continue to be judged. I’ve lost friends, businesses, and opportunities because of how public I’ve been about my past. It sucks. Many people won’t let you have this problem. And, that’s not fair. But my hope is that, by being open and sharing my story, the world will one day stop looking at us like freaks and perverts. I always encourage men to be honest about this, but I do want to prepare you for the potential consequences of doing so. For the betrayed partners who listened to this episode, thank you for taking the time to hear my story. I know I speak on behalf of all men in recovery when I say: Thank you for giving us a second chance. We don’t deserve it after what we’ve put you through.