12. What fiving means to me (part 1)

What I mean when I say I’m an enneagram 5 with a 4 wing (5w4): revisiting the foundational conceptual frame for this podcast. The episode ends with the full song “Five” by Sleeping At Last (with a run time 5:55, of course). Tendencies include:  Hoarding ideas, dreams, favors, credits, intellectual resources and physical materials for just-in-case use in the future. Hiding my vulnerability and retreating into an appropriate social role, especially when I sense meaningful connection isn’t available. Straight up dissociating. This can take several different forms. Sometimes shutting down and going numb and coming back to my experiencing self later.  Getting hung up on details; sometimes not being able to move forward or take a stance if I feel I don’t have a super solid foundation of understanding of something.  Feeling deeply and only finding language for those feelings later, sometimes much much later and the words still feel inadequate.  More in the next episode.  🌸  Are you a five or do you think you could be? Let me know if any of these are true for you.