2023.10.03_CBT W1D7 - I really struggle with important doings

I've done practically nothing productive. There's a stark contrast between knowing what I should do and actually doing it. I prefer thinking over doing, but even planning feels overwhelming. There's strong resistance, and my mind shuts off, leading to emotional decline. I tend to escape, distract, or avoid tasks, and I struggle to understand this pattern. Even if I comprehend it, the challenge remains: I still have to act.