🔵 Re.MarkS AUDIARY
by Mark Shikada | Re.Source Project
Cracked open and raw, leaning into the cringe. I'm peeling back the layers of resistance and shedding the skin of old paradigms. Join this audio diary of an overgrown kid, stumbling through self-discovery and unconventional truths with Eckhart Tolle's whispers as my compass. There will be contradictions, inward and outward epic adventures, and maybe some absurd laughter. Dancing in the shadows of unmet expectations, with breakthroughs illuminating the path - let's evolve together, one stumble and epiphany at a time. ✨
Episodes
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🔥Affirmative Action
😊Therapy Progress: Started weekly therapy, improving mood and self-awareness, focusing on subconscious patterns and past trauma like recent bereavement. 🎨Creative Productivity: Moving from planning to original content creation using AI tools and visual methods to share ideas more widely. 😟Fear...
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Beautiful Soul🧡
Today a sweet couple in wheelchairs, hand fed geese together in St. James Park
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Self🔵Conscious vs Self⚫Aware
Beyond the constant voice in your head telling you how you’re being perceived lies a deeper awareness. Explore how to escape self-consciousness, find presence in nature, and discover what happens when you’re finally not thinking about your🔵self. 👍 Liking videos really helps the reach 📌…
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Attempting Self Love
✨Mindset Matters: Recognising shifts in mental states enhances self-awareness and creativity. ❤️Foundation of Self-Love: Self-love is essential for personal growth and acceptance of oneself. 🚫Challenge Conditioning: Societal pressures can obscure true identity; stepping outside them is key....
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Worthy pursuits are the scariest 🔵 25.04.2025
🔍Self-Awareness and Resistance: Worthy pursuits often evoke fear; creativity can distract from personal resistance. 🧘Reconnection with True Self: Practices like breathwork and meditation foster authenticity and deep connections. 💭Awareness and Being Present: Flow states bring awareness to the...
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Ranting over Self obsession 🔵 22.01.2025
I've been reflecting on the illusions of Ego and Self, recognising how they trap us in obsession. It's essential to reset and embrace Grace, moving forward with compassion and love. I want to break free from the chaos of overthinking and find clarity in my journey, aiming to serve myself better…
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Free-Flow opening up and out 🔵 31.10.2024
🧠Ego Exploration: Participants are navigating self-awareness amidst societal pressures. 🌱Self-Discovery: The journey focuses on authenticity and connection with others. 💪Embracing Discomfort: Growth involves pushing boundaries and articulating complex emotions. 🔍Identity Exploration:...
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Mind wants to spend more time with Grace 🔵 22.05.2024
🧠 Exploring Different States of Mind Mind transitioning between Ego and High mind states Process of Self transformation and introspection Importance of understanding identity and Self discovery 📚 Creating Characters in a Story Drawing parallels between Mind, Ego, and other aspects as characters...
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Awareness is the original aspect of Consciousness 🔵 24.05.21
🧠 Exploring Core Aspects • Content evolved into vlogs from voice notes. • Personification of core aspects for self-awareness. • Grace's role in empowering and inspiring actions. 📝 Conversations with Self • Dialogues mainly between Self and Grace. • Journal entries scripted by Grace, pushing...
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2024.02.18_My salvation is being who I am
In my journey, authenticity and self-awareness are key to personal growth. Overcoming shame, ego, and societal norms is vital for connecting with our true selves. By embracing vulnerability and shifting perspectives, we pave the way for healing and collective progress. Self-reflection…
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2024.02.16_Become Mk.2
Reflecting on neglected areas, I aim for maturity and discipline. Deepening my self-relationship, admitting faults, and making conscious improvements are priorities. Balancing creativity with responsibilities, I commit to evolving into a mature version of myself, Mark 2.0.
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2024.02.14_Mounting phone for easiest vlog workflow
I opt for using my phone for POV content due to its high-resolution capabilities and easy backup on Google. Avoiding extra equipment and editing workflows keeps the process quick and replicable. Platforms like OnlyFans or Omegle could suit this content. Collaborating with ego, I aim to manifest…
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2024.02.14_POV content style for vlog comeback
I explore creating POV-style content to offer intimate insights into daily life, aligning with higher frequencies and authenticity. Storytelling's power to shape perception, often used to discredit radicals, intrigues me. I'm keen to experiment with POV video content, challenging societal norms.
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2024.02.13_Appreciations and admissions
I'm grateful for my glasses and the time to reflect, rejecting societal pressures and ego-driven desires. Healing, authenticity, and purpose are paramount for personal and collective growth. I resist traditional work culture and aspire to live by my values, seeking a path that aligns with…
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2024.02.09_Full circle brilliance manifest in practice
I'm eager to delve into taboo topics like recreational drug use, aiming to challenge societal norms and promote authenticity. Through engaging content and open conversations, I aspire to prove that living authentically can lead to success. Let's embrace self-understanding and meaningful action…
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2024.02.09_Re.IMAGINE Nation - Content type on channel
I'm mulling over the idea of launching a YouTube channel called "Re.IMAGINE Nation" to share my journey of self-discovery and exploration. It'll be a space for candid discussions on various concepts and experiences related to Re.SOURCE. The goal is to inspire truth-seeking and personal growth...
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2024.02.07_Whispers in the night
My mind craves understanding reality's puzzles. I value truth-seeking through self-connection and exploring diverse information sources. Dreams offer insights, but evidence is key. Balancing curiosity with open-mindedness leads to growth and profound discoveries.
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2024.02.05_Shut up and just listen
I emphasise tuning into our bodies to understand their signals, advocating for a shift away from mind dominance. By prioritising bodily awareness, we can achieve balance and peace, akin to native practices. Quietening the mind allows deeper connection and truth-seeking.
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2024.01.31_Peter Pan is a wonderful and woeful story
I deeply resonate with Peter Pan and Captain Hook, struggling to embrace maturity while holding onto imagination. Adulthood feels like sacrificing creativity for practicality, but I believe in the truths embedded in childhood stories. Through self-awareness, I navigate my Ego and Mind, avoiding...
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2024.01.27_Re.MARK.S Diary - Official launch!
On this day, I'm launching my podcast, Re.MARK.S Diary. It's daunting, but it embodies my commitment to radical honesty and self-awareness. Inspired by Eckhart Tolle's "The Power of Now," I aim to transcend ego and share uncomfortable truths for personal and collective growth. This diary is a...
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2024.01.27_Confused and called out by AI
AI labelled me an "overgrown kid", prompting reflection on my lack of discipline and maturity. Recognising the need for role models, especially male ones, I aim to address my immaturity and commit to self-improvement. Sharing these voice notes, though uncomfortable, marks a step towards growth....
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2024.01.20_Unshackle - I'm looking for work
I've realised I need to detach from my desires to monetise ideas. Sustainable income may come from providing value rather than chasing profit. I must let go of controlling everything and focus on exploring potential first. It's time for a job change within my creative field to align with my…
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2024.01.19_Trichotomy - Ego, Grace, Chaos
I'm launching "Higher Talk" to promote Grace over Ego, wary of ego's pitfalls. Developing "Resource" to delve deeper into these concepts and harness inspiration. Excited to visualise ideas for effective communication.
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2024.01.15_Simple Pleasures - Pleasing content channel
I've conceptualised "Simple Pleasures" for social media, aiming to share everyday joyful moments. Leveraging phone features for quality, I foresee its potential akin to ASMR. Starting small, I'll focus on one channel, then expand gradually. Redesigning visuals and naming components are next steps.
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2024.01.13_Witnessing higher social intelligence
I delved into observing social dynamics in a podcast, noting Rick's manipulative tactics and Fuhad's awareness. I find studying behaviour fascinating, but warn against ego-driven use of social intelligence. My aim is to efficiently convey insights through AI summaries.
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2024.01.12_Conflicts of allegiance
Contemplating embracing true desires and documenting experiences, I resist societal pressure for financial gain. Rejecting superficial norms, I pursue a path aligned with love, peace, and authenticity. Determined to follow intuition, I embrace the journey of self-discovery, despite challenges.
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2024.01.12_True desire is self evident
Exploring surrender to higher states, I ponder life's direction, embracing curiosity. My journey entails self-analysis and stripping inhibitions to uncover natural desires. Voice notes aid capturing thoughts, but true answers lie in stillness and higher frequency. This personal journey…
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2024.01.12_Who is Chaos?
Exploring the elements of ego, grace, and chaos, I recognise their roles in pattern recognition, present moment attunement, and unexplored potential. I'll maintain the analogy of a family dynamic while remaining open to evolving perspectives.
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2024.01.11_Habit vs impulse
Reflecting on my habits and impulses around masturbation and porn, I consider the authenticity of my desires versus mechanical habits. Checking in with my body, I aim to differentiate between genuine arousal and habitual patterns for a healthier relationship with my impulses.
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2024.01.10_I've been struggling
Struggling with self-acceptance, I find it challenging to openly discuss personal challenges like finances. I advocate for societal spaces where honesty is embraced. Reflecting on my strengths and weaknesses, especially in freelancing, I seek guidance to overcome obstacles. Despite discomfort…
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2024.01.07_Expectation vs desire
Reflecting on the distinction between expectation and desire, I explore how external influences shape expectations, while desires stem from internal connections. I commit to self-reflection to discern my motivations and foster genuine desires over expectations.
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2024.01.03_Focus on it and nothing else
Exploring the mental practice of single-pointed focus, I reflect on its challenges and benefits. I ponder its potential name and consider its impact on creativity and inspiration.
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2023.12.28_Our dysfunctional relationship with Now
I've reflected on the essence of contentment: self-love and present awareness. Planning to delve into meditation and yoga to overcome monetisation hurdles and external pressures. Engaging in conversations with friends to practise staying present.
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2023.12.26_Why won't you let me think?
I'm grappling with which platform to choose for my content. Balancing social traction, profit, and editing ease is challenging. I've explored options like Patreon but find them pricey. I feel blocked by indecision and self-judgment, but I'm committed to researching and making an informed choice.
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2023.12.26_Re.SOURCE needs to be told
In the talk, I delve into the significance of partner dancing for self-expression and connection. I stress the therapeutic value of dance in fostering authenticity and respect. My vision is to break personal barriers and manifest meaningful connections through dance.
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2023.12.26_Grace wants to manifest Reaction Dance and Closeform
Grace, embodying the higher self, seeks manifestation and control while acknowledging the ego as a hindrance. Mark explores methods like reaction dancing to connect with his higher self, advocating for its practice to attain authentic expression. He envisions a future where individuals connect...
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2023.12.09_Asking close ones for help
Reflecting on the fear of asking for help, I explore childhood reliance on friends and emphasise open conversations with close ones about challenges. Offering support and embracing vulnerability strengthen bonds.
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2023.12.09_Visual language map
Creating a visual word locator by mapping all dictionary words on a 2D plane is explored. This innovative concept aims to aid users in word search, showing related words and their definitions. The discussion questions the effectiveness of categorising words solely based on their types without...
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2023.12.05_Start publishing!!
I need to share my content on platforms like Mighty, even though asking for money feels uncomfortable. It's time to promote my creative work without fear or excuses, manifesting my ideas and embracing the brilliance of each moment.
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2023.12.05_Is my deepest struggle my greatest purpose?
I'm afraid of sharing my vulnerable side and resist external pressures. Criticism makes me doubt myself. I seek self-acceptance and bravery to overcome limitations and embrace my abilities fully.
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2023.12.05_Content subscriptions - Paid to record a diary
I'm considering the trend of using platforms like Patreon and Circle for subscription-based diary entries. I consider creating engaging video content alongside voice recordings, steering clear of mainstream social media pressures. By sharing my journey authentically, I aim to connect with others...
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2023.12.05_Radical bravery - Calling for people to be themselves
I stress the significance of radical bravery in sharing our lives on social media. Being vulnerable and honest can deepen connections and overcome challenges. Let's embrace this approach for personal growth and positive change, using social media as a tool for self-expression.
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2023.12.03_Facing great challenges, we must manifest
The importance of understanding AI's implications is stressed. We must approach it with awareness and respect. I advocate for spreading information through various platforms in engaging ways. It's crucial to let go of ego and embrace qualities like compassion for personal growth.
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2023.12.01_ClickUp - Visualise accumulating task weight
I aim to implement a gamification system using ClickUp for task management. Tasks will gain weight over time to highlight importance. This approach offers rewards and a sense of progress, akin to gaming. While acknowledging potential pressure, I believe it can combat procrastination and boost...
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2023.11.24_Grace's embrace - Let go and flow
I reflect on frustrations when guiding someone less knowledgeable, likening it to a parent-child dynamic on holiday. I explore trusting intuition overanalysing decisions. I admit to over-analysing and strive for intuitive guidance, especially in creative pursuits.
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2023.11.22_Feel the wins - Reward myself for good behaviour
I discuss the significance of acknowledging personal victories and employing technology like ClickUp for task management. Voice notes aid therapy, and automated solutions can reinforce positive habits. Reflecting on my difficulty in self-commitment, I stress bravery, releasing guilt, and...
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2023.11.22_Ask questions, vow decisions, act bravely
I remind myself to celebrate accomplishments rather than constantly criticising. Challenging limiting beliefs and negative thoughts, I embrace self-awareness, ask crucial questions, and commit to change. Recognising achievements is vital on the path to personal growth.
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2023.11.22_Beast mode - Promise yourself to take radical action
I acknowledge my tendency towards radical action and utilise my character traits to hyper-focus and master tasks efficiently. Viewing this as a superpower, I aim to harness it for manifesting goals and projects. Embracing "Beast mode," I believe many share this ability within.
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2023.11.22_I'm going to build my own dance family
Reflecting on my old dance shoes, they hold cherished memories. I envision a dance school fostering authentic learning bonds. Overcoming performance anxiety, I found belonging in the dance community. My dream is to create a nurturing environment for dancers to grow and connect.
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2023.11.21_Selfish recording to my past self as boy
Mark, remember to embrace curiosity, joy, and self-awareness on your journey. Life's path isn't linear; explore your passions and reflect on your experiences. Stay true to yourself amidst societal pressures. Strive for positive change through introspection and action.
About this show
Cracked open and raw, leaning into the cringe. I'm peeling back the layers of resistance and shedding the skin of old paradigms. Join this audio diary of an overgrown kid, stumbling through self-discovery and unconventional truths with Eckhart Tolle's whispers as my compass. There will be contradictions, inward and outward epic adventures, and maybe some absurd laughter. Dancing in the shadows of unmet expectations, with breakthroughs illuminating the path - let's evolve together, one stumble and epiphany at a time. ✨
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Mark Shikada | Re.Source Project