24: From Emotional Numbness to Wholeness

What this episode covers

This episode is about my personal story of moving from emotional numbness to wholeness, navigating and developing a range of emotions, my perspective on how emotional experience changes over time, and an integrative blend of practices that can help develop emotional capacity and resilience. In individual podcasts over the week, I will offer healing meditations that you can practice to develop your own emotional capacity.   Links, Article, and Resources All Show Notes for This Episode 📝 https://candicewu.com/emotions Podcast Homepage 🎧 https://candicewu.com/podcast Newsletter & Embody Community 💌 https://candicewu.com/embody-community Patreon – Your Support Means So Much! 💝 https://candicewu.com/patreon Candice Wu Page on Facebook 👫 https://facebook.com/EmbodyYourNature Follow Candice on Instagram 📷 https://instagram.com/EmbodyYourNature   Sponsorship Message If the Embody Podcast, my writing, or guided healing meditations have inspired you, helped, or spoken to you, it would mean the world to me if you would show your support through a small donation. Each creation is lovingly made from my soul and takes anywhere from weeks to a few days to develop and produce. I gladly pay an editor who supports me in polishing and creating high quality content. As little as $1 a month would nourish my podcast and other creations to continue to have life and cover costs. Plus you’ll receive some sweet personalized healing gifts from me that can deepen your embodiment on your own journey. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I am so appreciative. Visit my Patreon Pagehttps://candicewu.com/patreon   Show Notes & Timestamps   00:00 Brief Overview of This Episode 00:32 New Intro With Music! 01:10 Thank You to Nick 01:42 Sponsored by You via Patreon 02:16 Update About My Travels 05:18 Start of the Show : How Can I Have Such a Capacity for Emotions and Did I Always Have It? 05:38 I Only Started Feeling 9 Years Ago 05:57 Growing Up in a Chinese Family 06:29 Being a Sensitive Child 06:46 Rebelling in Middle School 07:00 Bringing Emotions Home 07:10 Elders in China 07:43 No Idea How to Handle the Emotions Inside 08:06 EMDR : What is It? 09:19 How It Helped (Feeling in the Body / Naming Emotions) 09:42 Small “t” Trauma : Experiencing Neglect, Abandonment, Emotional & Verbal Relational Abuse 10:13 Visiting a Body Centered Therapist 10:49 Faking My Way Through Life 11:16 Developing My Range : I Could Experience Only 5 Emotions 12:55 Why EMDR is Interesting 13:56 Seeing Progress : Rating Emotions & Sensations 14:56 Brainwave Vibration 15:40 How Yoga Reflects the Same Practice 16:37 This is Not Easy! 17:20 How I Got From There to Where I Am Today 18:23 Leap of Faith Into Grad School for Clinical Psychology 19:04 Finding Family Constellations 21:01 Somatic Experiencing; More Science Behind Emotions and Trauma 22:05 Learning That Emotions Are Completely Helpful 22:38 Mention Brené Brown 22:41 We Can't Numb Out “Negative” Feelings Without Numbing Out the Rest 23:32 10 Years Ago : How Can I Get Rid of My Emotions? 23:53 Now : Allying With Emotions 24:51 Trauma : The Experience of Something Incomplete | The Gift of Trauma in My Life 26:46 The Emotional Evolution Spectrum 27:34 Stage 1: Repression & Protection 28:40 Stage 2: Ability to Experience in My Body With a Safe Person 30:51 Stage 3: feel/tolerate Some Challenging Emotions Alone 32:23 Stage 4: Learning to Enjoy My Experiences, Emotions, and Feelings 33:24 Stage 5: Beginning to Feeling Pleasure in Almost Every Single Emotion : I Am Not My Emotions 34:39 Stage 6: Shifting to Easier Ways to Move Through 35:57 Embodied Experience / Using Different Spiritual / Embodied Technologies to Shift 36:53 Spiritual Bypass 37:37 Resisting body/emotional Experience to Finding Wisdom in Them 38:14 Now I Can't Imagine to Live Without the Emotions 38:30 Doing This Podcast Three Times / Resistance / Recognizing / Moving Through 40:01 Your Takeaway 40:14 Offerings: The Upcoming Three Meditations 41:48 Outro