24: From Emotional Numbness to Wholeness

This episode is about my personal story of moving from emotional numbness to wholeness, navigating and developing a range of emotions, my perspective on how emotional experience changes over time, and an integrative blend of practices that can help develop emotional capacity and resilience. In individual podcasts over the week, I will offer healing meditations that you can practice to develop your own emotional capacity. Links, Article, and ResourcesAll Show Notes for This Episode📝 https://candicewu.com/emotionsPodcast Homepage🎧 https://candicewu.com/podcastNewsletter & Embody Community💌 https://candicewu.com/embody-communityPatreon – Your Support Means So Much!💝 https://candicewu.com/patreonCandice Wu Page on Facebook👫 https://facebook.com/EmbodyYourNatureFollow Candice on Instagram📷 https://instagram.com/EmbodyYourNature Sponsorship MessageIf the Embody Podcast, my writing, or guided healing meditations have inspired you, helped, or spoken to you, it would mean the world to me if you would show your support through a small donation.Each creation is lovingly made from my soul and takes anywhere from weeks to a few days to develop and produce. I gladly pay an editor who supports me in polishing and creating high quality content.As little as $1 a month would nourish my podcast and other creations to continue to have life and cover costs. Plus you’ll receive some sweet personalized healing gifts from me that can deepen your embodiment on your own journey.Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I am so appreciative.Visit my Patreon Page https://candicewu.com/patreon Show Notes & Timestamps  00:00 Brief Overview of This Episode00:32 New Intro With Music!01:10 Thank You to Nick01:42 Sponsored by You via Patreon02:16 Update About My Travels05:18 Start of the Show : How Can I Have Such a Capacity for Emotions and Did I Always Have It?05:38 I Only Started Feeling 9 Years Ago05:57 Growing Up in a Chinese Family06:29 Being a Sensitive Child06:46 Rebelling in Middle School07:00 Bringing Emotions Home07:10 Elders in China07:43 No Idea How to Handle the Emotions Inside08:06 EMDR : What is It?09:19 How It Helped (Feeling in the Body / Naming Emotions)09:42 Small “t” Trauma : Experiencing Neglect, Abandonment, Emotional & Verbal Relational Abuse10:13 Visiting a Body Centered Therapist10:49 Faking My Way Through Life11:16 Developing My Range : I Could Experience Only 5 Emotions12:55 Why EMDR is Interesting13:56 Seeing Progress : Rating Emotions & Sensations14:56 Brainwave Vibration15:40 How Yoga Reflects the Same Practice16:37 This is Not Easy!17:20 How I Got From There to Where I Am Today18:23 Leap of Faith Into Grad School for Clinical Psychology19:04 Finding Family Constellations21:01 Somatic Experiencing; More Science Behind Emotions and Trauma22:05 Learning That Emotions Are Completely Helpful22:38 Mention Brené Brown22:41 We Can't Numb Out “Negative” Feelings Without Numbing Out the Rest23:32 10 Years Ago : How Can I Get Rid of My Emotions?23:53 Now : Allying With Emotions24:51 Trauma : The Experience of Something Incomplete | The Gift of Trauma in My Life26:46 The Emotional Evolution Spectrum27:34 Stage 1: Repression & Protection28:40 Stage 2: Ability to Experience in My Body With a Safe Person30:51 Stage 3: feel/tolerate Some Challenging Emotions Alone32:23 Stage 4: Learning to Enjoy My Experiences, Emotions, and Feelings33:24 Stage 5: Beginning to Feeling Pleasure in Almost Every Single Emotion : I Am Not My Emotions34:39 Stage 6: Shifting to Easier Ways to Move Through35:57 Embodied Experience / Using Different Spiritual / Embodied Technologies to Shift36:53 Spiritual Bypass37:37 Resisting body/emotional Experience to Finding Wisdom in Them38:14 Now I Can't Imagine to Live Without the Emotions38:30 Doing This Podcast Three Times / Resistance / Recognizing / Moving Through40:01 Your Takeaway40:14 Offerings: The Upcoming Three Meditations41:48 Outro