EPISODE · Mar 17, 2022 · 2 MIN

4- Helping Hand

from #StoriesAboutSongs · host RedefineHipHop

The previous track outlines some of my greatest challenges, and now it’s time to get some help processing it. I’ve always been interested in human psychology, so I’m not exaggerating when I say that one of my life goals was to be in therapy. However, despite all my trust and belief in the profession, for various reasons, not necessarily good ones, I never acted upon that interest. All of that in mind, “Helping Hand” is about the idea that seeking happiness is likely not intended to be a solo effort. I consider myself both an introvert and extrovert, but my path, along with the state of the world these last few years, has led to me being more cut off from people than ever before. This song is trying to remind myself, and others, that as hard as it may be to find at times, there are helping hands out there. Then, in 2017, I finally completed a life goal and went to therapy. My therapist was great, and was able to help me fit the puzzle pieces together that I had…an oversimplification, but it’s the best I can explain it. It’s a very powerful thing to take a life that has been often filled with anxiety, depression, and a struggle trying to accept I’m viewed as so “different”, and to be able to turn into a piece of art that I’m so happy with. That said, in the song I say, “We talked the past and the present, it mostly wasn’t pleasant…”, and I sincerely hope people understand that I’m saying that the things I talked about in therapy were not pleasant, but the experience itself, and my therapist, was everything I hoped it would be. LYRICS: Always searching for more ways to open new doorways To new worlds, explore them in new ways This ain't a new phase, this is a true case Of waiting for the perfect moment...to fill a blank space For any negative energy in my headspace I achieve a coup de grace with grace Kill it instantly, in the interest of me I haven’t gotten there yet, but eventually.... Making music is therapy, I’m aware of the fact, despite that, it may not bring clarity But it’s part of the process, plus it cost less Then doctors, looking for Loch Ness, with lots of tests Trying to finnnnd out what the problem is? And at best, you might be left with a best guess But If I find the cure in the form of medicine Tie me to an IV and just let it in! Till then, I place my faith in psychology When you find the right one it’s like striking the lottery So thanks to N. Ruppenthal Gave me insights into my own life, and not for nothing y’all I sat in sessions and answered questions and made confessions And tried to listen to the lessons without second-guessing We talked the past and the present, it mostly wasn’t pleasant But she gave me perspective, it was a sound investment I took advice and applied it to my life… Then disappeared like a thief in night That wasn’t my intent and I intend on making it right Won’t be content until I finish paying the price Like fire and Ice, I’m forging such a beautiful sight In the form of my life, captured in the words that I write I’d like to invite you to take stroll thru my soul But please leave as you came so I remain whole The main goal, is try to retain control And then find those special moments just to let it go Of course you know, if it’s real it will come back again Unless mind pollution keeps that from happen'n So, Keep you...mind clear, try to sideline fear and if you need a helping hand, well indeed , I’m here