#6: Calming the Storm in your Head

I am going to share a difficult conversation with you.  Let's talk about that feeling of having a hurricane in your head. I call it a hurricane. It’s that feeling of so much happening so fast that you can’t hear your self think over the thoughts  swirling in your head. I didn't even realise that there was a storm in my head.  I guess I ignored it without realising I was ignoring it, because to me, it was normal. I heard a comment by Ashley C Ford, the author of Somebody’s Daughter.  She said normal are things that should happen and common are things that just do happen. The hurricane in your head, its not normal. It's common. My life was a frenzy I just didn’t know it.The thing is, it wasn't fuelled by my husbands alcohol dependency, no. This the storm in my head was fuelled by me,my perfectionism, my self doubt, and my guilt and my longing for love.I found that having routines helped to be more able to prevent the frenzy, and to deal with it better when it did come.  I no longer feel a hurricane in my head on a daily basis. Sometimes it gets noisy, so I rest, I play, I meditate. I always like to end an episode with gratitude. I’m grateful for my beach hut, and  the me having the courage to rest. To acknowledge my exhaustion and to stop. Even when I felt I couldn’t i stopped. Join the Blossome community where you'll find others who are on a healing journey, supporting each other after losing a loved on to addictionResources: Join Blossome a supportive community for those who have endured losing a loved on to addiction. Find a pathway to peace, let go of guilt, shame and live with self-compassion and joy. Follow Ashley C Ford on Twitter  Listen to Unlocking Us on Spotify, Hosted by Brene Brown Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.