72: A{Live} Now: Getting Schooled by Ancestry and Emotions

There are emotions that take some time to reveal what they are about and sometimes we still don’t know. In this episode, I talk about feeling schooled by overwhelming emotions — the big feeling of an emotion that I had no clue what it was about. Wondering if I could hold my own complexity as well as how to be in intense emotions and feel gracefully incompetent. Plus the stories of intergenerational and cultural trauma that revealed, the visceral pain I discovered in my ancestry and how I healed it… My response that honors the survival and life of the lineage.A Little About A{Live} NowI’ve found that when I share what’s true in the moment, there is so much ALIVENESS and fullness in me.That’s why I started the A{Live} Now mini-series, which is within the Embody Podcast. This is the second episode and I intend to share what’s happening in my real life and in my inner world, what’s truly full and alive now.What’s alive now in me has often been what’s filled the juicy stuff of life: themes, joys, or challenges that others may also be experiencing, a fear and other emotions that bring me to the edge of my fullest expression in the moment.As you listen, I will also share snippets of how you can support your own heart and soul, know yourself, be your fullest, or heal and love yourself. Links, Article, and ResourcesAll Show Notes for This Episode📝https://candicewu.com/schooled Podcast Homepage🎧 https://candicewu.com/podcastNewsletter & Embody Community💌 https://candicewu.com/embody-communityPatreon – Your Support Means So Much!💝 https://candicewu.com/patreonCandice Wu Page on Facebook👫 https://facebook.com/EmbodyYourNatureFollow Candice on Instagram📷 https://instagram.com/EmbodyYourNature Sponsored by YOU on PatreonIf you’ve been touched or supported by the podcast, please consider contributing to the production and labor of love through my Patreon page! I deeply appreciate it.Find the experience at CandiceWu.com/patreon. Show Notes0:00 Intro1:02 Opening2:08 Mention of Existential Crisis Episode3:48 How I Feel When I Am Being Schooled by My Emotions6:22 We Are All Evolving — What I Recorded in the Past, Allowing for Being Different8:07 Where It All Began9:56 New Relationship Brings New Parts of Myself Alive11:02 Fear of Losing My Chineseness and Complexity12:29 What Our Family Systems Can Bring Us14:23 Can I Hold My Own Complexity?14:40 Can You Take Care of Me?17:26 Next Up: The Feeling of Being Left to Die18:58 My Response to My Great-Grand-Parents19:38 My Mother Told Me More of Our Story: The Woodworker and the Door That Saved Us22:03 My Honoring Response to My Ancestry in This Story22:47 Honoring the Ancestral Experience and Not Take It on as My Own23:56 Processing Other Ancestral Not Necessarily Connected Experiences25:41 Working Hard but Keeping the Grief Alive26:36 Giving the Pain to the Rightful Place and Sharing Appreciation28:40 Gratitude & Allowing the Space31:29 Placing Words in Context When We Think We’re Losing It32:56 Diving Deeper Into the Family Line33:55 Encouraging You to Take Your Own Words and Let Them Flow Into the Soul Space35:21 May 5th #NativeWomenRunning36:20 Some Practical Tips to Move Through37:48 Gratitude38:00 Quotes by Nayyirah Waheed39:45 Sponsored by You on Patreon40:16 Other Embody Podcast Episodes41:17 Updates in the Embody Newsletter41:46 Sending You All the Love