99: Giving: What Part of You Does it Come From? The Shadow Side and Self-Honesty: Part 3 of Cleanse Your Ideas of Taking, Receiving, and Giving

In this episode, I draw on lessons from the Horses on giving and taking and from the founder of Family Constellations, Bert Hellinger’s ideas on how we stay innocent when we give and feel guilty when we take. His statement that has brought icy feeling of truth to me at times, “It is better for you to feel obligated to me than for me to feel obligated to you,” is a great place to explore what our relationship to giving and taking is. Where horses take the carrot I give them, I sometimes begrudgingly see my own needs and desires: for the horse to give back to me, love me, kiss me or give me attention… But also the simple lesson of being in complete action and alignment by delighting in the giving. I invite you to notice on subtle levels why you give, from which place are you giving, and who is doing the giving? It takes grit to be honest and have weight in yourself by recognizing what you might silently or secretly expect from others when you give while finding a place for the pure act of giving. Also, I touch on taking your parents as they are — a piece that I had forgotten to speak to in the episode on taking. This conversation is Part 3 of 3 on the investigation and self-inquiry around taking, receiving, and giving. In week 1, I explored the developmental need and assertive tool of taking — the benefits of being able to take and how taking comes before giving in the spectrum of life. In week 2 I explored receiving and how it is connected to our embodiment and visceral reactions as well as permission, belief sets, saying NO, and our ancestral lineage. Listen to Part 1: Taking vs. Receiving: Cleanse Your Ideas of Taking Receiving, and Giving Listen to Deepen Your Capacity to Receive: Part 2 of Cleanse Your Ideas of Taking, Receiving, and Giving Links, Article, and Resources All Show Notes for This Episode 📝 https://candicewu.com/giving Podcast Homepage 🎧 https://candicewu.com/podcast Newsletter & Embody Community 💌 https://candicewu.com/embody-community Donations – Your Support Means So Much! 💝 https://candicewu.com/support Candice Wu Page on Facebook 👫 https:///EmbodyYourNature Follow Candice on Instagram 📷 https://instagram.com/EmbodyYourNature Sponsored by the Ally with Death Audio Experiential It’s important to let die what needs to die. Our relationship with Death gives us Life — If we do not honor death, can we really know what it is to live? Are we able to assert our lives fully and be present to life? When we resist death, we resist life. I am thrilled to announce that the Ally With Death Experiential is now a guided audio recording full of moody and provocative music and my voice guiding you through a death of old ways of being, habits and beliefs, and a rebirth into what would feel more like you, life-giving, and present! This is a beautiful recording featuring music from Larry Saint Germain to shake up the decay and stagnancy inside. If you are feeling stuck, stagnant, ready for what’s next, curious, depressed or anxious about life, uncertain, intrigued about how death can support life, want to get clarity for yourself, or just interested in following nature’s guidance to go inward and let die what needs to die. Learn more about the Ally with Death at CandiceWu.com/death Show Notes 00:00 Intro 01:52 Sponsored by the Ally with Death Audio Experiential 06:15 Opening & Preparation 07:43 Life Update 09:06 Reviewing Part 1 and 2 of This Series 10:06 Taking Your Place in Your Essence and Lineage, Taking Your Parents as They Are 10:38 Where to find Part 1 and 2 11:05 Taking Our Parents as They Are: Are You Rejecting Yourself Through Them? 16:46 Honoring Who is Behind You 17:39 Giving: It Can Be Overrated. Where is the Giving Coming From? 18:43 My Own Story Around Giving 19:46 Exploring Your Relationship With Giving 20:29 Words That Come Up Around Giving for Me 21:02 The Polarity of Giving 21:31 Excerpts From Bert Hellinger’s Book: Love’s Hidden Symmetry 23:31 My Understanding and How These Words Feel in Me 25:05 The Helper Syndrome: Fundamentally Hostile to Relationships 26:23 Endless Cycle of Expectations 27:16 Questions to Ask Yourself, Are You Able to Receive? 28:14 Fully Taking and Fully Receiving Creates Equality 29:36 Can Giving Really Be Selfless Giving? Does It Need to Be? 31:48 Giving and Taking With Horses 33:51 Exercise Between Humans: What if Someone Just Took What You Gave With No Reaction? 36:22 It’s Ok to Want Care, Love, and Validation. 38:51 How Do We Align With a True Loving Act of Giving and Receiving? 39:20 Vedic Science: Pragña — the Concept of pure/complete Action 43:11 How Do I Feel When I Do Not Give but Others Are? 45:05 Have You Experienced What Happens When You Do Not Give? 45:25 Cleansing the Taking and Giving — Reaching for Alignment 47:32 Approaching Thanksgiving — a Fuller Way of Saying Thanks 49:11 Giving Thanks to Myself and Sharing Gratitude 49:51 How I Started the Podcast as a Way of Expansion for Myself 51:42 This is Episode 99 52:43 Outro