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Feb 2, 2026 49 min

A Fantastic Mess

from At a Total Loss Hosted by Katherine Lazar

In this episode, I talk about the most fantastic mess that is life after stillbirth. This is emotional whiplash at its finest... Loss mamas are out here doing the damn thing every single day—showing up, parenting, working, laughing—and still grieving, spiraling, and holding a whole lot beneath the surface. Two things can be true at once, and they usually are. I share a moment where I blurted out something dark but completely factual… and the person on the receiving end said absolutely nothing. We get into how grief conversations have evolved (or haven’t), why people don’t know what to do with us, and how wildly inappropriate things still get said to our faces—like, “I would have died if something happened to my baby.” Cool. Thanks. Super helpful. This episode is about the messiness, the awkwardness, the growth, the rage, the humor, and the reality of living after stillbirth. It’s about surviving, adapting, and learning how to exist in a world that’s uncomfortable with our truth. If you’re a loss mama trying to hold it together while falling apart, this one’s for you. Welcome to the fantastic mess. 🖤 ************************************* This Podcast is brought to you by LossLink.com. Find your loss posse in our are or internationally! Join this private, membership based community today. NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. This podcast is not in place of therapy. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! For more REAL TALK about stillbirth and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! Find me here: Instagram @thekatherinelazar Youtube: @thekatherinelazar Website: www.katherinelazar.com Some helpful resources: https://countthekicks.org/ https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/ https://www.pushpregnancy.org/ https://www.tommys.org/ Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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This episode is about the messiness, the awkwardness, the growth, the rage, the humor, and the reality of living after stillbirth. It’s about surviving, adapting, and learning how to exist in a world that’s uncomfortable with our truth. If you’re a loss mama trying to hold it together while falling apart, this one’s for you. Welcome to the fantastic mess. 🖤

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