Avoiding Help Is Normal

I used to get so nervous every time I went to be worked on in my Somatic Experiencing training as I was the demonstration in front of a big group of people doing the training with me. I was working on my pain with many eyes watching me. I knew they were loving supportive eyes as they were on the same page as me. I felt grateful and scared. I even felt this way in my one on one therapy sessions. I literally felt like running. I knew it wasn't the help I was running from. I was running from my past. A past I still needed to get away from. Knowing this kept me going and asking for help, plus the relief and clarity I felt every time I worked on myself was amazing. It is totally normal to feel scared or anxious when asking for help. Here's how I look at it. The body and emotions get excited that we are giving it attention, to honor all we have been through. It is like a little kid jumping up and down with excitement saying, "Yay, you are finally looking at me. I need you. I have some things to say and feel. Please hear me." Have you felt this way?