Baseline

In this opening episode, I set the baseline for this mini-series: what severe ADHD looks like in my real life when I strip away labels and speak honestly. I break down medication inconsistency, RSD as my core trigger, internal and external overload, health anxiety, the “dark tunnel” at night, and the day-to-day reality of trying to stay functional under pressure. This is my first-person account of habit loops, gambling harm, debt caused by executive-function breakdown, customer service punishment cycles, trust issues, and survival-mode parenting — including why I can seem “OTT” protective when I’ve lived proof that life can change without warning. This isn’t a polished hero story. It’s my operating system behind the chaos, and the baseline for everything that comes next.