Becoming undone. No, no sex. No self.

Another post. I had more thoughts in light of current event(s). My higher self placed me 'here' repeating cycles but at a higher vantage point to move into more of my authentic self.  My anxious attachment triggered- ego hurt, my human form- body, emotions, mind everything hurts. Becoming undone wasn't just about undoing sexual issues from society and religion my undoing is to 'me'. Becoming undone from 'this'- I am just a human experience, observing. ...my headphones in the background says, "power off" at the right moment  Manipulating myself kept me in my fear but the side effect was me exposing self to my authentic self. I needed someone to 'not' see me.