Bens story: I Tried to Fill the Hole With Women, Drugs and then God

SummaryIn this deeply personal solo episode, Ben shares the unfiltered story of his relationship with desire, intimacy, addiction and faith, and the long road that followed. From early experiences of wanting to be wanted, through chaotic relationships, substance abuse and the shame that came with it, he reflects on how a relentless hunger for attention quietly shaped his life and nearly destroyed what mattered most.Ben speaks honestly about the collapse of a long relationship, the years of drugs and distraction that followed, and the moment he realised that believing you need something can drive you to sacrifice everything for it. Along the way, he explores the unexpected turning points, meeting Kerry, becoming a father, losing everything financially, and slowly learning how to sit with pain rather than run from it.The episode traces a spiritual and psychological awakening, from men’s work and grief rituals to a profound moment of inner reckoning that brought self-forgiveness, peace and a new way of seeing himself. This is not a story of arrival, but of honesty, humility and ongoing work.If you’ve ever tried to fill an inner emptiness with sex, success, substances, spirituality or approval, this conversation is for you.Our Resources:My Website: https://www.thedamngoodlistener.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/thedamngoodlistener/Linkedin: benjaminleppierLinks etc:Link for intelligent change https://www.intelligentchange.com/?rfsn=8339894.e05f4e7&utm_source=refersion&utm_medium=affiliate&utm_campaign=8339894.e05f4e7Use discount code: DAMNGOODLISTENER for 10% discountIf you enjoyed this episode why not buy Ben (or Kerry) a coffee, all donations, small or great, are gratefully received:https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/headtohearttransform