Bipolar and the troubles of cohabitation

Sign up to get updates about my book coming out in early 2022 https://bit.ly/3GWd1EHI'm having trouble with lifestyle design right now. And people are starting to notice. Namely, my family, because I'm living with them. And I'm feeling like, I just don't have freedom of movement. So if I read something or write something, and I feel energy to maybe create a video or something, I don't have the space and quiet in order to do that. There's a TV going on the other side of my wall, or there's people walking overhead. And I'm finding, I'm really sensitive to all of that right now. And so it's a challenge. And I just feel partly like, being away for so long. And then coming back, I really just want to get into being able to create what I want to create. Because I couldn't necessarily do that. while I was away, and also I did get to create what I wanted to create while I was away, I ended up coming off my meds. So to be back, and then just sort of sit and vegetate isn't resonating with me. And I find it hard to read or think if there's a TV going on the other side of the wall. So I'm attempting to cohabit. But it's really challenging. And it's only temporary until I go back to the other place or whatever. But even for now, it's challenging. So it's making me ponder some things that I've read about stoicism after watching a talk by Tim Ferriss. And there's a guy I think his name's Jamie holiday, and he wrote a book. Or at least a chapter in a book called the obstacle is the way oh my gosh, it's a hummingbird. I don't know if you saw the hummingbird. But that was really exciting. So it feels like an obstacle in my living situation. That's temporary. But it also was teaching me what I can live with and what I can't. So when I go to my next place, I have to keep in mind that I can't necessarily live in a hollow apartment building where there's going to be TV noises on every wall. And I'm just feeling more comfortable in general in nature, in California was just full of nature and beauty. And I had a small space for my personal space of living. But when I went outdoors, it was just like being in a park was like living in a small room in a park. Whereas living in a small room, in a basement of a house is feeling quite stifling in a way. It's good, because I will get out of the house. And that that's a good thing to do while the weather is still nice because it's going to get really, really rainy and cold within a relatively short period of time. So in terms of the obstacle is the way I'm seeing my living situation as an obstacle, but it's also allowing me to question how to design my life moving forward. And even something as simple as getting that battery pack is really helpful. So that helps with being able to be out and about and mobile. So it feels good to keep moving. And perhaps part of what feels stifling is that I can't just talk to myself when I want to. Because there are people around and they don't know that part of it. I didn't say that. I talk myself on video. So I need quiet and I need to be able to think and I need space. And this leaf is really cute. Support this show http://supporter.acast.com/bipolar_inquiry. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.