Bipolar disorder and having goals in alignment with the Universe, ego scrambling and meaning

so I'm reading an article written by Tom Wooten about how there are advantages in bipolar and it's no longer about if their advantage is but why their advantages and how there are advantages and if you've been watching any of my videos I've talked quite a bit already about my own personal experience and how I feel that a lot of it is advantageous and and also why that is so for me it's not a question of if personally so it's only been recent in actual scientific inquiry that there are advantages and I guess maybe it's not that recent because there's that book called a first-rate madness and one of the people featured in this article actually wrote that book and I have that book and I've never read it I'm not sure why I think it just seems so wordy and I guess all books are actually birdie but just the formatting and everything it just didn't jive with my brain so I never got that interested in it Tom wrote an article about these distinguished panelists who gave a presentation in their research about the research into why people with bipolar disorder tend to exhibit advantages in some parts of their life so the fact of the matter is that they do exhibit advantages in some parts of their life and they're trying to figure out why if they want to look for some possible hypotheses they can watch my videos or I might actually contact them tell them the first lady cherie johnson says people with bipolar disorder tend to work harder towards their goals and refuse to give up long after normal people do and will why could this be one thing I can think of off the top of my head is that maybe people with so called bipolar disorder have goals that are more in alignment with the actual universe and not just personal greedy little goals and even if their goals are maybe a bit more self-centered they might actually have very positive intentions with their goals so it could be the intentions as well because there's no point in working super hard towards complete meaninglessness so I feel people with bipolar disorder often have a connection to a meaning greater than their own personal ego gratification or maybe they do connect with meaning towards their ego personal gratification but they actually feel meaning in that versus most people have just a sense of meaninglessness in their lives so I feel people with the bipolar disorder connect with meaning some kind of meaning and then you think well why do they connect with meaning well to me there's an ego scrambling process of some sort it weakens the ego it can actually manifest as apparently appearing as a stronger ego but to me that's actually just connecting with passion behind the meaning of something even if it's maybe a personal thing but a person becomes way more passionate because they've connected with something in themselves that's beyond the ego fear defense mechanisms that think so I can't do this or I shouldn't do this so one also connects with that ability that energy because that ego structure has lost its hold and it's grab and since a person I've talked about before isn't thinking in this self-reflexive destructive circular way it's not wasting that energy it's like if a person was thinking that way you know the water just goes around the paddles and sort of spreads everywhere and it's a waste of energy it dissipates energy and a person is able to channel energy in a certain way perhaps because there's more meaning and passion behind that so a person might actually seem more like they have more of an ego but they don't necessarily it could be whatever the energy is that is driving them is creating that manifestation of themselves as passionate and you know not going to put up with someone's crap and they're just going to go about doing what they know they need to do and a lot of people they say with bipolar disorder succeed in say management because they don't have that ego sense so much and they are sensitive to other people so they know what they need to do in order to empow