Birthday recording - Before Yoga Retreat

23:23 16.06.2024 Im writing this at the last night of the yoga retreat. After drinking blue lotus flower distilled alcohol and doing a gong shivasana session. A lot of different feelings in general about being here but also happy about the experience and happy about going back. Was able to think about what I’ve been through and going through differently. How I’d approach being back in Berlin, hiking more, taking deeper breaths between things, looking at my morning and dreams differently, another phone for messages, hyper focus. The houses I saw in this neighbourhood today looked very homy. Made me feel at peace, and love, knowing this reality was possible and that there was so much land where it could be achieved. I want to think deeply. Learn deeply. Apply deeply. Be deeply. Everything in my life has to do with deepness. I am in day 7 meditating with my mantra. Learned a lot and thought a lot during this trip. It went well but maybe I could have let my weight down a bit more. But it’s fine. My country is on fire and Im blessing food with a weird mantra everyone says with a smile. My relationship to sexual topics changed a lot. It really isn’t a priority right now. And where Im at it feels very difficult for it to be. Im quite grateful to be here with it right now.