Midnight Wisdom

21:08 14.06.2026Time passes. We gain and lose things.And love happens.

Recorded ThursdayUploaded 21:07 Sunday 14.06Time passes

23:58 07.06.2026Flowing with my energy wellLoving myselfNot generating negative feelingsExcited for my growthCreative, loving, writing

31.05.2026Last day of MayMoms bday tomorrowFull moon tonight

24.05.2026 23:55 Donuts!

17.05.2026 23:53 In bed excited to sleep. Broken dryspell. Loving life.

23:56​05.2026Alcohooool isnt soCoolI had a night where it felt like a slept 100Years and loved itTook me 2 minutes to upload! I could have kept talking.

23:48 03.05.2026I understand.Weeks go by and I die.

22:33 19.04.2026

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12.04.2026 23:50 More more moreThere is peace here alreadyGive yourself to itWriteReadLove

22:00 05.04.2026 Imm in bed, tired and looking forward to recovery.

29.03.2026 23:47 Learning so much.

23:07 29.03.2026 Recorded 28.03.2026 after breakfast. I’ve been going through understanding feminine and masculine energy a lot more and God has put me in a place to get deeper and deeper into that understanding.So thank you for that.I even have Jo visiting for the weekend and got to see my feminine reflecting against his. Started writing a new novel. Thank you universe. Your waves make sense.

22:52 22.03.2026 succeeded in keeping sexual energy for much longer. Proud. Possible because of how tired of got of how much I came uselessly in life and how much energy that took from me.Live is not the ejaculation. Dealt with a lot of emotions from the yoga school. Still some left.Looking forward to love more.

23:31 15.03.2026 Recorded Thursday 12th around 1 pm

23:20 08.03.2026 I’m done with everything. It’s all so stupid.I’m giving everyone the benefit of the doubt when they’re shit.Can’t believe it took me this long to really see the world’s darkness. And I’m darker sweetheart. Believe me.Khara 3a kulshi.

22:51 01.03.2026​03.2028 is going to be a special dateHow long are you willing to wait for your love? Instead of chasing it? I bought 4 wine tasting event tickets in Berlin. - overkill?Where would I go! I need a plan.After meditating 30 mins 3x a day I remember after a midday meditation I went and passed out on the couch and disappeared from consciousness for a while.I picked a fortune cookie (I had two options, left and right) and it told me doubting my faculties is completely useless. I agreed.I’m returning the broken sonos and getting a new one. But I don’t have a working printer so I need to print it from the shop at hbf.Should I fight?

22.02.2026 22:33Ramadan Decisions made and being madeGot rid of a lot of things in the apartmentUnderstanding my sensitivity more and more.

23:46 15.02.2026Commitment and growth. To a good next 6 weeks.There’s a floss string stuck between my molarsCouldnt take it outAmbiguity is the word of the week - being ok with itAmbient music. Russian dubstep. Eagle. Giraffe. Bysone.

23:52 08.02.2026 I’m recording everything nowMy thoughts are coming together betterI’m understanding marketing moreI have great appreciation for shoalin monksIm practicing japanese consistentlyIm going up and down the stairs in my building often (very meditative) I went swimming and interval running this weekI had dinner with two friendsI stretched and did kungfu exercises with LizI did really well in sparring sessionsFrom idea to executionJob still has odd energyKitkat was fun - I was a black demonTook mini dose of Mushrooms with ‘keep me secure’ intentionWrote the whole night the next morningAeon flux is an interesting realityIce on floor got easierPausing USC

20:15 01.02.2025 I’m coming back to focus again. Looking forward to it.Love you Khalid.Let’s go.This is a phase of coming back to focus.Understanding what structure is.Having a plan and moving forward.And shibari, somehow. I went to a shibari jam on Thursday and chilled immensely. The atmosphere was so calming. The focus everyone gave while being so calm with such ambient music.

25.01.2026 23:16 Thank you for everything.Thank you for thankfulness

18.01.2026 22:39 I’m aliiiive and wellll.I need to put the meat in the freezer.I have to sleeeeep.I sparred yesterday and today. I’m alive.Thank you God.

22:37 11.01.2026 recorded on the 9th at around 10pmI’m uploading this from the airport as I wait for the border control. Had a horrible sleep on the plane and felt a bit.. oddHave been rather uncreative days and haven’t been able to write as I’d like. Guess it’s the movementLetting go of something again and allowing for something new. Let’s see how we grow and deal with this city.I wanted to cry. A lot. And held it back. The sadness is real. And it’s fine. An opening of my heart.

14:31 04.01.2026 Feels sad to know I’m leaving here soon.I see how emotionally regulating it is to have people around you who treat you as people instead of another object in their atmosphere. I understand why I broke at my ex housemate how I did. And how that energy and selfishness around me isn’t something to admire or appreciate. I see that I’m forgiving of people too much instead of taking a stance at them that revives the energy I have in me. I can release that energy.I can also see how letting emotions out in front of people who can hold them is quite great to move on quickly from things instead of holding on to them over and over. I see how I’m procrastinating at work because I made it something thay it really isn’t in my head. I need to drop that and work well. Alohaaaa

22:49 28.12.2025In the hotel room. Excited but tired.Tomorrow is a new day!

21.12.2025 23:30At my cousins watching fighting.Thinking of whether I want to sleep or not.

23:56 14.12.2025 Looove life. Goodnight.

23:58 07.12.2025 with mo

23:53 30.11.2025Was mean to my housemates and I don’t care.

23:16 21.11.2025Had the best Muay Thai training today with Kru at SJMT.Trained with Christopher. Had a fantastic time. Learned many new things.I listened to Joe Rogan and Trump and also Elon Musk while playing hollow knight. That was a lot of fun. Missed a Japanese class on Monday while I was working at we work.

23:47 16.11.2025 Anger is owning me right now. I’m alsoLetting it. Post tea party. Coaching with Sven.Dreams intensifying.

23:51 09.11.2025 Closing tabs. After a full moon and a lovely date. I want to record another one as well.

23:48 02.11.2025 Hello November.

23:01 26.10.2025 daylights saving. Living in my own cave. Finding balance and love again. Taking time to heal and read and practice and learn the right things. Yalla.

23:15 Discipline and purity are the topics.

23:15 12.10.2025 I had a walk after eating on the 9th in the evening and it was great for going through all my topics. A lot of changes now all of sudden. Makes me think I’m living in a sit-com. I’ll have to record about it soon.Good night.

​10.2025 21:26 My best hurts but i’s fine. Im getting to see my heart in an entirely different way. The leopard in me is howling, and it’s hungry for life.I have a new hoodie and t shirt from my muay thai gym. They’re nice. Asked for red and white and got white and red. Accepted it.

20:34 28.09.2025 dressed in white. The ecoist subscription in my hand. Crossing the road. Red shoes and red feathery necklace. Tram still needs 20 minutes. Withdrawing cash, eating and going.I dont want to end my night because of a commitment that keeps me locked in place.Atm is here. Warschauer on a sunday.

22:35 21.09.2025Resting in bed. Remembering to remain compassionate.

14.09.2025 23:48 Sunglasses on in my room. After theater and dinner at my place. Baba in the hospital. Mom lonely and lost. Me, lonely and lost.I want to choose where to go and get there. I don't want to stay in circles. No amount of meditation or fighting and working out is going to get me to where I would like to go.I want to get there through myself and hard work. I know where that is.Passport and 2k+ passive income. This is doable, and that is my goal within the next six months.

23:42 07.09.2025 About to fall asleep. One week since Lila game. Back in Berlin from my travels, to figure myself out again and what I truly want. Close to finishing Casanova Memoires

2443 2 stepsFour by four pillars3 rollsI toyed with cooper while this was uploading.

22:52 24.08.2025 Left Eindhoven to Faro. Hope it’s a good decision.

17.08.2025 23:53 Im in bed, a bit tired. Lovely day with the children at Einhorn yesterday. Had an intense situation with a woman who needed too much too quickly and had very little grounding.She told me she felt my masculine energy as soon as she saw me. That she feels God between us. From the moment she saw me.I saw in her a love addict that does not know that she is addicted. Or maybe she was actually just in love? After a day.I share all of that in the episode, and share how I ended contact with her. We all deal with ourselves.

Rec: 08.06.2025Up: 11.08.2025

Rec: 20.07.2025Up: 11.08.2025Recorded close to my home and reflect on everything.Didn't upload yet so uploading now.

Rec: 23.07.2025Uploaded. 11.08.2025I got high with my bong and relaxed. Processed, and watched 28 days later and commented on the movie as I did so. This was when my burnout period started. I gotta say, three weeks since isn't that bad of a number.

Rec: 25.07.2025Uploaded: 11.08.2025