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EPISODE · Nov 15, 2025 · 52 MIN

Birthday Reflections & Real Talk

from At a Total Loss · host Katherine Lazar

It’s my birthday — the fourth one since losing Brody — and this episode is as raw and real as it gets. I’m unpacking what birthdays feel like after loss, how healing actually looks in year four, and what life is like right now: therapy, hospital stays with my living son, and the everyday chaos that somehow keeps me grounded. Sprinkled with stories, a few F-bombs, and a whole lot of iced coffee, this is the most unfiltered glimpse into my world — a loss mama just doing the damn thing. ✨ Coming soon: new support groups, 1:1 mentoring, and more spaces to connect. I’m officially a Certified Grief Coach, and I’m pouring everything I’ve got into serving this community in deeper ways. Check out katherinelazar.com for updates, sessions, and all things Loss Life. SHOP THE MERCH! https://at-a-total-loss.myshopify.com/ Find your loss posse on LOSSLINK.COM! *************************************NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. This podcast is not in place of therapy. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss ShopInstagram @thekatherinelazar Youtube: @thekatherinelazarEmail: [email protected]: www.katherinelazar.com Some helpful resources:https://countthekicks.org/https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/https://www.pushpregnancy.org/https://www.tommys.org/ Local to Atlanta:https://www.northsidepnl.com/

It’s my birthday — the fourth one since losing Brody — and this episode is as raw and real as it gets. I’m unpacking what birthdays feel like after loss, how healing actually looks in year four, and what life is like right now: therapy, hospital stays with my living son, and the everyday chaos that somehow keeps me grounded. Sprinkled with stories, a few F-bombs, and a whole lot of iced coffee, this is the most unfiltered glimpse into my world — a loss mama just doing the damn thing. ✨ Coming soon: new support groups, 1:1 mentoring, and more spaces to connect. I’m officially a Certified Grief Coach, and I’m pouring everything I’ve got into serving this community in deeper ways. Check out katherinelazar.com for updates, sessions, and all things Loss Life. SHOP THE MERCH! https://at-a-total-loss.myshopify.com/ Find your loss posse on LOSSLINK.COM! ************************************* NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. This podcast is not in place of therapy. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop Instagram @thekatherinelazar  Youtube: @thekatherinelazar Email: [email protected] Website: www.katherinelazar.com   Some helpful resources: https://countthekicks.org/ https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/ https://www.pushpregnancy.org/ https://www.tommys.org/   Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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