But I Want To Know

Can you be ok with not knowing until it is time? Can you allow uncertainty to be neutral rather than a crisis? Can you find time for hope as well as for fear? Can you be held in your moment of doubt?I had the joy of spending the week a few weeks ago with my family, my father, stepmother, sister, her kids, my kids, and my two grandchildren. It was the grandchildren that made me think of the opening of this. The thing that struck me about them was that they needed to know now…what was for dinner, where we were going, what someone was doing who wasn’t in the room. The time for knowing, for them, was now.And I think that carries forward for many of us, including me. Not knowing is difficult. And it’s even more difficult, particularly these days, to treat not knowing as neutral and not a problem to be solved. What has changed for me over time is that I know I am held in my moment of doubt, sometimes by the people who are with me physically and always by the people who are closest to my soul. As you read this, I wonder:* What would allow you to believe more fully that knowledge comes in its time?* Can the absence of information simply be the absence of information and not a signal that needs urgent explanation?* Can you reach out to those who hold you in your moment of doubt and acknowledge their contribution?What has changed so very much in my life is my certainty that I need not face my doubts alone, that I am supported without question, not by all, but by enough to change the face of doubt. May you see those who support you a bit more clearly this week and may they help you hope. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit aconstantbecoming.substack.com