Clicking out of the worst of the worst

As I've mentioned, within the last couple days, I feel like I've clicked out of the worst of the worst. The depression, the feeling suicidal, the not knowing what to do with myself next. So defaulting to Netflix and YouTube and staying in bed. And just now I kind of realized what the difference feels like, in a way. Because I was getting ready for the day. And I was stopped by this feeling of, Okay, I need to put on my makeup. But I want to grab the different types of lithium orotate, I have and show it on video. Oh, and I need to write this down. And I want to write this on my blog, all at the same time. So the brain goes from no possibilities, feeling like, I may as well in my life where it's painful. So I want to where I could to, there's five different things I could do at one time. I just had some probiotic. And also, when I was in the shower, I had the sense that it's possible that depression and mania are two different worlds. So I'm, I think I'm in a elevated state, slightly manic. Or I was just recently depressed. Or it could be that when I'm depressed, I'm in a different world, I'm in that sort of lower energy world. And when I'm manic, I'm in this other world. It's like two different worlds.Support this show http://supporter.acast.com/bipolar_inquiry. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.