dear diary #18, you're rushing & you don't even see it

I know that I recorded this but my gawd I needed to hear this again while I was editing it. I know that my creative process isn't as linear as I thought it would be but this message was so important. im grateful that im learning to slow down even with my own creations because truth is the thing I need or the motivation I can't find is renewed when I listen back to my work but often I dont because I fear my own criticism when truth is similar to going to the gym ive never regretted listening back to my work. I draw out my process now and it took me a while to give myself permission to, recording the thought is one part and does something for me but I still edit in order os it may be a couple of weeks before I edit so then I listen again to edit and then I get something else from it and then weeks after its actually posted I go back to cut clips and by then I am really just getting high on my own supply and I need it more than I know. its not just a bout posting your work its making sure you connect with it fully before putting it out so that you aren't blinded or confused my validation. that was my reflection after listening back and hope you all truly take a listen to this and see you all on Sunday at 9pm est xoxo Watch on Youtube All my Links