Deconstructing Myself, Pt 3 | The source of my pain - 10/28/2020

Its incredibly hard to say this... But I must admit that my dad has had much more of an influence on me then I ever wanted. I've realized that much of my feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, and indecision has come from him... From never feeling like I was enough or was worth respect or reward. I never felt much of the love I wanted from him, or felt like I could be vulnerable enough to share my love or desire for love. I could never trust myself... And thus why I found it so hard to be confident in myself.