DEPRESSION : DIGNITY : DISCIPLINE

After two days of binge eating and depression, I’m back on schedule. ⁣ ⁣ Lots of things go right when I’m able to show up and execute; Discipline is a mandatory skill. ⁣ I share this with you because it is also important to be accountable, and I want you to be able to trust all of my posts as regular and authentic parts of my life.⁣ ⁣ My intentions are to reveal my rallies of thought and spread a coherent message from authentic experience. It is important to believe that things can change, to say that there is a way, and to believe that there is one. ⁣ ⁣ Because you cannot manifest a future vision from a place of lack... ⁣🌸 ⁣ Both my sense of body, and sense of reality are grounded in a #psyche that feels emotions. So that means I need to ask — Am I playing on the bench, instead of on the field? Because it’s easy to get lost in narrative. ⁣ Are these thoughts (by their nature) illusions to illustrate the worthless and powerless perspective? Because it’s easy to play the victim. ⁣ Further, will I agree to continue this way, As another wounded creature without higher motives? Because it’s easy to get ugly and comfortable in this wonderful age. ⁣ ⁣ It’s easy, It’s easy to fetter this form, and all forms, and to relinquish the restless craving to converse the chaos and breed results - both for my behavior and for the bright completion of being.⁣ ⁣ "Why push?" It says, "You will go forth to death anyway."⁣ 🌺 ⁣ And I say, "Yes, that's right. But don't let me die unworthy, depressed and insecure in my life." I prefer to die as a simple man; authentic in his choice of words, satisfied with his bare situation, and penitent (perhaps) of only his own efforts....Not of nature. ⁣🤔