Diary of Someone with a Pattern of Avoidance and Withdrawl

In today’s episode of the Flynn Skidmore podcast, I discuss a personal pattern that has challenged and defined a part of who I am in relationships. I discuss the times I've walked away from relationships, leaving others feeling hurt due to my lack of communication. However, it’s not a simple story of complete avoidance; it's a pattern that doesn’t define all my relationships, as many have grown stronger and deeper over the years. However, the pattern of withdrawal absolutely exists for me, and I want to share my insights with you.Here’s what we’ll unpack today:I've been on a journey of introspection over the last few months, during which I've confronted this pattern directly, striving to understand the dynamics at play.The balance of conditional and unconditional love in relationships, and how I've historically used love perhaps more as a tool for change rather than as pure affection.How this reflection led to a broader understanding of my interactions and how I've begun reaching out to repair past relationships, transforming feelings of guilt and avoidance into opportunities for growth and honesty.The discussion will then expand into a broader philosophical exploration of love, growth, and personal responsibility in relationships.Join me as I reveal my struggles with closeness, value, and the desire to not just be, but to be better—and how this quest shapes the way I connect with others. This is about transforming personal insights into actionable wisdom that fosters deeper, more real, and honest relationships.Ways to Work with MeJoin the membership here for weekly live discussionsApply to join a future The Way of Mastery small group cohort1:1 with me