Don't Get Stuck On Your Big But (Is Your Plus-Sized Butt Blocking Your Super-Sized Purpose?)

Hey, this is Amber, and today I am owning something I kept quiet for a very long time. I had an eating disorder. And just like many of my sisters, I still struggle with body image — every single day. I have to shake it off myself, continually. I'm saying that out loud because someone needs to hear someone else say it first.We're talking about your big but today — the thing hiding behind your purpose — and mine was my body. For years. From the little girl put on her first diet before she even had the words for it, all the way to a grown woman sneaking to bathrooms and stepping on scales three times a day and letting a number decide whether she was worth anything.When I ended up in the psych ward for something completely separate, the medication they put me on changed my body in ways I couldn't control. And every single day I had to make the hardest choice — is my stability worth more than a number on a scale? I chose sanity. Every day I chose it. And I'd choose it again.But I still ended up crying in a makeup chair before my first book headshots thinking if my face was pretty enough maybe nobody would notice the rest of me. And I sat across from my speaking coach and said out loud — I don't think anyone would want to listen to me because of how I look. If any part of this podcast description hits close to home, tune in.If this is your story too, please reach out to the National Alliance for Eating Disorders at 1-866-662-1235.Amber Weigand-Buckley is an Amazon #1 bestselling and multi-award-winning author, podcaster, and the founding editor and art director of the multi-award-winning Leading Hearts magazine. She's the #shortyellowpencilgirl living in a neurotypical world — navigating life with a beehive brain, a lot of sticky notes, and an unwavering belief that God wired her exactly right.Host of #RandomDevoThoughts — where she unpacks the Jesus heart from the ADHD mind — Amber brings raw, relatable, and often hilarious insight to faith, mental health, and neurodivergent life. She's also co-host of Coffee Chat with Amber & Lisa.Her newly released book, #SisterhoodoftheShortYellowPencils: Mental Health Mayhem, One Sticky Note at a Time, is out now — a humor-packed, gut-punch honest look at her own mental health journey that's equal parts laugh-out-loud and life-changing.Follow her @barefacedgirl and @shortyellowpencilRX for the real, the raw, and the ridiculous.