ED lies, identity loss, and rebuilding – reading my ED diaries | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 11

hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish.today’s episode is a little different.i was feeling kind of chaotic, kind of scattered, and i knew i did not have it in me to do justice to one of the bigger, heavier topics i had planned. so instead, i did something i honestly never thought i would do.i pulled out my old journals.the actual journals i kept from the depths of my eating disorder through therapy, residential treatment, php, iop, and early recovery. five full books of wild thoughts, assignments, fears, honesty, and things i didn’t even want to say out loud at the time.so in this episode, i’m reading them with you.in this episode, i talk about: – the lies my eating disorder told me – the illusion of control it promised – what the eating disorder was giving me at the time – what it was quietly taking away – identity loss in recovery – why anger can be such a powerful emotion in healing – recovery assignments that actually helped – the moment i started imagining a future in a different body – what it looked like to slowly find myself againthere are definitely moments in this episode that are funny. there are also moments that really got me.more than anything, i hope it makes you feel less alone.because if you’ve ever felt like your thoughts were too weird, too dark, too obsessive, too much for anyone else to understand, i promise you are not the only one.support beyond the podcast if you want more structure and support in your recovery, Recovery Skills Training is my step by step program that helps you build real momentum with food, body image, coping, identity, and recovery skills that actually stick.use code PODCAST for $57 off 👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow along on instagram: @recoverwithchloedon’t forget to eat your food.Resources + Connect with Me:Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!