Ellen S - Surrender: Hitting a Second Bottom - Meeting 66

Ellen S. came across the Big Book rooms nearly 5 years ago, and treated the program as an alternative to therapy. She took from the program what she wanted, and left the rest in the rooms. Because her life began to get better anyway, this worked for a time. Until she had achieved every major goal her “self” from 5 years ago had set out to do, and her anxiety only grew stronger. This was her second bottom. It had to be thoroughly proven to her that she was an addict at heart. She has a body allergy to living life on life's terms. Wealth, relationship, career - all of it can be a “log” if she pursues them selfishly. All are a gift in God's will. BB p 334: an alcoholic cannot both control and enjoy his drinking. She could not both run her life, and enjoy living it too. Even if her actions changed little, her motivations had to align with God's constantly. If she doesn't live in surrender, she can't live at all.Welcome to Reco12.  We are an organization whose addictions include alcohol, drugs, lust and sex, food and gambling, just to name a few.  We come together from all places, faiths and backgrounds to learn the similarities of addiction and to gain tools and hope from others who are walking a similar path.  We invite recovering addicts with at least 1 year sobriety and who are actively working their recovery in their respective fellowships to share their experience, strength and hope on a live Zoom webinar, each Friday at 12:00 pm central time, for 20-25 minutes.  Then, we, the live audience, get the opportunity to ask questions of the speaker for another 20-25 minutes.  If you are hearing this meeting in recorded podcast form and would like to participate as a live audience member in the future, please go to www.reco12.com to learn more and submit your email address there to receive weekly invitations.  Reco12 is a self-supporting service and we appreciate your help in keeping us working our Step 12 in this manner.  We gratefully accept contributions to help cover the costs of the Zoom platform, podcast platform, web hosting, and administrative costs.  To contribute, you can go to https://www.reco12.com/support  or you can click the link to PayPal (https://www.paypal.me/reco12)  in the chat of the live meeting.  When you contribute, please specify the meeting number.  This is meeting number 66.References from this meeting:Alcoholics AnonymousSLAA - TorontoSpiritual Gangsters:Friday night (BB SLAA) 7:00 PM PST/ 10:00 PM EST  For those interested, best thing to do is to join one of our meetings, and we’ll provide information on how to join the whatsapp group in the chat there.Morning Meditation Meeting  M-F 7-7:30 EST  Sat & Sun 8am EST Outro music is “Standing Still” by Cory Ellsworth and Randy Kartchner, performed by Mike Eldred and Elizabeth Wolfe.  This song, and/or the entire soundtrack for the future Broadway musical, “Crosses:  A Musical of Hope”, can be purchased here:  https://music.apple.com/us/album/crosses-musical-hope-by-cory/528476262  This song is used with the  permission of Cory Ellsworth.Information on Noodle It Out with Nikki M Big Book Roundtable Informational Seeking and educating on how to donate to Reco12.Support the showPrivate Facebook GroupInstagram PageBecome a Reco12 Spearhead (Monthly Supporter)PatreonPayPalVenmo: @Reco-TwelveYouTube ChannelReco12 WebsiteEmail:  [email protected] to join WhatsApp GroupReco12 Shares PodcastReco12 Shares Record a Share LinkReco12 Noodle It Out with Nikki M PodcastReco12 Big Book Roundtable Podcast