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EPISODE · Nov 19, 2025 · 17 MIN

Episode 11: The Dark Side of Business That Nobody Speaks About

from BEN HAWKSWORTH · host Ben Hawksworth

In this episode, I open up about something I’ve never spoken about publicly in this level of depth before — the dark side of business. Not the highlight reel, not the wins, not the revenue screenshots… but the pressure, the fear, the loneliness, the mental health battles, and the identity struggles that so many entrepreneurs silently fight.I wanted to record this because there’s a narrative in the industry that tells you you must always feel motivated, positive, grateful, and “on it.” And if you don’t, something’s wrong with you. I don’t buy into that. I’ve worked with people at every level — from five-figure beginners to seven-figure leaders — and every single one of them has dealt with some form of mental or emotional challenge behind the scenes. Success doesn’t eliminate the struggles; in many cases, it amplifies them.In this episode, I take you through my own journey: Growing up in a toxic environment and learning early what boundaries really mean Building a business from nothing, scaling it, then watching it crash — and how that impacted my identity Rebuilding from zero and achieving big success… while feeling mentally worse than ever Becoming a father, juggling pressure from every direction, and experiencing depression for the first time Discovering my ADHD and ASD, and understanding how dopamine has shaped my ambition, focus, and burnout cycles Trying medication, facing the stigma, and finding something that finally helped me stabilise Navigating performance anxiety, leadership loneliness, comparison traps, financial pressure, and the emotional cost of scaling Learning that mental performance isn’t a “luxury” — it’s the foundation for everything This episode is raw, transparent, and probably the most honest piece of content I’ve ever recorded. My intention isn’t to be dramatic or to position myself in any kind of way — it’s simply to tell the truth. Because if you’re building a business while battling anxiety, overwhelm, ADHD, depression, or just the weight of expectation… you’re not broken, and you’re definitely not alone.Your business will only grow at the level you can sustain mentally. And if you want to create real impact — for your clients, your family, and yourself — you have to take your mental health seriously. Not later. Not when things calm down. Now.If this episode resonates, please share it. And if you’re struggling, talk to someone. You don’t have to carry all of this in silence.Find Out More About The Coach Consultant: Our Website Join Our Newsletter  Book A Free Discovery Call Order The 50/50 Rule To Life & Business Book Connect On Social Platforms: Instagram LinkedIn FaceBook TikTok X

In this episode, I open up about something I’ve never spoken about publicly in this level of depth before — the dark side of business. Not the highlight reel, not the wins, not the revenue screenshots… but the pressure, the fear, the loneliness, the mental health battles, and the identity struggles that so many entrepreneurs silently fight.I wanted to record this because there’s a narrative in the industry that tells you you must always feel motivated, positive, grateful, and “on it.” And if you don’t, something’s wrong with you. I don’t buy into that. I’ve worked with people at every level — from five-figure beginners to seven-figure leaders — and every single one of them has dealt with some form of mental or emotional challenge behind the scenes. Success doesn’t eliminate the struggles; in many cases, it amplifies them.In this episode, I take you through my own journey:Growing up in a toxic environment and learning early what boundaries really meanBuilding a business from nothing, scaling it, then watching it crash — and how that impacted my identityRebuilding from zero and achieving big success… while feeling mentally worse than everBecoming a father, juggling pressure from every direction, and experiencing depression for the first timeDiscovering my ADHD and ASD, and understanding how dopamine has shaped my ambition, focus, and burnout cyclesTrying medication, facing the stigma, and finding something that finally helped me stabiliseNavigating performance anxiety, leadership loneliness, comparison traps, financial pressure, and the emotional cost of scalingLearning that mental performance isn’t a “luxury” — it’s the foundation for everythingThis episode is raw, transparent, and probably the most honest piece of content I’ve ever recorded. My intention isn’t to be dramatic or to position myself in any kind of way — it’s simply to tell the truth. Because if you’re building a business while battling anxiety, overwhelm, ADHD, depression, or just the weight of expectation… you’re not broken, and you’re definitely not alone.Your business will only grow at the level you can sustain mentally. And if you want to create real impact — for your clients, your family, and yourself — you have to take your mental health seriously. Not later. Not when things calm down. Now.If this episode resonates, please share it. And if you’re struggling, talk to someone. You don’t have to carry all of this in silence.Find Out More About The Coach Consultant:Our WebsiteJoin Our Newsletter Book A Free Discovery CallOrder The 50/50 Rule To Life & Business BookConnect On Social Platforms:InstagramLinkedInFaceBookTikTokX

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