Episode 45: Summer Procotoling

What if bravery isn’t just about the big leaps, but also the small, daily choices? In this episode, Jackie and Denise reflect on the winding road that led Jackie from a dark season into preparing for grad school—and all the emotional, logistical, and spiritual layers in between.Key Times:00:00:00 – Tech victory + grounding breathwork 00:02:00 – Denise reflects on Jackie’s evolution: from survival mode to moving forward 00:04:42 – Jackie shares the reality of dark thoughts, resilience, and seeking help 00:07:53 – First-generation grad student challenges + moving logistics 00:09:28 – Prescriptions, health insurance, and the hidden weight of adulting 00:12:01 – Disneyland as escapism + knowing who the “right” helpers are 00:14:32 – Bravery and exposure therapy: applying to grad school despite fear 00:16:58 – Returning to student mode after nine years + curiosity over perfection 00:18:00 – Fourth of July at the Hollywood Bowl: patriotism, protest, and perspective 00:23:20 – Conspiracies, corruption, and parsing reality in anxious times 00:25:31 – Community care: money, bodies, and where we put our energy 00:27:10 – Denise’s hope for a Phoenix-like future, even amidst broken systems 00:28:02 – Closing thoughts: hope, gratitude, and Sunday meeting invitesShow Notes / Episode Summary:In this intimate episode, Denise and Jackie trace Jackie’s journey from a period of deep struggle to a season of packing boxes and preparing for grad school. Jackie opens up about the mental health challenges that shaped her path, the bravery it took to apply to programs despite fear of rejection, and the overwhelming logistics of moving to a new city with her dog, car, and adult responsibilities in tow.Denise reflects on what it means to witness her daughter’s growth, offering encouragement to focus on learning and curiosity over perfectionism as Jackie prepares to re-enter academia after nearly a decade away. Together, they hold a layered conversation that weaves in Fourth of July reflections on patriotism, the reality of conspiracy culture, and the ongoing tension between wanting to help the world and needing to put your own oxygen mask on first.They close with reminders about their Sunday “12 Steps for Everyone” community meetings, and the importance of hope—even when systems are broken.Topics Covered:Jackie’s mental health journey and resilienceThe challenges of moving for grad school as a first-generation studentMedical logistics, insurance, and adult responsibilitiesEscapism, boundaries, and knowing the “right” helpersBravery as both exposure therapy and everyday actionReturning to school after nine years + shifting mindset from grades to growthReflections on patriotism, protest, and broken systemsThe tension between conspiracy, anxiety, and grounded actionService, community, and the balance of self-care with giving backFollow Us:Follow Jackie: @jackiefreed.laFollow Denise: @denise.freedFollow us on Instagram: @12stepsforeveryoneFollow us on TikTok: @12stepsforeveryone