🎙️ Episode 56: Finding Joy Again

In this solo episode, I'm sharing something that has lived quietly inside me for a very long time — my complicated relationship with joy. 💛 I take you back to a day in August 1998, a day when I felt completely aligned, like I had everything in the palm of my hands. And then, in an instant, that joy was shattered by a phone call that changed everything. My brother had taken his own life. 🕊️For decades after that, whenever joy began to rise in me, a deep dread would follow — this quiet, gnawing feeling that it was too good to be true, that it was about to be ripped away. I've been sitting with that pattern for a long time now, really looking at it honestly, and I'm finally starting to understand it. 🌱I'm also sharing something that has genuinely moved me — my growing connection with Mother Earth, and how I've discovered I can call on her energy whenever I'm feeling heavy or alone. It comes in just like a hug. 🤍 And alongside her, I've felt the presence of my nan — soft, warm, always in her dusty pink jacket — showing up in ways I never expected.This episode is about learning to breathe joy in rather than brace against it. It's about choosing to step away from connections that leave me feeling small, and discovering that the support I've been searching for has been available to me all along. I'm still on this journey — still learning, still growing — and I'm sharing all of it, the raw and the real, just as it is. 🌸I hope something in what I've shared today lands gently in the heart where it's needed most. 💗You can find me at 🌐 Website: https://www.juliemargerison.com   📩 Subscribe to my fortnightly newsletter to stay connected https://www.juliemargerison.com/newsletter  🎧 Available now on all platforms.🔗 Stay in touch:Follow me across my social media platforms here:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/heartfeltwithjuliemargerison Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/16kXnE4SGn/?mibextid=wwXIfr YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@JulieMargerison-q5l LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/julie-margerison-1a4513374 Buzzsprout: https://www.buzzsprout.com/2514174 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3IqNNE9VP8FrCZgDyhZsWK?si=5898476e481a4622 Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/heart-felt-with-julie-margerison/id1824601386 #HeartFeltPodcast #FindingJoy #SelfDiscovery #HealingJourney #MotherEarth